ndily âûêðóòèëñÿ, after all sat in tutelary advice itself. The Money îòêóïèëñÿ or Gentlemen ïîìîã, who knows. Inni saw his(its) whole once. The Grey man ithing have not said, but has got up, again one motion, what the bamboo stalk straighnens up, which have bent to the ground. Anyway, he in perfection âëàäååò that thing, which there is he, not withoutigraphic hieroglyphic. Glyadya on them, Inni has instinctively thought about nimble skier, çàïå÷àòëåííîì in dizzy lowering on snow declivity. Taads, left door ajar, obviously was sometime for screen. Rizenkamp has attentively looked at calligra --------------------------------------------------------------- Narrative about endless solitude Novel Translation with netherland N.FEDOROVOY Moscow "Text" 2005 OCR & spellcheck Leshka --------------------------------------------------------------- Cees Nooteboom Rituelen Personne nest, au fond, plus tolerant que moi. Je vois des raisons pour soutenir toutes les opinions; ce nest pas que les miennes ne soint fort tranchees, mais je concois comment un home qui a vecu dans des circinstances contraires aux miens a aussi idees contraires. Stendhal, Broullion darticle, 1832 In ñóùåíîñòè, on light of no person more tolerant, than ya. Me comprehensible reasons of the variety of the judgements; and deal not in that that my own glances not too VWVrepeat over and over again, simply I shall realize that one, veins in circumstance, opposite my, has and opposite judgements. Stendali, Sketch of the article, 1832. 1. INTERMEZZO 1963 Und allen Planen gegenuber moch die Frage: "Was soll der Unsinn?"; eine Frage, die uberhaupt ganz und gar von mir Besitz zu nehmen droht. Theodor Fontane And that I nor has conceived, I pursue the question: "Why whole this nonsense?" - a question, which threatens to posess me completely. Teodor Fountain. In that day, when Inni Vintrop has finished the suicide, share price "Phillips" formed 146,60 points. On Amsterdamskomu bank final course was 375, but United steamship line dropped to 141,50. The Memory than-that looks like dog - where wants, there and will lie. After all if at all something be recalled, so exactly this - a stock priceses, and the moon on channel, and as he was hung in óáîðíîé, having predicted itself in horoscope for "Password" that from it óéäåò wife and he, Lion, will finish the suicide. Prorochestvo was sold in all. Zita has run down with italian, but Inni has finished the suicide. Else he read then poem Bluma (1), but what exactly - has forgotten. The Dog - a beast arbitrary, here she çààðòà÷èëàñü. Six times year earlier, in night before wedding, on same Prinsengraht, on step Palace to justices, he cried in the same way sincerely, as on Valeriusstraat cried Zita, when he has deprived her(its) virginity in room, full frog and reptile. And for the same reason. From unclear presentiment and instinctive awe to change its life - than is pleased, at least and certain symbol or rite. He much loved Zitu. And at heart showers, only about itself, named her(its) princess to Namibia. Since she had a green eye, and brilliant redhead hairs, and, as as one should, dull white-rose skin - all take;receive high íàìèáèéñêîé know; aware, but besides, in she was felt silent, reserved surprise, which in Namibia ñëûâåò äîáðîäåòåëüþ of the true aristocracy all over. Zita loved Inni, probably, else more. All have went rack and ruin only that's why that Inni did not love itself. Though, certainly, were sewn on and such, who confirmed that blame whole their fool name, but as Inni (Inigo, in honour of famous english of the architect (2)), so and Zita (the mother of the princess to Namibia was an admirer of the building Gabsburgov (3)) knew that unusual çâó÷àíèå names selected them and isolated from rest world, and, in beds lying down, could be, hour repeated over and over again "Inni-Inni-Zita-Zita", but in person events and else more soft, tender variants - Zinni, Ita, Inizita, Zinnininita, Itizita, - in such instants they wanted always to continue this entanglement of the names and tel, but, alas, on light no more irreconcilable enemy, than time as a whole and any free, isolated his(its) part, and nothing here will not do. Inni Vintrop, now ëûñîâàòûé, but then with unruly and on that timeses by long golden head of hair, differed from many their own person of the same age since bad hit it off with night solitude, had some money and occasionly ãðåçèë while awake. Else he sometimes traded painting, formed the horoscopes for "Password", knew by heart mass netherland verse and attentively keeped a check on situation on exchange and goods market. The Political beliefs, what sense they nor were, he considered more or less light forms emotional disease and itself most has conducted in the world place dilettante, in italian sense of the word. Surrounding estimated these çàìàøêè as îïïîçèöèîíåðñòâî, and in Amsterdam perceived their all more annoyed - after all have already come the øåñòèäåñÿòûå years. "Inni lives in two worlds", - spoke him(it) very different friends, themselves æèâøèå in one-single world, but Inni, at any minute of the day and nights - at least and on request! - ready âîçíåíàâèäåòü itself, here did the exception. Be he ÷åñòîëþáèâ, he most certainly has willingly acknowledged itself loser, but beside it was not no pride, and on life he looked as on ñòðàííîâàòûé club, where found oneself absolutely accidentally and whence could fly without any explanations. He and itself has already solved to leave thereof club if gathering will become completely boring. But what will define that tedium reached the limit? Quite often seemed that this wink has already approached. Inni then integer by days wallowed on floor, having buried oneself by head in hard scar of the chinese mat, which left on his(its) enough tender skin patterns in stiletto Fountains (4). Zita named this ñàìîåäñòâîì, but, understanding that from depths by invisible flow whipped the authentic anguish, tried in such gloomy days to surround Inni person by care. The Most ñàìîåäñòâî ended the vision. And then Inni was chosen from nerve-racking óãðûçåíèé, called Zitu, described her essence, which were right before shown him, and told that they spoke. From that nights, when Inni cried on step Palace to justices, passed the years. They with Zitoy ated, saws, travelled. Inni lost the money on nickel and earned on watercolors Gaagskoy schools, formed the horoscopes and recipes for "Elegans". Zita hardly did not become the mother, but on ñåé once Inni did not cope with its awe before change âåëåë overlay the access in the world, which his(its) eventually too did not interest. And has thereby clamped seal the most greater change from all - a care Zity. Inni has caught only first light shade: the skin beside she became to land, eye occasionly did not look at it, she less named him(it) by name, - but linked he these take;receive solely with her(its) fate, rather then with its. Time - a piece ñâîåîáðàçíàÿ: when are looked over back, it âèäèòñÿ the compact mass, indivisible monolith, dish with single scent and single taste. Inni, well familiar with sought-after cliche modern poet, loved in that days to speak of itself as about "hole", as about being absent, nonexistent. Not in example poet, he did not bear in mind nothing serious, for it this was simply social commentary to fact that he knew how âîäèòü company with much and much miscellaneous by people. The Hole, chameleon, empty container, which possible fill the action and speech, - him this was no difference, but possibilities for mimicry Amsterdam offered how much are pleased. "You do not live, -- has said him once upon a time friend writer, - you go on cause", and Inni has perceived this as compliment. He considered that equally well plays its role and in unexceptional cafe, and on shareholders meetings. Only hairstyle and cloth occasionly created to difficulties, but just in that years whole Amsterdam îõàìåëåîíèëñÿ, áåñêëàññîâîñòü society has proclaimed in cloth first of all, and more did not matter, when, who and as was dress;clad, - and for Inni has come the most lucky time if permissible to speak of than-that such in his(its) lifes. The Other deal Zita. The Inexhaustible íàìèáèéñêèå reserves and that finally run short. Beside some womans so much devotion that from faithfull catastrophe their can rescue only treason, one-single. Probably, Inni was able guess about this, but at one time, in depths of the indivisible mass of irretrievable time, he ceased to turn on Zitu attention and that else worse, under all ïðåäçíàìåíîâàíèÿõ and shade, slowly her(its) forgetting, has rescued with her all more often so Zita slowly, but faithfully selected its love beside this all more someone else men, which, agitating her(it), fondling, kissing, carrying to tops bliss, other once integer by days her(its) did not notice. So Inni and Zita become verily machine of the sensuality, love;like-dearly ãëÿäåòü -- embellishment of the city, fairy-tale figures on evening party Haffi Keyzer and Dick Holthausa. When Zita could be one, her other once wanted to stand beside shop windows with baby cloth. And then she shuddered from pent-up thirst of the revenge, most, when Inni - see this could only imaginative èñïîëèíñêèé computer, which registers all and the whole, - somewhere in miserable êîìíàòóøêå of one of the european capitals enjoyed with hooker or ñîïëþøêîé in jeans or on-large lost for gaming table, six once in a row raising rates. On careful manoeuvres of the southerner, which attracted the vengeful expression white, bordered by redheads hair feminine person in mirror shop window of the baby shop, Zita paid no regard. Her(its) time did not yet come. This was Amsterdam else before áóíòàðåé øåñòèäåñÿòûõ, before çàñèëüÿ prist-musics, before endless year fervours though here and there in magic ïîëóêðóæüå already ripened the enxiety. Seemed, Indonesia very long ago climbed down somewhere on the last pages of the domestic history, which afterwards come to write anew, and on-other quite. On straightedge was is in two divided Korea, and has separated her(its) that other name the inevitability of the history development, and somebody already understood that seed Vietnam áðîøåíî in the land. Fish beginning to perish from such things, from what previously did not perish never, but person of the people in all more long âåðåíèöàõ of the cars on street occasionly shown the eye that patchwork çàêîìïëåêñîâàííîñòè and aggressions, which will add so inimitable look year ñåìèäåñÿòûì, but, similars, only scanned units were aware of that that nature, mother whole putting, soon will not bear and that dirty timeses will come the end, on ñåé once for ever. However under external lack of information slowly flamed up the fire an enxiety, despairs and malices. Amsterdam began quietly to smoulder, but each referred this to account of the own evil mood, anguish, inevitable marriage or lack of money. Nobody while has not relieved this heavy burden, having announced world that ill has struck in the first place society itself, but uzh afterwards some his(its) members. "All more gloomy awakening" - under such motto Inni veins in that time. When exactly for he came the night, was, as a rule, not wholly clear, but in the middle nights he certainly awoke, but then died, at least once he so this named. The Known that, diing, person in scanned seconds haves time to "to see whole its life". So here is, with Inni such happened each night - only he did not see nothing since nearly did not remember its lifes before appearance of the aunts Terezy. Before he slithered the sulfuric film, on which only once in a while flashed the scenes: small or already ïîñòàðøå, he participated in short fragmentary ñöåíêàõ, not too liason event, but that and in rather long subject composition, which some unexplained image detained on empty lofts of his(its) memories, for instance egg on table in Tilburge or enormous mauve member of the casual neighbour in óáîðíîé on Shenkkade in Hague. As he managed under all under that remember by heart poetry, was for it most riddle, and quite often he introduced that, probably, better learn whole life by heart and at least once see in night repetition of the last instants the least bit coherent film, rather then disembodied scrap, in which no neither logic, nor sense though finished life, seamingly, has the right them to possess. Can happen, daily death was so monstrous wistful exactly that's why that on-persisting nobody in general did not die, yes and these ñóìáóðíûõ scrap too nobody never will see. Daytime unchangeable and indivertible ïóñòîïîðîæíèé rotation his(its) did not alarm, after all finally indeed death has a no relation to lifes. In addition he feared to speak of this with Zitoy and in general with whom that nor was. Zita has rescued primitive íàìèáèéñêèì ñíîì, and, when came the hour of the night torments, he was liberated from her(its) close-fitting embrace, went in the other room and cried, bitterly, but not long. Afterwards, when he returned in bed, she newly revealled the embraces, exactly hand saw him(it), and all seemed, is woke;waked opens something much greater - paradise êóùè with their soft warm meadow, where right before ñêîñèëè herb and where sweetly sleep all Inni on light. The Weakness to his(its) memories as if ïåðåêèíóëàñü on all and each, after all, in the opinion of Inni, nothing other impossible was explain that nobody, well absolutely nobody could not later tell him, what was summer sixty third years. When speech called at about summer, about any summer, itself he invariably visualized hot day in wood around building Arnodda Taadsa under Doornom - all are delayed by light haze, is choked, here is-here is ãðÿíåò thunderstorm. The Ponds black, calm, ready to reflect that is pleased, weary ducks repose in coast bulrush, sometime on roof of the country building desperately squalls the peacock, and, be can, immediately hereon will come äîëãîæäàííûé an end of the light. Mildly smell(blows in) the ãíèëüþ since now ñàìîåäñòâóåò the nature. Inni nothing do no need. Here is what was seen Inni summer in general, but signifies, and summer sixty third while someone have not peeked in newspaper hemming and has not told him that summer sixty third without the end poured the rain. He, certainly, knew though again-òàêè with someone else words that in that year was enamoured in áàðìåíøó with Futboogsteeg and that italian, worked at kitchen of the hotel "Victoria", but on leisure concerned with photography, has done ôîòîïîðòðåò Zity for journal "Taboo", which left whole two numbers, but this turned out to be wholly it is enough that happiness Inni and Zity has went rack and ruin, after all, as it were there nor was, long passion on wear-out, greedy âçàèìîïîãëîùåíèå, as if they participated in some frantic sumptuous feast, long, intended for empty movie film àìñòåðäàìñêèå to nights with transmigration rafts and sudden visions - all this was happiness, and it will disappear and nevermore return. Never. The Bar was long and dark, calculated on small äåëüöîâ and provincial, people modest äîñòàòêà, which feared to go to whore and were too economical to contain the girlfriend; instead of this they protruded in gloomy bar, beside racks, drawn all over in scottish hutch, and gaped on powerful white bust Lidy, paying for pleasure by inexhaustible flow of the peppermint liquor and soda. This and was whole blame - a faded flow to green liquid, disappeared in her(its) áîëüøîì ðòó, but else fool hairstyle, âûñî÷åííàÿ, in some silvery-sulphur divorce, yes splendid white bosom, exposed on display so generously and all so stingily, well and that she was more than on head above Inni. "Inwardly I through green", - repeated over and over again she, and this too agitated him(it). With timeses first, persisting Lidy, which called not at all Lida, but Petra, in lifes Inni has haved been the ensemble Lid, and, not being convinced philosopher, explained he this differently. Sometimes and âïðÿìü was mixed up love, but happened, he presented itself such vampire, which could live, only âûñàñûâàÿ "light" from womans, passer-by or, as he was expressed, vague ladylike essence feminine flap. Short âçëåòû, change, âçàèìîïîäòàëêèâàíèå hardly not anonimous event let not for long, but gave Inni sensation that he exists. Not that that this he always liked, however occasionly, when time stretched infinitely, when unconceived long days brought him(it) in confusion, when seemed that minutes and hours always will more, than water and air, he, exactly rambling dog, loitered on street, making type that him íåâòåðïåæ bang, but at night else deeper, than always, çàðûâàëñÿ in embraces Zity. But could be and the other periods - a days, when huntsman became mining, timeses, when belongings did not pester its obtruding presence and, seen car, he not always thought "car", when days did not hung around empty íåíàïîëíèìûìè block. Then he in impossible excitement thrashed about on city, is woke;waked on wing flew, and presented itself each, who ïðèòÿçàë on short possession Inni Vintropom. Zity all this did not concern. While exists the world, but became to be, and he itself, Inni has firmly solved to follow the rule Zity, but they were uncomplicated: that he nor did, she this knows did not want, èáî otherwise her to come to kill him(it) that absolutely nobody not it is necessary. All have occurred suddenly, in that year, about which beside us go the speech, at one of the november days. Inni has sold small çåìåëüíûé area remained from ïîïàâøåãî under trusteeship inheritance, has eaten with notary in "Oyster bar", îòâåç Zitu to girlfriend on South and now regaled Lidu peppermint liquor. - Tonight I go with you, - has declared he, having settled a dispute between that on-àìñòåðäàìñêè for the best "to get sticky" exactly so. - Aha, - has said she, having bent head awry, as parrot, which want once again to hear the unaccustomed sound. She îòõëåáíóëà else gulp, and, observing, as green hogwash disappears beside it in ðòó, Inni has felt that from somewhere from finger of the legs slowly íàïëûâàåò excitement. Lida vein west. After liquor him(it) before impossibility has agitated the äëèííóùàÿ stairway to her in mansard, but under the end and itself êîìíàòóøêà with braided easy chair, dissolved coffee, pot êàëåíäóëû, coco mat and frame with portrait father, such bald Lidy, which suspicious goggled from that light in room to see, who daughter has brought on ñåé once. The Nakedness of the person, who he never before saw nacked, moved Inni. Only think that sometime in anonimous quarter in wooden cubicle on some there floor you in two counts ìîæåøü to return absolutely stranger, dressed, ïðÿìîõîäÿùèõ people in most that nor there is natural condition on that stranger from ýñïðåññî-bar, most recently pageable "Elzevir", now lies nacked near by you in beds, which before that never existed though and existed the long years, - if and there is effective facility against death, blindnesses and cancer, so exactly this. Lida was big, blanching, gentile, splendid, and after wholly comprehensible event, during which she that and deal called the ma, both of them looked as victims of the unchancy flight, sweaty heap collapsed to the ground rafts, both are getted all dirty by silvery powder with her(its) hair, which, dispensed from øïèëåê, have covered her(it) before áåäåð. Several minutes they so and lay. Either as ordered the rules, Inni was vexed. While embraces enormous Lidy on drop oozed in depths his(its) unconsciousness, he, on îáûêíîâåíèþ, angrily thought about that that now will. They are opened, well, can be, âûìîþòñÿ, he comes down on long stairway, but she óñíåò in its êîìíàòóøêå and tomorrow will once again drink the peppermint liquor with any idiot, and óìðóò they each itself, on hospital berth, sufferring from indifference young ìåäñåñòåð, not yet been born on light. He not ãëÿäÿ ïîøàðèë for back - before that what lie in bed, saw there pack "Kabaliero". When he raised oneself slightly, Lida quietly çàâîð÷àëà, but his(its) glance suddenly to abut against in eye Zity. The Paper eye, but even so her(it). The Photography from "Taboo", on whole u-turn. Well here is, has thought Inni, I in Pompeyah. Presently me çàõëåñòíåò flow of the lava, and I for ever remain here. The Man biased on woman. And after all in unconceived distant tomorrow nobody in head will not come that she quite stranger; ïîäíÿâ head, man looks at something very long ago invisible. His(its) has covered the sadness. A Hundreds once he saw this photography, but now seemed, is woke;waked for picture, four buttons ïðèøïèëåííîì to brown îáîÿì, was found universe, consisting of one only Zity, the universe, where him hereafter no access. But that this? The Green eye cool, is as if sliced from impervious stone. Really at one time they looked at it with love? The Lips beside it ajar, is woke;waked she was going to to pronounce or has already pronounced something such that íàâåêè is through with Zitoy and Inni, íàìèáèéñêîå curse, low shattering formula, which will wipe their laughable name, will impose on them prohibition, will do unpronounceable and íàâåêè èçãîíèò him(it) from her(its) lifes, not only from liing ahead time - else where nor went, - but also from past, and then all that was, will cease to exist. The Integer eight years will are deleted, and he together with them! Inni all ïðèñòàëüíåå âãëÿäûâàëñÿ in paper person, and since each second it all were more changed, ïðåâðàùàÿñü in unacquainted, hostile feminine mask, which, beyond all doubt, saw his(its) - and rejected since simultaneously looked at someone other with love, intended already not him, Inni, but that single, on who she looked, when was made this picture, - a photographer. - A Beautiful head beside girls, - has said Lida, ñàäÿñü in beds. He has noticed, as bosom beside it now in silver. All over this gunk - beside it on hand and on bosom, beside it on person, all over! He has got up and was dressed, ãëÿäÿ, as in mirror flashes the reflection his(its) silver figure. - Do Not want to you to get accustomed, - has said Lida, and has sounded this as item of the agenda some meetings. He ìàõíóë the hand aside silver, suddenly became wet from tears heel her(its) person, and left outward, on street with silent, ïðèòèõøèìè house, full sleeping people. Has Ïðîåõàë he in Bosplan straight and tried in pond to wash the hands from silver, this external sign of its care from life Zity, but in vain, opposite, became only worse. The Sixth hour morning. The Nature, where animals each other do not know and nobody nobody does not love, was aroused. The Photographer, has thought he and has recalled that has for the first time met Zitu on ôîòîâûñòàâêå, she confronted the own portrait. First he has seen this portrait, but afterwards her(it) and at all could not understand, who who denies - a woman on photographies that that stood in common-room, or on the contrary. Other photographies - to example, famous portrait äâàäöàòèëåòíåé to Virginia Vulf, that, where she ãëÿäèò aside, - so perfect that çàïå÷àòëåííîå on them living being seems the ãðåçîé, than-that created specially for ôîòîãðàôèðîâàíèÿ. Inni realized this, when he wanted to get acquainted with original of the portrait, when simply could not not talk with woman, confronted picture, and he really so and has done. The Photography hunged in òåìíîâàòîì to corner, but immediately attracted his(its) attention. She is a powerful manilla to itself. Seemed, this person, which by no means could belong to the alive person, existed the thousand of the years, absolutely independent from the whole, isolated, harmony itself. He well remembered that, íàïðàâëÿÿñü to her, felt the lung a dizziness. She îòîøëà from portrait that has simplified the situation, and stood beside window, lighted;litted up by soft light, one, with unflappable áåçó÷àñòíîñòüþ of the person, who is created only then to, not returning itself in this report, be not such, as others, single and inimitable representative quite other tribe, as follows - her. So he fell into her(its) world, but did not be able to become his(its) part, has caused the ill, getting drunk made harmonica Zity, and now carries the well-earned punishment. Little-by-little dawned. He flinched from chill. The Big heron has done on him circle and, slamming wing, was lowered in bulrushes. Afterwards again all çàìåðëî, and Inni seemed, is woke;waked itself he too for the first time stopped, is woke;waked after the first meeting with Zitoy never detained, only went, went, and this long transition, this ceaseless motion has brought him(it) here that he stood beside çäåøíåãî of the pond, with silver divorce on hand, yes, probably, and on person. He has solved not to wash off them, but go straight home. If all that he thought, truth, he must sustain the punishment, but then better uzh immediately. All have now forfeited toughness, became the chaos, but chaos he was afraid of in lifes most of all, chaos, where will be cast-off if she will leave him(it). Left not so, as he thought. Certainly, Zita fell in love in photographer and, certainly, has rescued with him. He was beside it first man thereafter, as she has met Inni, but Inni was in general first man in her(its) lifes. With unshaksble confidence of the person, who lives on commandment, she realized that must now leave Inni, but since pertained to him well and was aware of his(its) awe before chaos, was distressed, but after all nothing will not do. All will occur as in Namibia - soundless, quickly and without united rift in crystal. When he entered, Zita has kissed him(it), has said that will find than wash this strange silver, helped him to wash, embraced, but afterwards has took with you in bed. Never else he did not love her(its) so; if b could, he penetrated in it and head, and all its essence, without the remainder, and for ever remained there - but when all passed and she has rescued, as newborn sister Tutanhamona, before terror quietly, as if from age did not breathe, as if and was not here is right before obsessed, screaming áåçóìèöåé, - then he óðàçóìåë that about its VWVincrease the frequency of nothing now do not know. Zity here was not, as all these years was not him(it). Inni has got up, has taken the tablet a sleeping pill from their own spare. But when around ïîëóäíÿ awoke, Zita was such, as in this morning, as in past and before last year, as in the first once, - a swamp perfection, where óòîíåò any, who äåðçíåò to carry too far. Went the weeks. Zita was seen with its italian, has rescued with him, allowed itself to take pictures, and every time, when he her(its) removed, scintilla Inni moldered in àìñòåðäàìñêîì air, new love was a crematorium for old that's why-that once upon a time in the morning, when Inni crossed Koningspleyn, in eye he has got the small part an ash, which at all did not want to leave the halitosis while Zita not ñëèçíóëà her(its) tip language, at the same time having noticed that he bad looks. There was this at noon, at friday, and occurring hardly had a relation to èòàëüÿíöàì and ëþáâè, sooner to hidden, secretly äîøåäøåìó before us from depth of the ages unwritten íàìèáèéñêîìó law, according to which once at eight years, in ïÿòíè÷íûé afternoon, approaches the hour of the payment, and uzh then pay it is necessary in full. Probably, in such ïîëóäíè in that country convened the mans to betray their terrible death, but, what could be with many ancient custom, in äèàñïîðå the most sharp galley proof were blunted. Inni have sent in exile, only he knows did not know that exactly in this day. Zita has taken calculation and anymore had a relations to him. In this day she óåäåò in Italy with italian, beside which, either as beside it, no money. That their waits, she did not know and, frankly dialect, haved apremonition about, as there her to do the íå÷åãî. Simply so bound to happen, here is and all. After she ñëèçíóëà the ash, Inni sowed;sown for writing-table. Through hour and a half it is necessary to deliver in "Poroli" horoscope for saturday exhibit. He has turned the pages of "Marie Kler", "Harpers market", "New", books on astrologies, something have written off, something ñî÷èíèë - a word, was caused anxiety by fate of the other people, after all read-that all this im. having Got before own sign, before Liva, and read in "Harpers" that all he will have in order, but in "El" - that deal bad, he has postponed the handle and has said the Ill, which settled down on couch beside window to admire last time on Prinsengraht: - Well why it is impossible write: dear Cancer, you çàáîëåååòå doggy style; or: The Lion, today with you will happen something terrible - you throw the wife, and you finish the suicide? Zita knew that he thinks about its aunt and about Arnolde Taadse, and her(its) green eye has got dark, but he nothing have not noticed and has giggled. She has turned the head, has looked at it. At the table sat and laughed absolutely someone else person. She burst out laughing. Inni has got up, ïîäîøåë to her. Has Ironned on hair, wanted to lie beside. - No, - has said she, but itself this nothing do not signify. This could be a part of play, which she free or instinctively wanted his(its) tease or in which he must was something her rasskazati. - On ñåé once to come to pay, - continued she. That zh, and this not news. He felt, as inwardly rises the enormous desire. - How much? - has asked he. - Five thousand gulden. Inni burst out laughing. Five thousand gulden. Has Unbuttoned her(its) blouse. More hundreds hitherto to pay was not brought. And always both long on this roared with laughter. In such events they concerned with the love on money bill straight, hearing, as she ïîõðóñòûâàåò. À after Zita certainly shown that bought itself on these money, or invited him(it) in restaurant to eat, but once, in Red region, with the most serene type has mended to the first ïîïàâøåéñÿ to hooker and has silently returned the money to her. -Five thousand, - has repeated Zita. - Tvoi cheques in red small box. The New play. Madly agitating, but Zita did not laugh. Though, can be, in this and consisted novelty? -Well, - has said he. The Calculation, acquittance, final payment for absence, resolute cross on ëþáâè, full èñòðåáëåíèå time from the first look at ôîòîâûñòàâêå before this here is minute, at participation same two tel, - for the first time all this beginning to find the clear sidebars. After years, in Palermo, for the first time seen her(it) back into óáîãîì hotel number, he will ask, why so left, and she will not answer, knowing that he knows. Presently, between that as this hotel number already exists, but years, which they, previously than be met newly, will call on apart, else no, - presently he will get from red small box cheques, signs. She takes them beside it, all in the same way, without smile, will get up, goes in corner, takes out of bag purse. Neatly hides the cheques, puts the bag on place and slowly gets undressed, all in the same way without smile, with before terror being absent type, which there is punishment, but, be can, even so part of new play. Cost(stand)s denuded, looks at it, goes to beds, lies, closes the eye and speaks: - Well. Let's. Already presently - and both this knows though and can not see, - in ïàëåðìñêèé number much quietly, much carefully sneaks that most, because of what she was óéòè and really left, - his(its) weakness. He gets undressed with the same sensation çàãíàííîñòè in corner, what overcomes him(it) and with persisting hooker. She carries the hand to lip, moistens itself, speaks: - Go here. But he thinks: what she wants? That he âïðàâäó îáîøåëñÿ with her as with hooker or ed (did the type, is woke;waked is irritated) and èçíàñèëîâàë her(its) (has done the type, is woke;waked forces)? - I so can not, - speaks he. - You always ìîæåøü, - speaks she. About õâàòûâàåò him(it) for neck, pulls to itself so his(its) head turns out to be near by her(its) pillow and they can not see each other; and here is so - a blind man, copulating with blind, - he last time falls into it amongst enormous shattering silence, which is prolonged until she not to choose from beneath it and, having put hand between legs, will not dart out the halitosis from room. Inni remains in beds. He has absolutely become numb, from awe and humiliations. As if returned after absence home, thinks he, and has found the heaps beaten glass, shit and rubbish. While he âîïðîøàåò itself that now to do, Zita from next room rings in bank and asks little wait with closing: her necessary to remove the greater amount in lira. The Seed Inni between that cool drop flows on leg her in palm, oozes VWXbe drafty finger on floor. Inni hears, as she is dressed, what goes on room; estimating on sound direction her(its) step, first barefoot leg, in loafer afterwards, he hears, as she çàìèðàåò beside threshold, slow, does the step to him and again leaves, afterwards, already in door, speaks: - Do Not forget about horoscope, it is necessary to have time to before four, - but afterwards heard only patter door and november wind, on wink âîðâàâøèéñÿ in house. He sits for table, completes the horoscope. On Utrehtsestraat, Keyzersgraht, Spihelstraat, Herengraht, Koningspleyn hurry to building "Password" on Niyuvezeyds, where and will deliver its opus. But afterwards, when Zita from bank on Veyzelstraat moves in "Dutch coffee North-South" that near Central station, Inni, unmeasured slowly, goes in opposite side, home. On road peeks in "Sheltema", "Koningshut", "Hoppe", "Piper", "Hans and Gritie", in cafe "Sentrum". Never else he so did not drink once fill. Home he comes in the night. In empty room aloud calls her(it) by name, yells and yells until neighbours require on telephone that he was shut. Then only he finds the note, in which she reported that not to return never; he cost(stand)s with note in hand, long goggles on slip and suddenly hears the own voice: - A Lion, today with you will happen something terrible: you throw the wife and you finish the suicide. He knows that to do. The Shaky gait, running into on chair and tables, trudges on room, gets before óáîðíîé and with some labour is hung on the most high place, where pipes of the heating and pluming straight beside ceiling are clamped between itself double ring. The Sky to deaths - a sky sulphur clouds. They race on nacked treetop along channel. Inni awakes in çàáëåâàííîé to beds, òðÿñóùèìèñÿ finger drags with necks èçîäðàííûé tie. All body in scratch, sheet in shelters. Exactly çàâîäíàÿ doll, he goes in âàííóþ, washes, áðååòñÿ, takes two tablets àëêà-çåëöåð and, persistently trying not to think about Ill, leaves on street. At the corner Utrehtsestraat buies "Handelsblad". Calls at in "Oosterling", books two black coffee, salad and, as always, first go opens the exchange page. The Font êðóïíåå usual, and Inni slowly, is woke;waked at once has powerfully getted old, reads: "On imperative request managament Assotiations on trade securities in 20.45 sale were discontinued in connection with death of the american president. When came the terrible èçâåñòèå that president Kennedy seriously, but can be, and is mortally wounded, share price become rapidly fall. The Consolidated index milk-Dzhonsa, which at first increased on 3,31 points, dropped to 711,49. This on 21,16 points below in contrast with given on closing the sale in thursday and the most sharp fall with timeses of the panic 28 May 1962.". He packs the newspaper and second considers the photography on the first band. The Youthful president rests upon back seat of the big car, is woke;waked sleeps. The Wife, looking like mask from "Orestei", cost(stand)s beside, straight line as string, and does not reduce the eye with greater wine colour heel on its suit, which is remembered by her for ever. Three belongings Inni knows absolutely definitely: Zita never to return, itself he not moderate;temper, but on exchange will tomorrow be a horrible agiotage. That gold, which at the following monday will buy his(its) trader in Switzerlands, to 1983, when all weeklies of the world in äåñÿòèòûñÿ÷íûé will once reprint this sorrowful photography, has brought him more thousand of the percents of the profit. The Portentous photography - she unequivocally warned that approach the dim timeses. 2. ARNOLD TAADS 1953 Simili modo postquam coenatum est, accipiens et hunc praeclarum Calicem in sanctas ac venerabiles manus suas; item tibi gratias agens, benedixit, deditque discipulis suis, dicens: Accipite, et bibite ex eo omnes. Hie est enim Calix Sanguinis mei, novi et aeterni testamenti: mysterium fidei: qui pro vobis et pro multis effundetur in remissionem pecca-torum. Haec quotiecomque feceritis, in mei me-moriam facietis. (Like, âçÿâ after evenings ñèþ beautiful chalice in saint and worthy hands Their own and having thanked, with blessing gave the pupil and has said: take and go from it all. Ibo sheatfish there is chalice Shelters My new and eternal precept, mystery of the faith; The Blood My, for many poured out in leaving sin. The Sheatfish create in My recollection.) From Canon of the Saint liturgy See you later with Philip Taadsom Inni Vintrop invariably thought that Arnold Taads - most solitary of the person in Netherlands. But turned out to be, can be else worse. Possible have a father, but be him absolutely someone else, stranger. Arnold Taads never spoke of son and hereunder, what considered Inni, îáðåê of this to outlandish form íåñóùåñòâîâàíèÿ, which finally âûëèëàñü in the form of the irrevocable nonexistence - a death. Since father and son wholly by itself, not notifying each other, have elected the absolute nonexistence, Inni has saved for both only one form - gave him possibility to visit his(its) thoughts. And they fairly often this used. At the most unexpected time and in the most unexpected places they were shown him in ñíàõ silt osier unclear thought between ñíîì and reality that are called ãðåçàìè, and then occurred that, what under their lifes did not happen never: they emerged two together, inseparable duo, and night in hotel number caught on it terror its âñåñîêðóøàþùåé sadness. The First meeting with Arnoldom Taadsom was remembered him for ever though left so simply that's why that memory about her indissoluble was connected with memory about aunt Tereze, which has too finished the suicide, let and not so premidiated, as two others. The Person who had committed suicides, can be, numbers before a thousand of people, and group this very making colorful, like passenger, expecting 16-go trams beside stops on àìñòåðäàìñêîé Laressestraat before most rush hours. The Focus to statistical information, similars, was situated on proximity sometime, and data were wholly exact. On count;calculate;list familiar person who had committed suicides - otherwise will not say, after all fact to deaths as it were terminated the acquaintance, simply therefore that these people anymore could present no surprise, - Inni has concluded that circle his(its) familiar, sooner whole, covers the thousand of people. If invite all these voluntary dead person on tea, hardly dispense two dozens cake from Berkhofa. Dripped in nonexistence he divided in two categories, review on that, what way they elected - "hutch" or "stairway". In the first event after some initial effort all went itself itself, in âòîðîì happened to ïîïîòåòü. The Aunt Tereza has undoubtedly chosen "hutch". Drunkenness and practised mixture the hysterias and depressions by natural image has her(it) to output from ball common-room, but here is both Taadsa unflinching stole VWXbe drafty labyrinths and clamberred on endless stairway to come in total additionally. 2 There is people, which, as if formless ãëûáó, âîëîêóò for itself all that time that they have conducted on the land, and Inni Vintrop was from their numbers. It is impossible say that this thought occupied him(it) from day to day, but she regularly returned and caused beside it alive interest as far back as that time, when cargo past was far easier. He did not know how neither to value its time, nor measure, nor divide. Though, probably, here óìåñòíåå to speak not about his(its) time, but about time in general, èáî only then this element to the ful finds inherent her sticky viscosity. And not only past clung to Inni such ìàíåðîì, future too was more obstinate. There his(its) awaited so formless space, which behooved ïðåîäîëåòü moreover at a venture, without the least bit clear instructions, what way be from there chosen. One was clear: epoch, in which he veins, ïîäîøëà by the end of; but also now, at fourty five years, when he, on own wordses, "has transgressed the border of the nightmare, but passport beside it nobody has not asked", formless ãëûáà recollection and absences îíûõ as before was under him, not more enigmatic and even in ðåòðîñïåêòèâå not more enormous, than cosmos, which in recently was beside all on mouth. In depth sulphur dense fog begin ïÿòèäåñÿòûõ, VWXbe drafty which oozed the powerful fire of the korean war, sank;sunk, alas, and not so observable minute, when in rooming house on Trompenbergerveg in Hilversume was an aunt Tereza (treize, Therese, ne perd jamais (5)), which after several years will leave Inni inheritance, having pawned hereunder base his(its) relative well-being. Work on recollection was in a complicated way not only therefore that he disposed the limited possibility ("no beside me memories", "you definitely all have displaced", "you capable, shucks although something remember!"), but also therefore that since year have begun little-by-little to disappear and potential çàöåïêè and landmarks required for journey in abysses past. Certainly, aunt Tereza, having forfeited palpable flesh, became the ïÿòíèñòûì spectre, which now and then wandered on is become depleted illuminated corridor of his(its) brain, and this else ïîëáåäû, after all and chauffeur white "linkolina"-óíèâåðñàëà was too split in small cake, together with äÿäåé, husband to aunts Terezy; but the most terrible that rooming house, where Inni has conducted the first years to its adult life, along with all his(its) recollection has sunk in matted ball eight other rooming houses and, leading away for itself essential hydrangeas, chestnuts, larches, rhododendrons and jasmine, dripped in gap, whence nothing do not return. Nothing? The Greater dilapidated buildings, no time âûñòðîåííûå former colonial official, were, on essences, box, full recollection about so irrevocable dilapidated timeses. They had a names - to example, "Terang-Terang" or "Madura", - and õóäóùèé, nervious, romantic Inni that days could âîîáðàçèòü (particularly year at night, given to drink gentile scent), is woke;waked lives somewhere on plantations in vicinity Bandunga, and this impression else increased that's why that in same before madness enormous house and âïðàâäó removed the rooms to former inhabitants to Indonesia. The Scents to tropical kitchen crept on house, lazy shuffled the òàïêè on mat in corridor, someone snapped the language, high, tuneful, strange tractile voice spoke of than-that incomprehensible, but bound for it with book Kuperusa, Dauma and Dermut (6). He tolerates could not their own former photographies, not so much that, where was çàïå÷àòëåí together with others, - on them all look equally funny, - no, exactly that, where attention wholly was concentrated on on his(its) own persona since posed he alone, numbed, expressing such ñòàòóþ and simultaneously VWVsearchP[.]for;look for;hunt full tilts and supports beside tree, fence - beside any subject, which in the following wink will too occupy the place on photographies so he, Inni, will there not one. After all that s on such picture? The Young person, who because of exorbitant leanness did not be fit for army service and that else worse, could not for this reason get undressed on beach, but in addition was expelled from four schools in a row and fell out with guardian, and as a result lost the allowances, which he has generous fixed the grandmother, young person, who set off in most that nor there is frantic amorous adventures on and integer by days protruded in office to pay somehow the rooming house and consider itself independent. 3 Has Occurred this, fast whole, so: he sat in its êîìíàòóøêå, when èíäîíåçèéñêèé voice of the housing master ed in corridor: - A Mister Vintrop, here lady to you. Little waiting she already stood in room that was given by her not easily; after all for two people of the place was obviously not quite enough, more so that she one wholly ñîøëà for two. - I your aunt Tereza, - has said she. And else: - You present Vintrop. Protisnuvshisi past Inni and momentarily îáâåÿâ his(its) light, musk aroma, she has peered in window. Seen she did not like. The Further remarks by person by logic did not shine, but then poured staccato, on one tone: - A Books read. As here closely. I heard of you. Well simply nor become nor to sit. The Gentlemen Dear me, literally anguish directs. You someday heard on me? It is Necessary us cue-where be rolled. Poznakomlyu you with person, who writes knigi. - a Word writes she pronounced so that was absolutely clear: this activity she puts much above reading. Springtime. The Saturday afternoon. Only later Inni has thought that she not even has asked, wants he go with her. They simply came out of room, more exactly, aunt Tereza has ñïëûëà down to stairway, flashed by on garden, as if this was a hostile element, has doved in car and has said: - We go to mister Taadsu, YAaap. The Car tugged with place. The Aunt - however, and this too äîøëî before it later - always concerned with idleness, with greatly possible speed besides. In simplicity emotional: Inni has else thought that this âçâèí÷åííîñòü, probably, is conditioned mysterious chemical process in depths her(its) white, mildly turgid body, as if sometime inwardly blood her(its) constantly boilled in êàñòðþëüêå on lash. The Heel every sort and kind of colour that appeared, that disappeared beside it on person and on neck, and if she seasonly did not emit the powerful breath, that most certainly ëîïíóëà. That such Vintrop? - has asked he itself since aunt about that only and rassuzhdala. - All Vintropy mad, perverted vainglorious, undisciplined, live in uproar, without the end something do. With wife address as with cattle, but that don't care their love. In war they are ruined or, on the contrary, get rich, they lucky in deal, but money their own lose or chuck on wind, but will each other sell for ãðîø. You knew its father? The Answer she did not wait. - You has baptized, this you know? My brother was a hero of the Resistance, blanching crow in our principle ñåìåéêå. About your father such will not say. He with money in general did not know how to address. The Women(woman)s - single, in than he knew the sense. You else go in church? Here he at least was able to answer: - No. - Yaap, stops-ka. White "lincoln" has flown up to to sidewalk, hardly not having shaved off casual bicyclist. The Aunt has intently looked at Inni. The Blue eye, as beside it. Vodyanistye, but in base steel. Has Proded the finger to him in bosom. - Vintropy - a family catholic. Brabantskie roman catholics. The Single brother your father, not abandoned bosom öåðêâè, âëàäååò all capital. Your father, your uncle Yos, and uncle catch, and uncle Pierre, and aunt Kler ëèáîóì åðëè, or live in poverty. You has no nothing, well, can, ïåðåïàäåò something from grandmother. And after all all of these one for other îòîøëè from öåðêâè. think About this. The Minute did not pass, but "lincoln" again raced at the speed of more one hundred kilometers. As was it later realized, went they in Doorn. But also not only in Doorn. If existed the card of the lower world, the world spectre that Doorn was noted beside most entry. lead;guide;êîíò)conduct This trip in Doorn was a visit in passed his(its) families, to names, to death, in Tilburg on border of the ages, to woolly fabrics, agency, fabricant. Tetin reprimand all ñèëüíåå was changed. Tilburgskiy idiom netherland, on rumour, probably, the most amusing. Oí listened her(its) tales and packed them about spare. After will think over. - Tvoyu mother beside us did not take. Know, why? - She me govorila. - Here is who íàïîìèàë her(its) reprimand - a mother, when that was agitated. Signifies, in Tilburge and hoi polloi, and bourgeoisie spoke equally. - You âèäàåøüñÿ with her? - No. She has left the Europe. In three weeks after marriage on äî÷åðè one of the french business partner father Inni has run down with his(its) mother. But the most terrible in eye of the families was a mortal sin ìåçàëüÿíñà, which was not a farewells. Thereafter they have betrayed the father to oblivion, and not asked, but such, when forget that is exactly forgotten. The Glove left in train, about which subsequently never and will not recall. Inni knew whole this history, but absolutely did not add her importances. One of ïðèÿòåëüíèö will in due course say him: "I did not be born, I have produced on light", and he has taken this to information. Since 1944 his(its) father ïðåáûâàë in lower world, and this death a second time cut Inni from Vintropov. He nobody of them plainly not to knew. The Veins itself and got from this big pleasure. There was îäèíîê. Did Not know, what is a family. - Your grandparent Vintrop and my father - a half brothers. My father - your guardian. - Was. - He was afraid that to come to spend the money on you. We this does not love. But handily âûêðóòèëñÿ, after all sat in tutelary advice itself. The Money îòêóïèëñÿ or Gentlemen ïîìîã, who knows. Inni saw his(its) whole once. The Grey man in easy chair under own ïàðàäíûì by portrait. Two diamond ïåðñòíÿ on pinkie, but this permissible, when you age and óðîäëèâ. And campanula near hands: "Treyske, give my nephew a liquor-glass port wine". In tale about áàáóøêèíûõ money ("their I save for you on honor and shame") Inni little that has understood, yes and hereinafter talk formed unhappily. Waving long becoming very thin hand, Inni its sharp juvenile voice has stated, why God no. - We only have afterwards taken the catholicism, - continued tetya. - Best from us. But begin we lead from protester-military. The First Vintrop, which has arrived in Tilburg, was óëàíñêèì lieutenant colonel. The Native Vestlanda that in South Holland. The Fairy tales, thought Inni, figments and fairy tales. Vymyshlennye personages from âûìûøëåííîãî past. Because life too sleazy. - He profit with ëåéá-guard Viligelima Second (7), when that built the palace ãðàäîïðàâèòåëÿ, where as well as not veins. He married the girl-êàòîëè÷êå. The Word "girl" has touched Inni. Signifies, and in the other timeses were a girls, formed his(its) family. The Invisible girls, never visible äåâè÷üèìè sponge pronounced its surname, his(its) surname. - Thereafter Vintropy and concern with the textiles. Wool. Tweed. The Factories. The Agency. New and new spectres. The People having right to wander beside it in shelters, be in shoulder, hand, eye, devil of the person since exactly they were his(its) limit. The Car cut the landscape in two and carelessly rejected back. But Inni seemed, is woke;waked at the same time flies away whole life, what he guided to the last years. The Aunt already certain time kept quiet. He saw, what the blood in blue æèëêàõ on her(its) wrist pulses, and thought: "My blood", but beside it most on wrist nothing be not seen. - Arnold Taads earlier was my lover, - has reported the aunt. She was taken make oneself beautiful. The Unpleasant spectacle. Inflicts over the first, äðÿáëî-white, the second skin - from orange make-up, but not too neatly so white strips remain between orange spot. - Recently we with he were met, for the first time after war. Under all desire Inni could not visualize the lover of this women(woman), but when has seen Arnolda Taadsa, has understood why. He really could not visualize the person with such appearance since in lifes did not see nothing like. The Man, who stood on threshold of the stocky building, white, drowning in verdure, and looked at watch, growing did not leave. One his(its) eye - right - was glass, up and about - wooden êëîìïû on made someone look fat to sole, dress;clad in ïîòåðòóþ indian jacket with long suede fringe. And this in that long ago forgotten timeses, when people else carried the suits and ties. The Person coverlet tan, but straight under deliberately sound surface raged something quite other - sulfuric, sad element. The Alive eye and dead, sound and unhealthy skin, tense, demanding person, but voice loud, rolling, obviously intended for more large body, than that, where he presently dwelt. - You for ten minutes earlier, Tereza. In this wink beside it because of back âûíûðíóë enormous dog and was hurlled in garden. - Atos! To me! Well and voice - with lightness will shout down the whole battalion. The Dog çàìåð, under dark-brown curly wool has run tremor. The having Lowered head, dog slowly escaped in house. The Master was turned and too entered inside. Blanching door for he were closed, softly and resolutely. - Oh uzh this dog, - plaintive has said the aunt, - a dog to him where âàæíåå. She took a look at watch. In house ed the ôîðòåïèàííàÿ music, but in window Inni not to manage nothing discern. The Sounds were ugly. Too sharp, too officious, without briliance. The Music as one should to stream, but instead of this she toddled and stumbled. One, presently played, it is impossible sit for pianoforte. But who this was? The Persons with pair glass eye? Or that, with unhealthy sulphur by skin? Or êîðîòûøêà with skin smooth and tanned? Someone another. - Come to walk, - has said the aunt, but Inni saw that she in this not ìàñòåðèöà. The wood got dark Through road. Smell(blows in) honeysuckle, young ñîñåíêàìè. The Aunt Tereza that ïîäâîðà÷èâàëà of the leg on friable timber lane, that brushed against for tree, that stumbled about broken branches, that stuck in åæåâè÷íèêå. For the first time in all morning Inni has felt the awe. That all this means? He after all nor about than did not ask. Simply, was wrested from calm âñåëåííîé its rooms, is penned in family, can be and his(its) own, but absolutely him not interested, little that, person, who in general-that follows to be two people, has slammed beside it before nose door, but chauffeur, leaned;leanted to exorbitant big machine and, probably chuckling, observed for its ðàáîòîäàòåëüíèöåé, which with ïðåâåëèêèì labour îäîëåëà ñòîìåòðîâêó, now quietly ñèãíàëèë êëàêñîíîì, reporting that ten minutes expired. 4 Da capo*. (*First - it.) The Man again stood in äâåðíîì opening. All have getted old for ten minutes. This already was, has thought Inni. The Same staging, eternal return. The Aunt ahead of and a little from the side so man could his(its) see. But he did not watch. And on watch this time not ãëÿäåë, all and so knew, how much time. The Direct gray ray of the single eye, exactly searchlight, felt the figure Terezy Donders. From three mans, who here were present, only chauffeur knew that blanching òåòèíà dyad, sprinkled ñîñíîâûìè needle and prickly gritty âåòî÷êàìè, was a creation Cook SHaneli. - How are you, Tereza that beside you for type! Only now he took a look at Inni. Probably, guilty was a single eye, but that, on who this person watched, could not get rid of impressions that on it in stress targeted ôîòîêàìåðà, which got sucked, çàãëàòûâàëà, shown him(it) and for ever buried in archive, which will disappear only with death most cameras. - My nephew. - Aha. My name is Arnold Taads. - a Hand mite ñòèñíóëà palm Inni. - But as your name? - Inni. - Inni... - He has allowed the fool name on wink to hang midair, but has afterwards rejected him(it). Inni has reported, whence red his(its) name. - Beside you in family all with ïðèäóðüþ, - has said Arnold Taads. - Call at. The Order reigned in house, inspired the thrill. The Single element to accidents contributed the dog - since moved. Not room, but mathematical amount, has thought Inni. All in balance, all it is correct. The Bouquet colour, child, naughty dog or visitor, received for ten minutes earlier, have did here indiscribable troubles. Furniture sparkled the whiteness - militant êàëüâèíèñòñêèé modernist style. The Irresponsible sunshine plotted on linoleum geometric shade. The Second once in this day Inni has felt the awe. That this for feeling? It Is Woke;waked momentarily become other person, who can not get along in your tele and that's why causes the pain. - Sit. Tereza, you, of course, prefer the ìàíñàíèëüþ. But that ïüåò your nephew? - And immediately, directly îáðàùàÿñü to Inni: - a Whisky will? - I never his(its) did not try, - has said Inni. - Well. Then íàëüþ to you whisky. Rasprobuy what follows, afterwards say, as you on taste. The Memory. Inscrutable her(its) way. After all what only did not happen for the following five minutes! First, he for the first time, yes-yes, for the first time in lifes has indeed got in hands glass whisky, such whisky, what after never saws. Secondly, this person, who he later so will often recall, ãëÿäÿ on whisky, sipping him(it), ñìàêóÿ. This person, but signifies, and aunt, and itself too. Thereby, the whisky became for it as it were magic stick, handle shutter, ïîäíÿâ which íèçîéäåøü in abysses of the ghostly world. And there newly will they: direct, as stick, man, directing on it in stress its horrible eye, hand, right before filled soda, as far back as motion, returns on former place, to owner. And aunt - îòêèíóâ head back, with absently wanderring glance, extending, drawing apart and shifting legs, she bag drooped on too ïðÿìîì and too hard chair. Mourner. Myself he does not see. - Well, as you on taste? It Is Required definition, ïðîòîêîëüíûé report which his(its) organ feeling behooves to present previously, than they îòâëåêóòñÿ on some other sensation. - As smoke and timber nut. How much miscellaneouses whisky he has drank thereafter. And malt, and corn, and barley, best and ïðåñêâåðíîãî, net, with water, with soda, with ginger beer; and occasionly suddenly came alive this taste - a smoke and timber nut. At important minute of the lifes, thought he subsequently, always needs such here is Arnold Taads, which asks exactly to describe that you feel, îáîíÿåøü, will arouse on taste, think under the first awe, the first humiliation, the first woman, but in the very wink certainly that protocol remained valid and former thought, former experience never already did not disappear - other woman, awe, humiliations. Parcels of land first impression by name - a smoke and timber nut, - and it çàäàñò tone all following, èáî be defined they will be a measure of the detour from the first - that, than exceed the most first, íàâåêè became by standard, or transfer him, not being already neither smoke, nor timber nut. Once again for the first time see Amsterdam, once again for the first time possess loved, with which has haved time to to live the long years, once again for the first time feel in palm feminine bosom, fondle her(it) and for years to save in inviolability appeared at thought that all following reek, all other forms could not since time to betray, îòðèíóòü, çàñëîíèòü first sensation. Arnold Taads created for it standard at least once one sensations, all rest forever dripped in stratifications of more late recollection, have transferred, ïåðåìåøàëèñü, ed, and exactly in the same way his(its) hand, that most that fondled the first bosom, for the first time closed the dead of the eye, - this hand has betrayed his(its) memory, and itself, and that first bosom, èáî has getted old, has forfeited áûëóþ form, was covered first borax spot old age, æãóòàìè âåí, capitulated, became lost, tempted ñîðîêàïÿòèëåòíåé by hand, early âåñòíèöåé to deaths, and old, narrow, smooth, timid hand unrecognizable without leaving a trace in she opened though he as before named her(its) its hand and will so name until once upon a time whose-that living hand will not place her(it), become numb, him on bosom, crossbreed with another, just the same. - Than concern with? - has asked Arnold Taads. - In office sit. - Why? - A Question from series surplus. - To earn the money. - Why you do not learn? - I have not delivered on certificate. I have banished from school. His(its) have banished from four schools, but he has considered that presently about this speak unappropriate. The Eye, íåîòðûâíî ãëÿäåâøèé on it, addressed now to aunt Tereze though head, in which he fitted, remained still; Inni could be finally examined. Two groups of ten cigarette pack one marks lay On fire regiment - "Blek áüþòè". Beside stood the decorated scenes a skier âèòðèíêà with several silver and gold(en) medal. - That this for medals? - has asked Inni. - We speak of you. Not forget, I in past notary. And always all äîâîæó before the end. Whom you want to be? - Do Not know. He understood that answer unchancy, but nothing other say could not, let even some and love always to bring all before the end. He simply had not nor remotest idea. In general-that he was firmly certain that not only does not want, but also must not nobody to become. The World and without it êèøìÿ êèøèò people, which someone steels, and majority this obviously no happiness has not brought. - Signifies, want to remain in office? - No. The Office! The Room in region mansion, on upper floor, but adown nut, which âîîáðàæàåò itself director some there company and under which he, Inni, consists as personnel. This person concerns with the êóïëåé-sale, but Inni leads the correspondence for it. The Letter from air, deal from nothing. The Most he read, peered into window on ñàäèêè lower ñîñåäåé and thought about distant journey - without person of the nostalgias, since knew that don't care their will make. Once upon a time, this existence will come the end, and can be, exactly today. - A Parents do not give you money? - Beside full-grown money no, but my... my stepparent does not give. 5 "Smoke and timber nut". "Whom you want to be?" His(its) life began In that day, but he so nobody and did not become. Something did, certainly. Travelled, formed the horoscopes, traded painting. Later, âîçâðàùàÿñü with same old glass whisky in kindom of the memories, he thought that in this-that all and deal: the life his(its) consisted of event, but event, not bound between itself some united life çàìûñëîì. The Pivotal idea like quarries, ambition àìáèöèîçíîñòè was not. He simply existed, son without father and father without, and something occurred. On closer examination, his(its) life consisted of agglomeration of recollection so bad memory particularly harmed him, way him(it) and without that was a debt, but on her(its) favours was delayed else more, from abudance collapse and white heel motion became occasionly unbearable faded. Friend-writer Inni and then spoke only that his(its) life - a meditation. Can, because of notorious glass whisky or that's why, as with financial standpoint became in that afternoon Vintropom, but he counted out its life from that day exactly, but all preceded considered the running approach, rather misty ïðåäûñòîðèåé, from which only by excavations possible to extract anything sensible - at desire, certainly. - Tereza, why you not to give the lad of the money? After all your household all beside his(its) father îòòÿïàëà. The Red heel multiplied. This history begun as whim, as warmed by tedium fit related feeling, this visit to unacquainted nephew, who seemed more outstanding, èáî äåðçíóë contradict her(its) father, but now sat here, with just the same physiognomy, what beside it in household album pond ponds though on nature he, possible, and does not look like majority of them, mildly çàíîñ÷èâûé, mildly melancholic, wholly established, but obviously íå÷åñòîëþáèâûé, certainly, lazy, certainly, íåãëóïûé, derisive and invariably observant, - presently this whim must change in matter, yes as far back as such, with which Vintropy parted exceedingly unwillingly, - in money. - It is Necessary to watch, possible anything make, - has said the aunt, - you after all know, as are a deal. But äåñïîòè÷åñêèé voice has already returned the order, the very voice, which after her(its) care will declare: "Foolish woman, boring. Do Not love I this". The Aunt has ïîäâèíóëà on knee something invisible, has overturned the imaginative vase and immediately çàìåðëà, when voice Arnolda Taadsa pronounce: - I shall think, as all solve without defrauding. But allow its spend time on office it is impossible. - Can, then will arrive with him in Goyrle on the following output? - You know, for me this worse bane, and society of your husband I òåðïëþ by a narrow margin, but shall even so arrive. Atosa shall take with you and in church under no consideration shall go. If will send the machine, we shall wait her(it) at saturday, exactly in odinnadcati. - an Eye has searched for Inni. - But you from office to be discharged since sense in this no, I certain. It Are Taught ãîäèê or ïîïóòåøåñòâóåøü. In subordinated you do not be fit. Under-chi-íåí-ny-e. Pronounced this voice, word from five slabs included else and five - çàïàêîâàííûõ separately - a portion of the pressure. And in general, thought Inni, nor one of the words, said today this person, from room did not disappear. Oveschestvlennye, they stood sometime here, amongst furniture. The Savings no. - Well that zh, Tereza, without small five, me time to sit for book. Your nephew can remain and eat with me if wants. With you we see each other at saturday. say Chauffeur to did not be late. The Aunt as if âåòðîì has blown off, Inni has seen, as she ìåëüêíóëà on garden track, has heard, what tugged with place "lincoln", and ñòåð with cheeks humid trace her(its) fluent ïîöåëóÿ. Arnold Taads returned in room. Sometime five have overpunched in depths of the building watch. Arnold Taads has taken the book, has said: - Before without fourth six I read, but you enjoy itself. The Cast-iron silence has posessed the house. Inni exactly knew, what this silence since heard her(it) earlier, in priory òðàïïèñòîâ. The Patter in door, shuffling, deaf rustle heavy fabrics in corridor, steps, soft, as on snow. Afterwards, already in conventual öåðêâè, dry wooden ïîñòóêèâàíèå, begin total half-hour meditation. Petrified, he watched with ïîñåòèòåëüñêîé of the galleries on white, absolutely íåäâèæíûå of the figure adown, amongst cool, high church pew. Old and young men, ìóñîëÿùèå that or other, inconceivable thought for it. He has suddenly noticed that, one of the monk fell asleep and was slowly toppled pron, as if log. Newly ðàçäàëñÿ the dry patter, stone on tree, monk has at once shaken the torpor, øàãíóë in passage, on stone monochrome plates between pew, êëàíÿÿñü, êëàíÿÿñü, bending before abbot fifty-fifty, which silent gesture has fixed him punishment - has adjured the mouth face downwards. High blanching figure, exactly dead swan, collapsed to the ground, desperately having extended hands and legs, - a layer prostrate, humiliated human essence, and nobody from all these mans even eye has not raised, only light patter tree on stone, persian shade abbot, several steps, rustle of the cloth has broken the silence. Now he once again was in priory, where veins of the whole one person - to itself monk, abbot to itself. Inni wanted in óáîðíóþ, but he has not sweeped away ïîøåâåëüíóòüñÿ. Though, can be, this person just and çàïðåçèðàåò him(it) if he sits pack;fold hands, exactly èñòóêàí? Slowly and noiseless Inni has got up, øàãíóë to reading, which even eye has not raised from book - on cover ìåëüêíóëî: "existentialism"... "humanism", - passed to piano: SHubert... the improvisation... - but afterwards and in corridor. In óáîðíîé lay the newspaper, "Gaagse post", which he has grabbed with itself in room. Turning the pages of disembodied pages so, is woke;waked by him not äîçâîëåíî stir the air, he was taken read the marks, what and will read whole life. After iranian rebellion first place in list delicate that, caused west tempestuous disputes, has occupied Egypt. "Truth" in vast and cutting to article was voiced against Bermudskoy conferences, convened by president Eisenhower to discuss the plan an action: enter in negotiations with Flint, what persists sir Uinston CHerchilli, or occupy the irreconcilable position, what the president Eisenhower requires. The French president Vensan Orioli has entrusted the Field Rhine to form the new government. The Chronicle to histories. How much else names must çàñåñòü in head, be rolled VWXbe drafty it that this continuously ñàìîóíè÷òîæàþùàÿñÿ and ñàìîâîçðîæäàþùàÿñÿ caste has finally left his(its) absolutely indifferent. Accepting look of the fate of the epoch and, as they were thought, defining her(it), these people in turn were a blind likeness certain power, which went on light. There is no need turn on them emphases, here is and all. But that to call the power, - impermissible, greedy longing to be âåðøèòåëåì ñóäåá, short-lived image the most enigmatic from all monster, state, - later, much later, became to cause the contempt beside it. Exactly without fourth six dogs ïîäíÿâ head and Arnold Taads has postponed the book. - Atos! Walk! They came out of building, have entered under dark òåíèñòûå codes wood. Much soon master has rolled up with tracks, which has delivered so much troubles his(its) former sweetheart, and çàøàãàë on óçåíüêîé lateral òðîïêå. But Taads nowhere near did not stumble and not carrion. Inni by a narrow margin ripened for dashing athlete. But here is dog, similars, fine knew, where they move. He disappeared from type, and presence his(its) gave only quick rustle ïàëûõ sheet sometime not far away. - Sartr, - have proclaimed the flapping grey hairs, ìåëêîâàòûé skull, suede jacket, corduroy trousers and þôòåâûå shoes vperedi. - according to Sartra, time definitively and irrevocable to do the findings from that fact that God no. You believe in the God? - No, - has yelled Inni. After all, as it were there nor was, this person have said that in guest beside aunts he in church will not go. - And since when? - have asked the pines and åæåâè÷íèê. Inni exactly remembered, when this happened, but did not know, cost(stand)s speak. This was connected with wine and blood, the present wine and persisting blood, but try-ka îáúÿñíè. For the best, certainly, say that faiths beside it èçíà÷àëüíî was íåãóñòî, yes and that simply resulted the halitosis, as butter from spoiled motor. After all before twelve years he bad-was poorly brought up in catholic faith; grain of the disparaging humility, burden which other drags whole life, were sowed;sown too late to what follows to start the root. His(its) baptized, but parents in öåðêâè were not crowned since father was in divorce. Only later, when mother left married for much âåðóþùåãî roman catholic, he directly faced the religion, but also then his(its) has captivated purely theatrical, external her(its) side, he was in such delight from chant, incense, êðàñî÷íîñòè that, not believer in the God, has wanted to enter in conventual school. Liked him in catholic faith and that her(its) separated other people. In èíòåðíàòå he daily in six mornings served the mass, helping âïàâøåìó in the childhood ïàòåðó Romualidusu, which by reason of old age to teach could not and executed realy that simple duties. Beside usher in altar was not nor the most slightest doubts that, when he dried peacheses "Hic est enim Calix Sanguinis mei" (the Sheatfish there is chalice Shelters My (lat}), red wine in chalice suddenly ïðåñóùåñòâëÿëîñü in blood, became the blood, mysterium fidei (the Mystery of the faith (the armor.).), blood one, in addition already without small two thousand years was destroy, and little waiting vested in brocaded chasubles, cling for altar oldster will drink this blood "in My recollection", but then Inni will help to take away the last traces this shelters, âûëüåò full container of water on gilded bottom of the chalice, which is stretched trembling, covered senile "ãðå÷êîé of" hand and in which else will several drops - a divine shelters, human shelters. This introduced him untexplainable mysterious, but nowhere near did not force âåðîâàòü. If oldster, with which he gloomy, cool morning sent the service and which, exactly embroidering gold(en) toad, made a fuss before small æåðòâåííèêîì, - if he âåðîâàë, that all were really made, at least and in ïîëóðàçìÿã÷åííûõ brain, where latin formulas other once changed in such unconceived porridge that Inni was have to its voiced ìàëü÷èøå÷üèì voice to direct their owner on true theological path. However, not only this, else and idea of the victim itself, idea of the participle. After all they two together, absolutely one, outlandish pair - a sixteen years old junker and oldster long after eighty, - concerned with here not than-íèáóäü, but mysterious ancient ritual, which caused beside it, Inni, sensation, is woke;waked he sinks in depths of the timeses and, dispensed from eye çäåøíåé sleazy íåîãîòèêè, falls into landscapes Drevney Greeces, in the world Gomera, whose secrets they from day to day untangled on lesson, or in immemorial epoch, when jew brought the alive creatures in victim Hell with terrible voice that ïðåáûâàë in âûñÿõ on singing desert, the God Otmscheniya, the God íåîïàëèìîé êóïèíû and wife of the Lot, the God, which, thought Inni, surrounded the universe of the emptiness, and awe, and punishments for one, in It âåðîâàë. That, than concerned with they with ïàòåðîì Romualidusom, referred to Minotavru, to divine victim and riddle, to Sivillam, to fate and fate, - teeny êîððèäà two-player, under that that oxen was absent, but expired the blood from is reeked, which èñïèâàëè äîñóõà, ìèñòåðèÿ, accompanied calm in whisper on latin. Once upon a time, once and for ever, âîëøåáñòâî was scattered. The Chalice was lifted upwards, to íåáåñàì, where on conventual church âåðøèò its way sun, - as suddenly old man çàäðîæàë all body. Followed then shout Inni not to forget never, about no. Vozdetye hands have dropped the chalice, wine, blood âûïëåñíóëàñü on vestment, on àëòàðíûé cover, which reduced by crick finger monk jerk has joined with altar along with candle, ãîñòèåé, saucer. Wail, as if èñòîðãíóòûé enormous wounded by beast, was beaten off from stone sewer. The Old man pulled at the vestment, exactly trying tear him(it), and, still êðè÷à, became slowly to fall. The Head was knocked about chalice, áðûçíóëà blood. He already moderate;temper, blood continued to ooze, red mingled with red on isle of the brilliant silk among gilded needleworks, and was not to understand that there is that, wine became the blood, blood - a wine. The Invisible dog, timber silence, noiseless steps Old-SHetterhenda (8) and his(its) own incessant rustle as before waited the answer. - Not litter. Can, I in general never believed! - has yelled he onward. Immediately echidna ôûðêíóëà squirrel. And suddenly whole wood turned out to be the packed father öåðêâè, inquisitor, martyr, saint, agnostic, pagan, philosopher, ïëàêàëüùèêîâ and êëèêóø. The Theological arguments so and flew from mouths in mouth. Two chaffinches reasoned about Tridentskom cathedral (9), cuckoo placed firmly on "Summa Theologica" (10), woodpecker hammered thirty one thesises (11), âîðîáüè newly sentenced Nikolaya Kuzanskogo to burning, Spinoza - a heron, Kalivin - a crow, indistinct âîðêîâàíèå spanish mystic; the chirp, snapping, warble, whistle âîñïåâàëè birds by flap and wood two blood millennium to church history, as from the first scrawlled sign of fish (12), speckled gloomy codes of the catacombs, before that ãåíèÿ that èñïåïåëèë Pavla as inhabitant Nagasaki, from amazing pupil on way in Emmaus before infallible deputy on throne of the Fisherman (13). The Tons all same human shelters were spilted thereafter, a millions was once tasted all ditto body, after all did not pass neither day, nor hour that this did not happen, - on North pole, in Burma, Tokyo or Namibia (ah, Zita), even ñèþ minute, when these two íåâåðóþùèõ went here under lime, one - with head, stuffed Sartrom, other - with head, full emptiness. They left on timber glade. Beeped to bumblebees, diving in ëèëîâàòî-áóðûå flower êðàñàâêè and immediately âûíûðèâàÿ from there, all thrillinged and rustled. - Atos! To me! From nonexistence to appeared the dog, óëåãñÿ beside legs of the master, which, exactly street preacher, çàìåð in the middle ïîëÿíû, íåñÿ on suede shoulder light ïðåäâå÷åðíåãî sun. The Voice Arnolda Taadsa filled itself whole wood, as if was an element like water or fire. - I exactly know, when ceased to believe in the God. I always came in well skier. The title of the champion Netherlands repeatedly conquered Before war. Can, and trifle, but even so I was best, and championships were conducted, certainly, not in Netherlands, but in mountain. You someday saw the mountains? Inni has swung the head. - Then you in general not veins. The Mountains - a greatness Gospodne on the ground. At least once, I so thought. The Solitary skier in âûñîêîãîðüå quite not that other people. He is elevated and îäèíîê. Only he and nature - here is all that exists. He on equal with rest world, understand? Inni has noded. - I not much-that high opinion about folk. In majority they slacker, conformists, áåñòîëî÷è, skinflints, but in addition so and try to pour with water over each other dirt. There, in mountain âûñÿõ, you this does not disturb. The Nature clean;scratch;peel, either as animals. This ïñà I love more, than all people together taken. The Animals conservative, and good for them (the Good lad (the angel.)). After war, when we have got the possibility to see and hear, how much whole has occurred: the treachery, hunger, murder, èñòðåáëåíèå, and all from hands human, - I definitively ïðîíèêñÿ to people by contempt. Not to separate person, but to type, which, killing, defrauding and be afraid of, goes toward own death. The Animals always and in all straight (Iskrenni (the angel.)).Ó them no propagandistic slogan, they do not die for others and do not require more, than they will be due to. In present society weakling pecking order (Sequence êëåâà (engl.) i.e. the unofficial hierarchy) not in honor, but before that, as we came up for evolutions, he beautifully functioned. The Word, I was fed up. Threw its notarial office, ñæåã all bridges, has torn with wife, ah, as splendid! - and has left in Canada. Became the fireman-watcher in Skalistyh mountain. Several months has in a row sat on one of the local tops. Where nor ãëÿíü, with all sides boundless wood. Their-that I and kept under control. If will suddenly appear the smoke, necessary îïîâåñòèòü centre. Supplied me on air, once at week plane threw not far away from my shack bag with food, newspaper and mail. Polgoda I stayed there, one, with dog and girlfriend-walkie-talkie, which loved not for èäèîòñêîå òðåíüêàíüå popular radio station, but for night talks with the other watcher. I afforded to gulp down the whisky,: twice at day, on two fingers, - he has shown Inni two horizontally built together finger, - in no event more. Has Once ïðåâûñèë the rate and quite îäóðåë. What good, happened to remove the squalling madman with post. I on all this has written. Inni never could be in mountain, but wholly) could çðèìî visualize this person - amongst white icy world. Four swiss postcards border the small post. The Persons in same suede jacket, as now, beside his(its) legs sleeps the dog. Will Come time to drink the whisky, storm wind çàâûâàåò near shacks, postcards are clouded. The crackle and breaths of the distant contemptible world äîëåòàþò From walkie-talkie. The Persons will get up, approaches to locker, will get the bottle a whisky and glass. (Previously he ãëÿäèò on watch.) Afterwards puts to glass two pressed to one another finger, concerning them ñòîëåøíèöû though no, a little above, after all it is necessary to take into account the thickness glass äîíûøêà, fills. Buli-áóëü. Little waiting takes a sip of the gulp. The Taste of the smoke and timber nut. - And once upon a time I have thought: landscape, which its, shall say so, objective greatness directs on thought about the God, with the same success certainly can witness and about his(its) absence. The God is created on image and resemblance of the people, since time each comes to such conclusion, exclusive of realy that one, in general no conclusion does. But people I despised, including, - here he has mildly towered the voice, having added this wordses ïîä÷åðêíóòóþ independance so they separate and significant hung in space between collocutor, - on essences, and myself. I to itself opposite. And though much love the dogs and mountains, visualize the God in image of the dog or mountains too could not. Here is so idea of the God disappeared from my life, from life of the skier, racing down declivity, in valley. You ìîæåøü âîîáðàçèòü such picture? From afar human figured seems black, to itself êàëëèãðàô, she draws the certain sign on white sheet of the snow. Long, graceful motion, mysterious, not amenable reading letter, chimera, on wink çàïå÷àòëåííàÿ and immediately vanished. The Skier disappeared from eye, he ÷åðòèë itself and nothing have not left. For the first time I was quite one on light, but need for the God did not feel, neither then, nor presently. The Word "God" sounds as answer, in here is than especial his(its) ãóáèòåëüíîñòü: they too often used as answer. But better him to give the name, sounding as question. I did not ask to do me solitary on light, but after all and nobody did not ask. You are someday conceived about such thing? Inni has already adopted that interrogative tone of the similar phrases implies not question, but order. On it çàâåäåíî äîñüå, his(its) îáìåðÿþò, between him and this person behooves to arrange the certain documents. But that he must speak? They have possessed the strange indifference. The Heat muted paints colour, ëåãîíüêî rocking slightly limes on head, ensemble small event, occurred simultaneously, aiming factory voluptuous perception, dog, which strerched and, having lingered, scrambled over on solar small town, the whole this new life that began today at noon, but seemed already such long, thunderous voice, without óìîëêó reasoned about itself, whisky, which he saws, - all this caused the sensation îòðåøåííîñòè. Amongst such ensemble event possible beautifully to dispense and without it. He was a crowded chalice. And if will presently speak, that ðàñïëåùåò all their own new, priceless sensations. He heard that spoke this person, but about than, strictly, went the speech? "You are someday conceived about such thing?" That signifies "be conceived"? He never saw the God as skier, racing down declivity. The God was a wine spot on vestment, blood old man on icy stone step of the altar. But this Inni has not said. Has Said another: - No, never. - Why? - Me this does not interest. - Here is as. Inni understood that from he waited the answer of the more cosmic range, but such he had not. - You although anything be aware of existentialism? But you itself ïðèêèíü. Three evenings have spent on disputes, in that last èíòåðíàòñêèé year. Sartr, right of the choice, ZHyuliet Greek (14), ïîãðåáêè with candle, black sweaters, boys that visitted in Paris and have brought from there cigarettes "Goluaz" - in Netherlands such did not be on sale. Cool êàìàìáåð and áàãåòû, which, according to same most boys, do not go nor in what comparison with persisting, french. That much âêóñíåå, with chunky êîðî÷êîé. The Despair and repulsion by too some image were connected with all this. The Persons áðîøåí in the world. Inni herewith instinctively thought about Ikare and other great ïîâåðæåííûõ - Iksione, Phaeton, Tantalum, all these paratrooper without parachute that were from the world god and heroes and interested his(its) much more, than outlandish abstractions, not caused in him nor the most slightest response. The Meaningless world, where you áðîøåí, existence, which itself did not signify nothing and found importance only through you. This as before mildly returned the church, suspicious ïðèïàõèâàëî the martyrdom. That nor dialects, thought Inni, in ìíîãîì this hitherto comes alive through taste scent "Goluaz", strong, bitter, empty-handed her comparable. The Scent, in which was felt some danger, tobacco, bitter ÷åøóéêàìè stuck to language, rough pack of the colour blue billiard small. âûêóðèòü Its awe possible was Together with cigarette. But such he this person no way will say. - Nemnozhko. Why this ski champion ôèëîñîôèÿ? Why him small cockeyed scientist, whose portrait now that and deal print in newspaper and journal? Think - but that this, strictly, such? Inni much read, but all that read, and not only read, all that saw, films, pictures, he carried out in feeling, and this feeling, which it is impossible was cloth in word while that it is impossible, but can, and in general never, this formless mass of the sensations, impressions, observations and formed his(its) image of the thoughts. Certainly, possible whirl the word around yes around, but the lion's share don't care will not find the expressions. He and will later be irritated on people, which required the exact answer or ïðèòÿçàëè on possession such. Just çàãàäî÷íîñòü most of all and attracts, excessive order only harms. Will Begin to establish order, and most certainly something will is forever lost. Inni did not yet guess that secrets can else òàèíñòâåííåå if think over them exactly and methodical. He was well and cosily in its sentimental bewilderment. To form her(its) card, it is necessary was grow up, but then you and itself at the same time once for ever got the determination, but signifies, already a little died. - I bear in mind not christian existentialism, but atheistic. The Mortar to ski! Race down declivity, âäîãîíêó for its vanished by God. Sidi on mountain top. observe;watch, No where fire. Go thence! Cleare out away! - On my glance, so much for several too. Moral, humanistic side I do not like. With such position of the person looks enough-òàêè miserable, like clown, who blindly ìå÷åòñÿ in the darkness, searches for output. This not on me. Acerbity not quite enough. Understand? Inni has noded. The Words were him comprehensible. Klochiya mist, elusive, as glares of the light ïëÿøóùèå in âûøèíå amongst tree. Interesting, how much whole tone beside green? - When Sartr speaks that person 6pîøåí in the world, îäèíîê, but the God no and we in answer for that, what we there is and that do, then I shall say YES. The Affirmative word ãóëêî rolled about on wood. The Dog has pricked the ears. This person not with whom speak, thought Inni. - But when he then asks me to be an answer else and for the whole world, for others, I dialect NO! With what become me for them to answer. "Choosing itself, person chooses all mankind". Yes why? I nobody did not ask. With this rabble, which I see around, I have no nothing total. I äîæèâó îòïóùåííûé me period since so it is necessary, äåâàòüñÿ nowhere. And, as if having conceived the idea of straight away and begin, he was rapidly turned and disappeared in wood. The Dog already was ahead of sometime. 6 He that, even so began to think? Similars, piece obviously contagious. While you itself nothing do not do, òâîþ life defined the people and belongings, which in she appeared. Their presence conditioned the faded flow an event, which you will subsequently drag for itself, calm father, èíîñòðàíîê-full-grown, èíòåðíàòû, guardian, but now here is aunt and champion on ski. With certain satisfaction Inni has thought that all again left itself itself, without his(its) participations. But as then was got that itself he like nothing do not do and before present day all his(its) simply learned;learnt, but besides life seemed him such long? He existed already thousand of the years, but if will become to study the zoology, that will turn out to be that many million. Cost(stand)s wonder, with such-that past that did not be able to remember all, but, on the other hand, strangely and that exactly you was remembered, but else óäèâèòåëüíåå parity remembered, after all èçâåñòèå about deaths father was found on one line with all other, joined event like thalassa, thalassa (15), crucifixions on cross and ïîäæîãà ðåéõñòàãà. Finally all this was you since though itself you and did not participate in these event, they however âïëåòàëèñü in òâîþ life, - in the end-that end if understand, exactly body kept for you like belongings. The Outlandish chemical processes in brain created all condition that you remembered about ïàëåîçîå, which not it is important as, but became the part of your experience, but signifies, and you itself has entered in communication with unconceived distant epoch and due to same mysterious mechanism will her to belong to before mortal hour. Due to this your life boundless enlarged that truth, that truth. He has suddenly felt itself terribly old. In silence of the person, the minute back so much spoken, was drafty íàðî÷èòîñòü. He that, has weighted him(it) and has considered too light? The Wood has thinned out, has brightenned, stems made way, and for the last íå÷àñòîé by sprouts Inni has seen the high luminous shield, to which they and moved; mauve âåðåñêîâàÿ lawn was poured with water over by ghostly misty glow, why all around seemed absolutely empty and íåäâèæíûì. Inni wanted little stand here, but still better - lie, having buried oneself by person in sharp, gritty ñòåáëè, but body - in the ground, as he often did, áûâàÿ one, after all he was imagined that so he little-by-little mixes with the ground, on-persisting will get into it, knee, thorax, chin, all that in him was hard and scrawny, and will lie not as cat on pillow, no, but as ïîëóçàíåñåííûé sand ship frame, - but on walk with Arnoldom Taadsom for such amorous contact was not a place. Inni had no doubt that, çàìåäëè he step, his(its) name ïðîãðåìèò on çàðîñëÿìè of the heather just as moniker of the dog. Or Taads has haved time to to forget about him? He did not raise the heads, did not turn and most certainly could do this road even with closed eye, in same mechanical rhythm. Zavodnoy ñîëäàòèê on march. When they returned to house, has overpunched seven. 7 As Inni has heard in that day, in lifes Arnolda Taadsa time was a father of all things. He has divided am empty, dangerous plane of the day on ensemble exactly measured out length, and border columns at the beginning initially and at the end these length with implacable sternness defined his(its) day. Be Inni ïîñòàðøå, he has most certainly understood that awe, âëàñòâîâàâøèé Arnoldom Taadsom, has wanted to levy its tithe at hour - a hour, or ïîëó÷àñàõ, or quarter of the hour, arbitrarily installed point of the refraction amongst invisible poetries, VWXbe drafty which we delirium whole our life. Seemed, is woke;waked person was persuaded in boundless desert with determined gerbil and has declared: only here possible there is, but here - read; and each of such gerbil with irresistible power called to performance corresponding to activity, but ten millimeters further already reigned the fate. The Guest received for ten minutes earlier or later, became the hindrance, maniacal second hand turned over the first page, extracted the first note from pianoforte or, as presently, with the last, seventh blow âîäðóæàëà on plate êàñòðþëüêó goulash. - Gotovlyu I at week once, - has reported Arnold Taads, - usually anything stewed. Soup. Exactly so much that I have been enough seven once eat, plus one portion for guest. If nobody does not come, she is got Atosu. Inni with satisfaction has perceived that ñîáà÷üÿ portion to get him, - he haved little liking for the dogs, particularly when they veins in such óäóøëèâîì symbiosis with õîçÿåâàìè. Has Overpunched the quarter eighth - and they sowed;sown for table. - If for that week we shall go to your aunt Tereze, - has said Taads, - you fall into persisting ïñèõóøêó. Vintropy in majority and so with ïðèäóðüþ, but uzh what ïðèñïè÷èò to marry or married, in general devil-that that create. The most nice deal for them - find absolutely normal person and promptly make from it nut or, on the contrary, nose such, on whom and toil there is no need since beside it already bad with head. When I gave your aunt a retirement, she has darted out married for full äåáèëà, with money, certainly, but so, you itself could notice, much wretch. Nevrotichka top grade, I pleased that has not pleased to her in paws. Earlier she was a beauty, very attractive though and with possessive çàìàøêàìè, which me scarecrow. Say on truth, the whole your household me scarecrows. Beside them two vices: they will not acknowledge no frames and flatly refuse to suffer. I bear in mind, are fenced from the whole that smells slightly the trouble, close the eye. They introduce;make familiar with sentimentality, but not loyalty. A little what difficulties - their as if âåòðîì blows off. Your aunt before death pleased was scratch you beside my threshold, but with old notary better such number not to perform. The First-íàïåðâî it is necessary properly all ðàçóçíàòü. Why I in this ââÿçàëñÿ, one God known, can, for spite, but, in my opinion, you has a talent although I and do not know what. Ated Taads just as went, quickly, mechanically, - did not ate, but was fuelled. If he, thought Inni, on some reason îòâåðíåòñÿ aside, hand, operated other location, will inevitably prod the fork to him in cheek. Polvosimogo - take away with table, put(deliver) coffee. Without fourth eight - coffee, "my quarter cigarette, ïÿòóþ I hen before ñíîì". The Heavy scent "Blek áüþòè" sailled on room. - As this - have a no father? - has asked Arnold Taads. This person of the high-hats only such questions, on which was not an answer. And Inni has not answered. Have a no father meant - what-that has not. That else will here say? - You someday pined for him? - No. - But knew him(it)? - Before ten years. - Remember about him anything? Inni was conceived about father, but, since, probably, for the first time did this conciously, turned out to be in difficulty. Leaving, father spoke "regard!", has once upon a time thumped the mother under him and, insofar Inni has understood, once again in his(its) absence. But somehow in the night, ðàçáóæåííûé by siren of the air-raid alert, he in panic has run downwards and has caught the father on couch, with nurse, in more uncomfortable (as judged by ïîçäíåéøåé reconstruction) to pose. Not at all not having been embarrassed, father has ed Inni back in baby. Subsequently he married this maiden, mother Inni disappeared as a result one of that enigmatic intrigues, what adult force the world to dance under their fife; Inni remained with father and stepparent, but in hungry winter his(its) have sent to full-grown, which now vein in Gelderlande sometime. At the end of that winter father to perished when bombing. This èçâåñòèå has filled Inni pride. Now he âïðàâäó had a relation to war. On father grave he nor reek did not visit, but when has for the first time shown to her interest, from it already and trace did not remain. Have Vented, has said someone, have evenned with the ground; so him and was remembered: father has evenned with the ground. On æåëòîâàòûõ military photography he saw the becoming bald man with sharp devil of the person, such gloomy êëèðèêà late muddle ages though, on tale full-grown, he danced in cafe on tables under gipsy music. Here is and all that he remembered about father, and conclusion thence followed only one: father was a most natural dead person. - I little that litter. And again Taads, on ñåé under likeness of the mentor once: - Sartr speaks: if beside person no father, that he is saved from need to drag for itself over-I. No father on hunch - no in lifes by force directing factor. No nothing such that causes the riot and hate or with what possible take the example. But I about this know do not know, has thought Inni. If this means that he one on light, then all it is correct. He and itself so considered and was wholly complacent. The Other people, like here is this, it is necessary to keep on distance. And perorate about his(its) persona they did not disturb somewhat less. While they interpreted about itself or about his(its) family, where he nobody did not know, all were exceed. Twice his(its) excluded from èíòåðíàòà since he "was not inserted in group", "did not participate in work", "bad influenced upon other ó÷àùèõñÿ". But better say, they his(its) hated. Laid under him under pillow of the prayer to hate ("tart lemon, were washed for us"), but, oddly to say, his(its) this did not brush against, boys were others, at days of the visit their surrounded the kinsfolk, father in brown suit, full-grown in öâåòàñòûõ charge, he had not with them absolutely nothing total, in the same way either as from this person, who by chance dropped in at his(its) life. He not ïîäïóñêàë them to itself, here is what is wrong, all occurred as if in cinema: he sat in common-room and with interest keeped a check on development of the plot, else - an actor-that what! - but participate on-persisting could not, even feelling liking to actor, remained the spectator. When do not speak nor word, histories come themselves itself. And after all truth come. Here is and presently too. The history turned around In calm room recitative to his(its) families - a gospel from Arnolda Taadsa. Lightness to arias in ðàçãðîìíîì narrative was not and in mention. For âÿùåãî impressions anonimous composer in a masterful fashion used deep, going from abyss îáðå÷åííîñòè and grief ñîáà÷üè breaths, èáî any once, exactly in short break after description next ïðèäóðè, erratic behavior; or vilethings some Vintropa dog possessed by beautiful feeling of time certainly sighed, noisy releasing air from underground labyrinth, with which was most certainly bound. They that, beforehand rehearse? - thought Inni. The Dog age not painfully-that long, a under one ãîñòåâîé of the portions of the goulash at week here obviously did not expect the big amount a visitor. Arose the single answer - such reports, sermon, declamations occurred and in solitude moreover dog provided the general-bass, accents and âûðàçèòåëüíîñòü. The Air, air - an ãåíèàëüíîå animal learned;learnt to paint the alert and approval invisible airstream that surrounds us and somewhat ñòðóèòñÿ VWXbe drafty us, catch music of the fate and hostility, not giving him to hang for the rest, indifferent air by mining the ruinous pendulum become hours, but in âèðòóîçíîì åäèíåíèè with one-eyed master filling their echo right before said, in which was guessed and lung, but that and painful ïîäõëåñòûâàíèå, forced soloist to keep the reached tension. 8 The Tension, as Inni there is hear, - power negative. Has Understood he all this not in the first evening, but that first evening initiated his(its) friendship with Arnoldom Taadsom. One of the particularities of his(its) nature (Inni and about this then did not suspect, after all that he there nor thought, he simply else too little has lived) was concluded in that that people, which äîâåëîñü once upon a time to attract his(its) attention, he from itself already did not release. Complitly and beside this was that, who surrounding, that áèøü usual folk, called "÷óäèêàìè" and absolutely could not get stuck with sarcastic, mundane look most Inni. "Glyanite, the next Innin exhibit with scrambles, from äóðäîìà, from person of the collections, from ïðåèñïîäíåé". "With whom this I saw you the other day in Shiphole?! (16)" "As you ìîæåøü the whole evening to sit with such subject?" "You that, meet with this maiden?" But so much for was later. Presently we deal with Arnoldom Taadsom, person, who did not be able to adjust the relations with the world and ãðîìîãëàñíî therefore and sharply from this world repudiated, as if was his(its) potentate. Be the ñåé a herald negations ïÿòûì by evangelist, symbol his(its) should be able to do the sea gull, solitary turn grey figure on, ïðîðèñîâàííóþ on more dark background sinister sky. Inni saw the sea gull in film about nature, telescopic lens spied on them with close distance, and seemed, they quite beside. The Birds suddenly gaped the beak, emitted the piercing wail to fury and precautions, several powerful strokes wing âçìûâàëè in âûøèíó and, as before lonesome, sailled away on invisible, ëåãîíüêî çûáëþùåìñÿ airstreams. And was again heard shout, once again and once again, as if something ripped, with crackle tore. Have Overpunched the watch. The Persons and dog have got up. - I ïðîâîæó you on bus, - has said Arnold Taads. In front he èçâëåê from rack wooden subject like umbrella, covered by brilliant vellum. - ïàðîíã, - Has explained he, and really as soon as they left on street, on strained surface hard, staccato çàñòó÷è rain. All it is correct. Striding to wicket, Inni was looked over on house and else ñèëüíåå, than in room, has felt the ôàíàòè÷íîå solitude, which îáðåê itself this person. Beside sufferings ensemble forms, and though Inni, restoring later in memories this day, most certainly already rather sufferred much, all zh òàêè strangely that person of his(its) age etat cru (the Quintessence (ôðþ.)) of the suffering was opened in that minute so brightly and distinctly. The Suffering not as accident, but as voluntary, not subjecting to cancelling punishment. Not subjecting to cancelling, èáî other had not to her relation, èáî this person, so springy and atheletic stridden beside, exactly athlete, beside which world record, consider;think;count, in pocket, suffered from myself obviously, in itself most. Inni then did not know how else to formulate its impression, but understood that here smell(blows in) the death, but thereof kindom already are not returned, cost(stand)s only there to wander - on íåñ÷àñòüþ or on oversight simply. 9 Inni îáëåã÷åííî âçäîõíóë, when bus, on timetable exactly, has ridden off from stop. Arnold Taads and his(its) dog have already haved time to to disappear in nights, in rain, in wood. The Bus, train, long traveling on foot way on street Hilversuma, where in garden, as if gloomy ãëûáû tombstone, got dark the mansions. Warm, heavy scents colour after äîæäÿ and amongst the whole this sweetnesses - an unacquainted aftertaste of the parting. Ñ than exactly, he not yet âåäàë, but parting not to avoid, this was clear. Arnold Taads him that in the night did not appear in the dreams since sleep he could not. Though vision, which he ñïîäîáèëñÿ and in which appeared Taads, most of all resemble(go)ed on dream. The Master of the building newly sat opposite it, what sat in that evening while awake. Undoubtedly, person was very that several hours back accompanied him(it) to bus, - with double skin, one-eyed, appeared in his(its) lifes as finger of the fate. With word "to be" Inni always linked that, special importance, what roman catholics invest in, it with timeses Fatimy and Lurda (17). And certainly, Arnold Taads was sooner phenomena, than than-that else, in addition phenomena sitting though in events with Virgin mary about like variant was not mentionned. The Other attributes were on place: muted light of the lamp surrounded the tormented person by steadfast nimbus electrified to sanctity. Probably, single discord was concluded in that that sanctity persistently did not want to communicate most person - an abudance contrast straight-òàêè repulsed calm serenity. This saint was ðàçëîìëåí in two and has haved time to èçâåäàòü so much sufferings that verily could bathe in íåçåìíîì glow, but on person his(its) çàïå÷àòëåëè its trace so many, and more gloomy worlds that appeared the suspicion, have not we here deal with insidious mask of the devil. Little that, on person was found that pimple, that big shot, that wart, incomprehensibly that, simply some ballooned, jaggy of the skin, and in celestial light of the lamp else have deeper oozed two deep, èðîíè÷íûå, of suffering furrows, going from wing of the nose to corners ðòà. Where îò÷åòëèâåå, than eye (after all blind, unseeing eye too watched, filling to say the least half geometric space rooms by unencountered torments), Inni were recalled in semi-consciousness of that nights these two furrows, which, like fine âåðåâî÷êàì of the doll-puppets, played in corners ðòà and that âçäåðãèâàëè them, that lowered moreover absolutely independently friend from friend. The Long years Inni will to advantage tell this history, and invariably with feeling of the blame before decedent, which hereunder betrayed and which, inherently, perished from consequence of this histories exactly. - In Skalistye mountains me already not to return, - has said Arnold Taads. - Too age, on work do not take. Here is and åçæó now each year in Swiss Alps, in one of the local secluded valleys. You most certainly òðóäíîâàòî visualize such place, yes I and shall not say, where it is found, this my secret. I remove the abandoned homestead, õîçÿåâà live there only summer. The People, including these, èçíåæåíû, íàáàëîâàíû. Can Not, yes and do not want to be one. Resolutely refuse to throw call to winter and solitude. After all after the first snowfall this valley is completely cut from the world. Realy that on ski äîáåðåøüñÿ. - But as with ïðîâèàíòîì? - has asked Inni. - Biweekly go in village. I much no need. For life of the person is in general required much little, only all about this have forgotten. As it were there nor was, in rucksack much will not carry away, go-that six hours. Inni has swung the head. Six hours! - Not to visualize! Tell! - has asked he. Arnold Taads çàæìóðèë one eye, èçîáðàçèâ such obscene, yes else and çàòÿæíîé, ïðèùóð. - So! - has said on. - Well-ka, figure ryadom. - (Subsequently Inni will make from this its çíàìåíèòóþ ski pantomimu.) - Here is we go, mount uphill. Blows the sharp east wind, more unpleasant. À on back rucksack beside you. Heavy, with ïðîâèàíòîì on fortnight, and for ïñà too. Go else four hours. See on me. The Eye was as before çàæìóðåí. - Beside you presently both eyes open. But I see only one eye. The Blind presently locked. So, now çàæìóðü right eye. As you understand, this distorts the prospect and narrows the normal field of vision more then on thirty percents that in such march insecure. try. The Piece of the right half of the room as knife cut. - If go too quickly, always risk not to notice the stone, bough or else what obstacle. - And that then? Arnold Taads again sowed;sown. Inni at all could not itself to present that newly open now, brilliant eye indeed was a hole, which broke the world, and that's why left eye was to tighten doubly to in snow or on ëüäó insure its owner from dangerous for life of the fall. - Then I can fall and break the leg. Theoretically, but can. The East wind raged in room. The Noonday sun, flashing up on ãëåò÷åðå, blinded his(its) single eye. Neither houses, nor people. The World, from age unchangeable, untouched. And in boundless whiteness - small figured, skis protrudes crisscross, as if first ïîëåøêè camp campfires. The Leg unnatural âûâåðíóòà, as beside dolls. - And that you then will do? Will Freeze, certainly, has thought Inni, but in answer has heard something absolutely unexpected: - Then I ïîäàì alpine signal bedstviya. - And master without any warning ãàðêíóë "HILFE!" (On help! (him.)), âçìàõíóë hand, installing in room same sinister silence, as sometime there, in fatal valley, then silently, nose opened ðòîì has considered before three and has again yelled "HILFE!", once-two-three, "HILFE!". The Person his(its) has turned crimson, seemed, monstrous power of this shout here is-here is âûäàâèò the glass eye from orbit. Inni looked at distorted, crying to help êàðíàâàëüíóþ mask. Never else he did not happen to to see so defenseless person. He felt shame and pity - shame what will always feel from excessive frankness others, and pity to person, who already long years lay with broken by leg in solitary çàìåðçøåé to valley and nobody could not about this tell. - Kriknu so thrice, with pause on three counts, but shall afterwards repeat while is enough power. In mountain sound is breaked in much far. - But if hear there is no one? - Then sound will cease to exist. Only I shall hear him(it). But is intended he not for me. If sound will not reach the stranger, for which is intended, he will cease to exist. But soon and I shall too cease to exist. Zamerznu, îêî÷åíåþ, already shall not be able to yell, óìðó. The Dog, certainly, could not understand these words, but resolute tone, shaded by shade ãðÿäóùåé troubles, has not slowed on it to act. He has got up, quietly çàñêóëèë and âñòðÿõíóëñÿ, is woke;waked throwing something. - When they will go to search for me, Atos already will destroy, - has said Taads. - And this disturbs me most of all. Own my death - taken into account risk, but wanted find the way to insure Atosa from this. Alas, such way no. For the first time Inni heard that someone in all detail told about own death though approaches she only after years. 10 The Luxury, rather then wealth - here is the most suitabling word for description of the interior big òåòêèíîé villas. The Old-time two-story closets, soft sofas "chesterfield", pictures of the Dutch school, splendid ðåíåññàíñíîå crucifixion and ivory, go have as if enfolded in warm blanket. - For me riddle, as people manage to live amongst schlock past, - has said Taads, when they not for long remained vdvoem. - All are covered êëî÷üÿìè of the yesterday's day, all at one time already were beautiful, for others. Stench carries From àíòèêâàðèàòà. A Hundreds long ago èñòëåâøèõ eye looked at these belongings. Bear possible, only if you èçíóòðè too like commissaries of the junkman itself. Inni has not answered. If this deserves the contempts, then and with him most certainly something not in order. He çäåøíÿÿ situation seemed íåîáû÷àéíî comfortable, and together with that from she winnowed the might, but signifies, îáîñîáëåííîñòüþ from external world. - Tereza, today is born the bourgeois, - has said Taads, when entered the aunt, - and you cost(stand) beside his(its) cribs. Vzglyani, ìîðäàøêà beside your new nephew devilishly complacent. He will hear its natural ambience îáèòàíèÿ. No, you see, with what relaxed åñòåñòâåííîñòüþ he straight on eye becomes Vinitropom. Arnold Taads has surrounded its appearance more impressive. However in that day Inni (even formulating mentally, he found that sounds this ïðåóâåëè÷åííî) has found - moreover not on own example, - that between people can exist the distance, expressing so terrible íåïîõîæåñòü that one, sees her(it), hardly does not die from sadness. Such belongings introduce;make familiar with each though nobody does not know them forward. Pryamohodyaschie persons of one type, in addition using one and same language to explain to each other that their separates íåîäîëèìàÿ gap. The Coffee table - Inni and this has noticed - set the full idiot. Three plates, with which behooved there is - "uncle" was not yet declared, - got lost amongst endless ensemble guard;keep with meat delicacy. Dear me, in that only do not transform the dead animal! On saxon porcelain with blue pattern aiming exhibition to deaths - smoked, boiled, roasted, flood, blood-red, in monochrome hutch, is exuded-rose, dimly-blanching, with marble ïðîæèëêàìè, pressed, minced, slice. Nikakomu èíòåðíàòó such and did not appear in the dreams. Taads, which in this house looked quite small, stood for conducted him chair, looring around field of the battle. Penetrated VWXbe drafty window curtains warm sunshine gilded white, æåëòûå, soft, hard, penetrated by blue mildew cheeses. - Coffee beside us is set on áðàáàíòñêèé manners, - has proclaimed the aunt, with hope ãëÿäÿ on Taadsa. After all all this she has exposed exactly for the sake of it. Taads kept quiet. Single his(its) eye ransacked the table, mercilessly, relentlessly. And finally, exactly blow of the whip, has sounded the condemnation: - listen;hear, Tereza, but ham you has no? From this blow aunt staggered, blood dashed her in person. The Shaky gait she left in corridor, whence äîíåññÿ long, ãëóõîâàòûé shout, which rolled away upstairs and disappeared there for slammed by door. - Brabantskiy coffee table, - a satisfied èçðåê Taads and sel. - a Nauseous ïîçäíåáóðãóíäñêîå affection. Bogatye êðåñòüÿíå-textile workers is hitherto imagined legal successor áóðãóíäñêîãî courtyard. This Netherland Bavariya (18), lad. Kalivinistu here not place. - I thought, you too were a roman catholic, - has said Inni. - Above Great rivers (19) in Netherlands all êàëüâèíèñòû. We do not love neither too ample, nor too çàòÿæíîãî, nor too road. But this people only will give - before three hours ïðîòîð÷èøü at the table. In door have quietly knocked. Entered the chambermaid and has put(deliver)ed before Taadsom plate of ham. - Is Pleased else anything, sir? The Girl was high, thin, with splendid bosom and rolling actor's person, green eye by a narrow margin hid the laughter. Inni immediately fell in love in it. Later (about this repugnant, ãëóìëèâîå "later", which, similars, ordered all, life experience forms from what as legal system) - later he so is determined these sudden reckless âëþáëåííîñòè: "Physical here, on essences, nor under than, from this it realy that sooner gains îò÷åòëèâîñòü. Simply suddenly realize, intuitive, instant and firmly: she in order". "In order?" "Yes. In harmony with itself. On such that not in harmony with itself, I it is nothing not êëþíó. But the second handhold - finally this design - that you know: for it you too attractive". "Aha. And then if all will coincide if and time approaching and place too, in your meeting is present the logic". The Logic - from this word any âëþáëåííîñòü in a flash óëåòó÷èòñÿ. But presently speech not about this. Simply in that that you lay with someone in bed, most certainly was an iron logic. You knew that this will happen, èáî not to happen can not. Remained only to enlighten on ñåé count and the other. Carry in temptation. Confidence in upshot event much this promoted. Confidence, but else - before strangeness inconsistent argument that bed here absolutely nor under than, and more distinctly this oozed, when you most happened to turn out to be in dug "other". The Main - has coincided all or no. But desire, hot thrill, íåîáû÷àéíîå, frantic sensation, always alike, that most, what he felt presently at the table while she went, straight line as arrow, single question, full exciting hissing, fluent glance merry green eye that laughed "on funny ñòàðèêàøêîé with ñòåêëÿøêîé çàìåñòî eye and on òîùèì strange lad, which so and áóðîâèò you çåíêàìè", - here is exactly this was needed first of all. Only afterwards came "checking", mission of the respectful serving to woman. The Buddies declared Inni madman, when like histories once again and once again drived him(it) on the other end of the world, forced to follow the certain line, certain idea, on which someone once upon a time by chance his(its) has directed and which at any cost was necessary check. Vpravdu all so or no? Vpravdu there, near this "other", there is possibility to live exactly so, and if he this possibility will choose, she will? Here is what is wrong. Find exactly this - here is mission ëþáâè, but will not explain! "But if finally nothing do not leave? Yes-but, clear one: nobody here íè÷åãîøåíüêè understood, except womans themselves. À then all left. 11 The Aunt anymore appeared, but merciless watch Taadsa acted and here. Between three and four he certainly relied on to nap - wherever he nor was although on NOVAJA ZEML'A. Inni aimlessly strolled on house and after long fluctuations has even so opened the kitchen door. The Maid sat for big table, cleaned the silver. - A Regard, - has said Inni. The Girl has not answered, but çàñìåÿëàñü, hopefully, simply so, rather then on him. - As you to call-that? - has asked she. - Inni. She has sprinkled. The Bosom çàòðÿñëèñü, but he quite èçíåìîã from desire. Became beside, placed the hand on her(its) hairs. She has giggled, but sat peacefully, but afterwards has suddenly grasped greater polished spoon and has stretched him, proturberant side onward. All that he hated in its person, double increased, sprawlled, has oozed brighter. - Me Petroy to call, - has said she. On this, on this smooth, round, thought Inni later, he erected its temple. After all no nor the most slightest doubt that in this day of the women(woman) become his(its) religion, the centre, essence whole, enormous axis, around which revolved whole world. - But sign beside you what? - Lev. - And previously, than she has haved time to something say, he has hastily added: - My numeral - one, metal - a gold, star - a Sun. But vocation - a king or banker. - Ouch-ouch! - She has placed his(its) hand on table, to serebru. - Want, show you Goyrle? In noise and put saturday ïîëóäíÿ they went on village. All çäîðîâàëèñü with her and with curiosity slanted on it. - Where we go? - In wood. Only you aunt its will not say, well? In wood was chilly and quietly. They simultaneously strerched to one another and, having red for hands, will go under canopy high tree further. Such is a natural simplicity not will never again. The Foliage, tree, high raised curtains of the mysterious light in semidarkness - all were with them at the same time. They ëåãëè, and he kissed her(its) bosom, her(its) hairs, but she pressed him(it) to itself, firmly-firmly, and fondled his(its) çàòûëîê. The Voice of the girl quite close, beside most Innina person, told the history to her(its) lifes. The Parents else live, she îêîí÷èëà the school a domestic science, beside it eight brothers and little sister, but on factory she will not go, has preferred to work beside his(its) aunts, but bridegroom beside she serves the volunteer in Korea, through fortnight he arrives, and then they ïîæåíÿòñÿ. Afterwards she was turned - not girl, but cloud to boundless tenderness. Inni could not see that she does, but has felt on belly cool finger, but after cool of the lips âïåðåìåæêó with light, warm touch of the language. He has raised oneself slightly the head to look at it. She reclined on him. The Persons is not seen, only thick dark hairs. Ruling hand, that most that hour has back put(deliver)ed before Arnoldom Taadsom ham plate, âöåïèëàñü in moss and quietly rustling dead sheet bogeyman. And for the first time his(its) çàõëåñòíóëà storm feeling, boilled by love, desire, emotional emotion, - a storm, which hereafter he will search for always. The Head of the girl ëåãîíüêî moved. She is woke;waked saw from it, as from the source, but then all feeling, all thoughts disappeared, Inni saw only black hairs and strong hand in ìõó, absolutely isolated, - but ìãíîâåíüå has after poured out itself her in mouth, and suddenly êóñíóë her(it), and, as she has afterwards said, "has did painfully". A Certain time they lay beside. Then, the girl has raised the head and, all in the same way resting in hand, was a little turned to see him(it). In green eye else ïîáëåñêèâàëà taunt, but mixed now with triumph and tenderness. She smiled, opened slightly the mouth - he has seen beside it on language its white seed, - afterwards broadly ðàñïàõíóëà of the eye, as äåâ÷îíêà, expressing movue star, and ñãëîòíóëà. Was it Afterwards turned else, has covered his(its) itself, has kissed in lips and has said: - Well, will go. On way backs both kept quiet. Near the first farmhouses she has asked that he little detained and came home after it. Leaning to railing, he accompanied the girl by glance: she slowly and is sailled went away from it and nor reek was not looked over. When he returned, her(its) nowhere was seen. 12 The Dinner turned out to be the catastrophe else ïîõóæå lunch. The Uncle, who before that times existed in the manner of name only, now îáëåêñÿ by flesh and âîññåäàë at the head table, âäðûçã drunk. Taads in disapproval kept an eye on on ensemble crystal goblet near its plates, but aunt ïðåáûâàëà in such excitement that beside Inni ìåëüêíóëà thought: this evening to her not to bear. The Fourth ñîòðàïåçíèêà uncle referred to as "äîñòî÷òèìûé äÿäþøêà". He was in violet cape, in ñóòàíå with violet button and in violet êàìèëàâêå. The Monsignor Terryuve, secret papal chamberlain, has said the aunt, but Inni plainly did not visualize, what is it. The Person beside prelate was long, íåîáû÷àéíî white, with eye turbid, silty colour. He ïðîôåññîðñòâîâàë in roman institute of the theology. During eaten prayers, which monsignor Terryuve has read slowly and burr, Inni has called attention that on Taadsa, not shaded itself godparent çíàìåíèåì, he watched as on outlandish reptile. First gave cool òåëÿ÷èé language under green sauce. The Aunt has rung in campanula. The heart çàáèëîñü Beside Inni. Entered the chambermaid. The Gait her(it) than-that reminded the dance, and Inni has noticed that priest eye with she does not reduce. When she bent over, pouring on goblet wine, both have seen begin her(its) bosom. The Glances their were met, and priest immediately ïîòóïèëñÿ. Inni hoped that she will look at it that here is presently green ray her(its) âçîðà slides on him, as acknowledgement happened daytime, when he, and no one else, fondled óêðûòóþ now bosom, on which èëèñòûå eye were stared at with such greed. But nothing have not occurred. He she has filled the blame in the last queue, same small strong hand firmly kept the bottle "Merso". The Golden wine streamed in goblet. - For our newly found ïëåìÿííè÷êà, - has proclaimed the uncle. They have raised the goblets and have drunk, strange company thick spectre, with which beside it was suddenly found some communication. - You have abandoned the bosom catholic öåðêâè, mister Taads? - has asked the chamberlain. Arnold Taads has intently looked at it and finally èçðåê: - Better us not to wind to debates. That I have to say on this cause, insult your VWVtake in. - My VWVtake in whole only VWVtake in person. But you may insult VWVtake in Gentlemen. Taads has not answered. Inni tried âîîáðàçèòü itself VWVtake in Gentlemen. Who his(its) knows, can, the God and âïðàâäó whole only ear, èñïîëèíñêîå marble ear, steaming in space. But the God no. Here is pope(pa) exactly there is, and this strange, look like bird mister - his(its) secret chamberlain. Curiously enough realize, what is it. But once he itself secret, hardly anyone this knows. Probably, he leads the secret camera. Secret chamber in Vatican city, where is found too brushing off on bird Pius XII, to which âõîæ this person, - blanching heron and sulfuric crow. That they there discuss? Mysterious are whispered on-italian, but about than? But can, he äóõîâíèê pope(pa)s. But realy pope(pa) capable to? Inni were recalled own incubating in tart halitosis endless èñïîâåäàëåí, ïåðåøåïòûâàíèÿ, uncleanly male scent, in which sailled the word "immorality", "remorse", "pardon", and own voice in nauseous confidentiality of the wooden hutch - "one or with other", "sixth commandment", "confession". - Forgive my curiosity, mister Taads. Inni has seen, as single eye of the ski champion ïðèùóðèëñÿ. - I you all forgive, - has answered Taads, - but even though b I âåðîâàë in the God, I don't care came out of your öåðêâè. From that that is founded on suffering and deaths, wait good does not happen to. - You bear in mind expiatory victim of the God's? - A Communists so and try to take us in siege, - an èçðåê dyadya. - If will add, first go for us are taken. Arnold Taads was conceived. - A Monsignor, - has said he, having done after "ìîí" pause, why full power of the title on wink as if halo îêóòàëà figure of the prelate, - a God no, but became to be, no and. All religions - a wrong answer to the same primordial question: why we on the ground? - We on the ground then to serve the Gentlemen and thereby to get on íåáåñà, - has declared the uncle, as if his(its) someone have included striking the button. The Splendid bosom once again came up for room, gave the bouillon, has filled in small jiggers ñåðñèàëü. - As I understand, you - a professor of the theology, - continued Taads, - but became to be, talk beside us absolutely baby. You simply crowded dogmatism, ñõîëàñòèêîé, you known and proof of existence of the God, and pro inverse, you safe system âûñòðîèëè on frightenning symbol of the cross, your religion hitherto lives this ñàäîìàçîõèñòñêèì äåéñòâîì, which, fast whole, one was the only thing made on-persisting. Due to ìèëèòàðèñòñêîé to structure to Roman empire these outlandish èçìûøëåíèÿ, mixture pagan èäîëîïîêëîíñòâà and good Intentions, have found the possibility of existence, west expansionism and colonialism has provided him broad spreading, but Church, which you in addition call the mother, not once was a murderer, quite often executioner and always tyrant. - À you have an answer ïîëó÷øå? - No answer beside me. - That you think about mystic? - A Mysticism in general has a no relations to religion. Beside official öåðêâåé mystics, probably, always were under suspicion. For person this rare possibility óéòè in itself. If someday all religions is disappeared, mystics will anyway remain. The Mysticism - an ability showers, rather then systems. You came to mind that Nothing nowhere near not mystic notion? - Signifies, you believe in Nothing. Taads çàñòîíàë. - In Nothing believe it is impossible. On absence of the whole no system does not âûñòðîèøü. - An Absence whole... - A Chamberlain is woke;waked has tried these two words on taste. And unexpectedly âçìàõíóë rukoy. - real, you agree? - Well, in general, yes. - Signifies, here absences does not exist. Possible now that this plate -. world, but became to be, in him too all on place. - At one beautiful day, - has said Taads, - not will neither you, nor me, neither your hands, nor this plates, neither bottles "From-áðèîí", nor whole rest world. Even our deaths and deaths any other not will, but signifies, not will and no memories. Then is got that us not at all was. Here is that I bear in mind. - And you capable with this live. - About this beside us speech not bylo. - For the first time in the whole day Inni has seen, as Taads is dared. As if even person posvetlel. - Fine live. Not always, but most. The Stone, plants, stars - all live with this. I... e-e... the congener whole putting, yes and you, however, too. - Forgive? - And I, and all we - a congeners of the universe. If come from that that human yardsticks absolutely nothing do not signify and that on deal no neither big, nor small then beside all beside us, people and things, one fate. Us have a beginning, there is end, but in gap we exist - and the universe, and some geranium. The Universe ïðîñóùåñòâóåò several long, than you, but this teeny difference, on essences, does not conduct between you persisting differences. - But death? - A Notions have not, what is it. But you? In this most minute dinner has taken very ñâîåîáðàçíûé turn. The Aunt burst into tears. It is Difficult to say, word Taadsa have brought her(it) before tears, but consequences have not forced itself to wait. In silence, broken by loud blubbering, has thundered êîìàíäèðñêèé voice Arnolda Taadsa: - Tereza, not to pretend! The Sobs were little-by-little changed by plaintive whining, in which, having enclosed a little effort, possible was hear: "never I did not love". As it were on the part of, was as if found not at the table, near by others, but hunged sometime infinitely high and far under ceiling, Inni has seen, what entered Petra, has embraced the aunt for shoulder and exactly feeble-minded child has away from room. The Uncle has immediately got up. The Enormous figure, swaying, moved to Taadsu. Patricianskiy çàòûëîê under gray hair has gained brick-red tone. The Monsignor Terryuve too rose and äâèíóëñÿ on route, liing between äÿäåé and Taadsom. The Blow intended Taadsu, with the whole power has pleased in white person of the prelate, but since fist met goal too quickly, uncle has lost the balance. Continuing its absurd range, he has brushed against the hutch with rose set of chiha and collapsed on sex, amongst áðûçíóâøèõ by rain splinter glass and porcelain. - Bien fait (Sound (fr.)), - has said Taads. Together with Terryuve, which has splendid born related çóáîòû÷èíó, they have raised the uncle with êîâðà and have seated in easy chair. At the table, near which they now sat âòðîåì, became is been empty. Petra silently though on her(its) movable actor's person was read hardly curbed revelry, has taken away the roast, but little waiting has brought the enormous dish with cheese and mysterious sparkling carafe. -A Mister Taads, - has said the priest, - on this abusive ground we with you little in than agree, but against this you most certainly object do not become: let my nephew íàëüåò to us on good jigger of port wine. They have noded to each other and have drunk. Inni has felt, as in mouth to penetrated deep, unacquainted taste, seductive and enigmatic. - Think only, - newly began Terryuve, - when ãðîçäüÿ of this grape ripened in vineyard on hot sun, CHemberlen else and in Munich did not go. Nobody was not called back. The Prelate has closed the eye, âíèìàÿ unheard voice. But when has again spoken, voice he had another, is woke;waked addressed he to Taadsu already not and not to Inni, but to fold, which except between it was hidden for grassy-green silk blind. - My deal, rather then your, teaches saint Kiprian (20) - and was this else in âòîðîì age, - that áëàãîäàòè outside of Cerkvi no. As at days of the Flood was only one ark, on êîåì possible was take refuge from flesh-colored death, so and in NEW TESTEMENTS there is only one brining salvation ark - êàôîëè÷åñêàÿ church. And Gentlemen Itself our has said us: "If and öåðêâè will not listen, that yes will he you, as pagan and torment" (21). Our Church holy, èáî beside it saint founder, saint teaching, saint mystery and on all timeses saint members. He cut itself bit fresh shave, has caught his(its) knife and has sent in mouth. Inni has haved time to to see, as white-æåëòàÿ cream mass moves on âåëåðå÷èâîì language here and there. Taads has once again filled its liquor-glass, with evident pleasure has raised her(it) to light and has ed, where more softly, than Inni expected: - A Monsignor, first, thank you that you have took over intended me blow. You became my other cheek previously, than deal äîøëî before my first. The Skull beside you strong, and mental your abilities obviously damage have not tolerated, èáî your thought follows on same doctrinaire rail exactly, as always. But here is what you do not understand, so this that that I ñòîþ in side from road. And a thousand once saw, as your train races past. In your eye, which, in my opinion, pretty suffer from cataracts, I notorious innocent lost. - Not innocent, - has said the chamberlain, - not innocent. Innocent only one, can not âåäàòü truths. - If I and am mistaken then from the best impetuses! - merrily âîñêëèêíóë Taads. - If faith there is áëàãîäàòü, I her(its) does not ñïîäîáèëñÿ. - A Gentlemen allows the sin of the disbelief, èáî wants that we have chosen Him(it) liberally. Suppose, you known that God signifies itself through çðèìûé world, through voice your shame and through divine revelation, and you may how much are pleased to consider itself congener whole putting - hi-hi-hi, - but that that God gave in revelation, you teach the Church, but you her(its) member. - Was. The Priest has published the chuckle and - choked since gulped down in this wink of port wine. Together with êàøëåì port wine áðûçíóë outward, has dotted the spot white äàìàñò. Continuing ïåðõàòü, monsignor Terryuve âûäàâèë: - Was! There was! But we-that you never shall release! You have got the christening, you are contributed in lists, you belong to to Cerkvi. If we speak that on light so much-that millions or milliard roman catholics, that takes into account and you. The Christening - an eternal sign! You - a component part of body Hristova. But you interpret about brotherhood! Yes that you nor spoke, this you not to canceal! - I here is think, - has said Taads, - that if b someone have went to trouble split us both, that áèøü to cut along, and has put our ïîëîâèíêè side by side, difference between you and me was more small. - As argument, probably, several painfully. - I have said: visualize. You are whole life much what itself presented, finally under this casuistry too game of the most outlandish plays. So here is, visualize that ïîëîâèíêè our brain to rest upon this luxurious guard;keep - here is, silver of the eighteenth age, can, and too luxurious for us, - is not shown you in such event strange that your gray matter was run away, woke;waked one of three persons, contained your united God, was his(its) son, given birth from women(woman), who for ever remained the virgin, but however conceived from one of other persons that "has found on it" (22), as it is expressed Church, but as a result this after two thousand years you to come to go in person to cloth, wholly stylish, only with amusing violet decorating, and your gray matter will direct the messages my gray matter, which shows off on engraving silver near by your - you only visualize, - from what must with need to follow that I have the right not to think that think, èáî at one time - notice, without my consent - one of your colleagues îêðîïèë water my ðîäíè÷îê, ïðîèçíîñÿ herewith magic incantation, exactly as in any cannibalistic company in äæóíãëÿõ somewhere. - Mysterium fidei, - pronounce monsignor Terryuve. - Antediluvian tainstvo. - Taads has got up because of stola. - shall Go âûïóùó my íåêðåùåíóþ dog. 13 The Uncle snored. Inni felt that quietly becomes tipsy. The Prelate, sighing, broach in long white finger crystal liquor-glass. - A Sorrowful soul, - has said he. And on person by shade slid the sadness. He took a look at Inni. Ilistye eye have noticeably got dark, darkened by blanket ñòàðèêîâñêîé grusti. - You most certainly incomprehensibly this expression - "sorrowful soul". We, - he has dribbled the room by hand, is woke;waked around stood whole catholic church, - we name the showers in purgatory "sorrowful" since they happen to much suffer, live in separation with Gospodom and themselves they at all can not shorten their own flour. N-da, purgatory... the purgatory... will get he there? Not a single person, who belongs to to öåðêâè, including all we, here sitting, - he has shown on empty chair, - not to rescue unless will be stubborn in ëþáâè, and this to the ful fair and for mister Taadsa. The Breakup there is mortal sin with Gospodom. But punishment for mortal sin - a hell. The Priest has closed the eye. And except between has seen for fine omitted øòîðêàìè something terrible since, when eye were opened, colour their as if has else got dark. - You believe in hell? - No, - has said Inni. - A Hell, - pronounce monsignor Tyurreve, - there is secret, and I go to sleep. And remained their two, has thought Inni, when black-violet figure is woke;waked on invisible rail slid to door. The Uncle snored, however on person his(its) was read the discontent. Someone another, too sat in this easy chair, sleep refused and all have against the will rescued. Inni did not hear, what entered Petra, and flinched from surprise, when she has ironned him(it) on hair. - Oh and ïóæëèâûé you, lad, - has said she, and in her(its) intonations was drafty something such, from what on eye of the tear welled up beside Inni. He not to got accustomed to good otnosheniyu. - Well that you that you, will go, shall conduct him(it) in room. For second girl has pressed Inni to itself. He has clung to her(its) bosom, öåïëÿÿñü for it, as drowning for straw. - What a you õóäóùèé, - has said she, - give-ka óòðåì tears-that. The Uncle did not want to come out of stupor, but that, another, discontented ñòðîïòèâåö inwardly it, has got up and has allowed to lead away itself from table, upwards on stairway, in sleeping, where on beds still, as if ïîêîéíèöà, which nobody did not toil to close the eye, âîçëåæàëà aunt. - A Tablets, - has quietly said Petra. They are a sections uncle and have lowered in rose sarcophagus near by ïîêîéíèöåé. - Me bad, - has said Inni. Petra has taken him(it) for hand, has provided in its room, ðàñïàõíóëà window, has put him(it) on bed and has left. Have Adown overpunched the watch, strange high sound has as it were marked the certain distracted wink. For the other day Taads will explain Inni that this beat off the vials ship chronometer, but now seemed, is woke;waked all around is engulfed by motion since in ñåé distracted, but voiced marked a wink room swung back and forth as if nave. Itself Inni was found in focus of this motion, passive subject, but here is great êðóæåíüå has caught him(it) too and as if blow of the whip has chucked to window. He felt itself so, exactly âûáëåâàë all its inside, however and this turned out to be it is not enough, sensation of the emptiness, appeared now, too asked outward and convulsive, obsessed crept upwards and pulled at for throat. From eye ðó÷üåì poured the tears. Adown he saw the dark collapse of the garden and though êðóæåíüå ïîóòèõëî, desperately clung for windowsill. The Whole life tore from it halitosis, enigmatic substances, which long years insidious hid in foot, in roe, in brain, yelled, requiring liberties, the whole enormous spare of recollection and humiliations, absurd solitude, all it is necessary âûïëåñíóòü in get dark tear of the garden, will let disappear, will become unencountered, âûøâûðíåòñÿ the halitosis tart, malignant mainland and èñòëååò there, together with him. He wanted the nonexistences, for the first time possibility became in lifes this idea, thinkable already and for it most. He has heard, as for back was opened door, and knew that this she. Barefoot, has thought he, she barefoot. The Barefoot legs, these äàðèòåëè bliss, äîíåñëè her(it) up to window. It Is Put on on her obviously something lung, thin. She has embraced him(it), has crossbreed the hands beside it on bosom and quietly his(its) rocked slightly, is woke;waked knew, about than he right before thought. Without òóôåëü she was trace above it. The Timeses he else shuddered all body. And then she quietly repeated: - Tss... òññ... Only in a certain time she has conducted Inni to washstand, âåëåëà wipe the tears, âûñìîðêàòü nose, ïî÷èñòèòü teeths, drink once fill water. Afterwards section him(it), has tucked into bed, has switched off the light and ëåãëà beside. While blazed the light, night seemed pitch-dark dark, now she, little-by-little become clear;clear up, displaced from room darkness. Neither light, nor darkness could win in this single combat, and all ended the calm gray semidarkness, in which Inni and Petra, lying down beside, become discernible friend for friend. They kissed, fondled each other, and he saw, as she is slowly changed. The Person her(its) is woke;waked disappeared, but on his(its) place appeared another, more ungovernable and simultaneously more distant; this person has captivated him(it) and in turn was beside it in captivity, quite beside and all sometime far, - for the first time he has seen that capable ñâåðøèòü such; he concerned her(its) hand, and suddenly she became on ÷åòâåðåíüêè, from blazed the snarl got free along with breath, she was on liberty, far-far, this inspired the awe, in she raged frantic power, due to which she could all that for it so and will remain the impossible, - forget its name, this house, this room and him(it), and all exactly his(its) she ñòèñíóëà in embrace, exactly he ïîäìÿë her(it) under itself and fell into it. The Anguish, solitude, enjoyment... in perspiration and moan thrashed about they on enormous bed, is woke;waked the duel, and all this time she as if suffered the terrible pain or thirsted to dispose of own rafts, yes-yes, and she too, and, firmly pressing him(it) to itself, as if together with that wanted îòøâûðíóòü him(it) away. When all passed, she lay quite quietly and broadly opened eye peered into ceiling. Inni as before íåîòðûâíî ãëÿäåë on it and saw, as gradually returned the shade and spectres her(its) workaday person, crowded another, full secret person and it èñòàèâàëî, flew off in leaving night, in the first ïòè÷üè warbles, whence and was by birth. - Ah you... - has ed she, slowly rising, and in the same second internal change too ïîäîøëè by the end of, door were slammed, returned the name, eye have again flashed up the taunt, she çàñìåÿëàñü. - Well here is, for one day - two mortal sins. Little waiting, when both sat leaning to wall and smoked one cigarette on two ("Golden ôèêøí", her(its) mark), she has placed the hand to him between legs and again çàñìåÿëàñü. - A Big boy anew became malenikim. - And with light surprise: - But where zh beside you extreme thin skin? Where she ïîäåâàëàñü? - I have done cutting, - has said he. - As our Gentlemen? - Yes. She voiced burst out laughing. - When you was small? - No. Last year. From amazing she for a long time çàìîë÷àëà. - But why? - Then that painfully was sleep with woman. Too closely. - Yes-but? - She bent over to take a look ïîáëèæå. He has ironned her(it) on head. - But you after all not jew? - No, jew here nor under than. She was again unbent, tense about than-that speculating. And has finally said: - An Eye beside you sad, exactly ãîðèöâåò. The Jewish eye. 14 Cutting. The Buddy, neighbour on rooming house, has conducted him(it) to surgeon, who handled on house. The Bright winter day, small jew-doctor, exactly such, as Inni itself and presented, with strong german accent and classical german-nurse, near which this surgeon, thought Inni, evening found the shelter. The Small doctor âåëåë to him to get undressed, examined and has declared: - An Operation trifling. The Sister, do him prick. Inni suddenly found oneself on table, but all known that world then becomes other. Velikansha, beside which suddenly disappeared the legs, has swum past, as on boat, and has said: - We shall give you local anesthesia. The Local anesthesia! He wanted the elated head, watch that will. - Lie peacefully! Cool, çàèíäåâåëûå winter roofs, brilliant bone frames for window. À on wall "Lesson to anatomies of the doctor Tulpa" (23), only patient was already destroy. As, however, and doctor, and artist. Not that this Tulp. This stood in the corner and kept in hand some twist bell and whistle, look like scissors. - Ich war befreundet mit eurem Dichter Schlauerhof (24 - Second "f" at the end to surnames he not proiznes. - Very interesting person, but unglucklich (the Wretch (him.)), much ungliicklich. And sick, very sick. The Syringe, with which sister suddenly was from nonexistence, was enormous - a such prick calf with legs is dumped. - Ouch-ouch-ouch, yes we are at all hidden decided, - has mellow said the sister and has firmly grasped the cringed member. Auf der Flucht erschossen (Zastrelen in an effort to flight (him.)), has haved time to to think he, when needle has made the peak, and has felt, as burning pain of the prick has pierced fade victim, which, as if dead mouse, rested upon broad palm âàëüêèðèè. - Poor go;i)suit. So viele Jahre (So much years (him.).), as he destroy. His(its) not for long have left at rest. The Ballerina on reproductions danced on one drumstick VWXbe drafty his(its) tears. Now I never shall be able òðàõàòüñÿ. Never. Fine âîëîñàòîå wrist since gold(en) hour approached to dark brilliant eye. - So. Now scissors, armband, òàçèê? Inni little that saw while mouse have not raised two fingers for øêèðêó and she not ãëÿíóëà on it because of horizon. Izognutye tips scissors, exactly crooked plated with nickel beak, resolutely âîíçèëèñü in his(its) flesh. The Sensation such, is woke;waked cut something unamenable. The Pains he has not felt, but was something another, so and remained unexplained, - he has felt exactly sound of the cut, calm and simultaneously crackling. The Small hand has raised upwards bloodstained patchwork. - A Trifling operation. Wie gesagt (As I already spoke (him.)). Possible sew, sister. The Needle and thread, someone darned the sock, mended him(it), firmly mended the mouse, mousy small sausage. Nevermore! He already did not watch. Sometime there pass through the threads VWXbe drafty insensible flesh, here and there, here and there. Afterwards resolute motion - and all. - A Sister! - In voice was heard annoyance. - A Sister! I one hundred once spoke you that node it is necessary to do not so, but here is so! Funny after all simply! - Bandage newly, doctor? - Well, shall leave as it is. Don't care not creation Praksitelya. There adown on he made some manipulates, but he has already said last forgive;pardon and was sunk in close-fitting peace sadness. Beside it something have deprived. He heard the fragmentary words: "bismuth", "plaster", "ïîñâîáîäíåå, ïîñâîáîäíåå!", - but anymore wanted to bottom, felt only this strange sadness. The Sadness and humiliation. - So, stehen Sie (Here: Well here is, get up (him.)). He slowly ñïîëç with table. - Vorsicht! (Carefully! (him.)). All again have at once begun to go, room has returned itself lower half, but itself he stood on sex, with such proboscis between legs - from clamped by plaster of the bandage, on which loomed bright æåëòûå heel ("bismuth"). - But you straight-òàêè of the person without nerve. This you so seems, dolt, cutthroat. But I have sooner bited off itself language, than although once objected under you and this Krimhilide. He is an âðàñêîðÿêó ïðîøåëñÿ on room - drunk ñòàðèêàøêà. All body only as it were bordered this èçúÿí. - An Arabs in such deal prefer temperance. They are a parcels of land on it trousers - a head çàêðóæèëàñü from pain; afterwards he else certain time protruded beside buddy, in dark êîìíàòóøêå with ensemble snake and toads in òåððàðèóìàõ, äîæèäàëñÿ while all will heal, with this case, which became all ãðÿçíåå. But now here is she watched there, in the same way seriously, what his(its) tale listened. - give-Ka I his(its) ïî÷èùó. She slowly bent over and took him(it) in mouth. He felt, as her(its) bosom once again and once again brush against his(its) roes. Any time her(its) head raised oneself slightly, he saw the strip ëáà and sharp dog-leg of the brows. The Eye she had locked, she toilled, and in this was drafty some piety and purity. He sat quietly-quietly, only hands convulsive clung for sheet, as if wink of fulfilment can carry away him(it) away. When this wink has approached, he has felt, as it is poured out seed, but she so and sat bending over onward, luxurious full shoulder rested beside it on knee. Only little waiting she was unbent, with closed ðòîì. The Slanting green eye laughed, and again, as then, at noon, she has a little put out the language with white, brilliant, rolling îáëà÷êîì, ñãëîòíóëà and derisive has said: - Three? So they and sat. He has put under the palm under it, gentile, humid, exciting, they were rocked slightly, and ëåãîíüêî moved, and thrillinged, indistinct mumble, kissing, in whisper assuring each other in than-that while room was not filled by white light of the day; then she has put him(it), has caressed and has left. Began the great enslavement. Her(its) bridegroom to return from Korea, and he, Inni, already will not be able more neither kiss her(it), nor touch to her, they are disappeared from life each other, óìðóò âðîçü, great black Nothing corrode them and ïîãëîòèò, too âðîçü, but they never (never?) will not forget each other, and the whole his(its) life ñîñðåäîòî÷èòñÿ around womans, he will search for here is this most, newly and newly, amongst passer-by, ïðèÿòåëüíèö, hookers, strangers. The Women(woman)s âëàñòâîâàëè world, simply therefore that adjured him, Inni. He never will feel the sensations that someone "has taken", "has conquered" or as there else speak, after all to hide the truth, íàâûäóìûâàëè heap fool term, but truth was concluded in that that man that he itself gave oneself up to in power of the womans, wholly, without the remainder, than newly and newly caused the perplexity. If the world - a riddle, that women(woman) - power, which supplies this quivering riddle, and only they one have to this riddle access. If and possible although little understand the world, that solely through womans. The Friendship with man could be verily boundless, but remained the rational side of the things, but other women(woman) possessed than-that incomparably big. The Women(woman)s were an ÷åñòíåå, sincere, than word, they were a facility. Quite often he seemed that women(woman) äàðîâàíû him then that he, insofar this for it possible, too was a woman... and that without this he did not be able to survive. Not that that he wanted physically to become the woman, simply with woman in its male tele he was filled enigmatic sensation to duality. Later such, as he, have named "æåíùèíîìóæ÷èíàìè", like mythological "ïòèöå÷åëîâåêîâ". He disgusted the attitude a majority mans to woman, and though occasionly he entered in the same way, but on quite other reason. He knew that searches for. And on-persisting speech went nowhere near not about sex, sex was only charming auxiliary facility. The Women(woman)s, all women(woman), were a facility, allowed to approach, approach to êîëäîâñêèì limit of the secret, which they âëàäåëè, but men no. Through mans (however, so he will say only much later) you will hear as the world, but through womans - that he such. And this night, where mix the thousand of the other nights, rooms and tel, was the most unforgettable from all. 15 Have Woke;waked his(its) sound slammed door and her(its) voice: - An Aunt your asks, go you with them in church or no. He else felt her(its) scent. In corridor were heard steps, in hall waited the small tuple: uncle, aunt, chamberlain, on violet moire of his(its) cape played the matutinal sun. In öåðêâè he submissively tolerated and music Pergolezi, and ãðèãîðèàíñêèå of the religious song, and three unhurried dancing äåðâèøåé in green, and sermon ("Sheatfish there is ìèñòåðèÿ, for us íåïîñòèæíàÿ, He together and person, and the God. Through His(its) feasible secret âî÷åëîâå÷åíèå we join to divine, strictly, us must each day, always, each hour to be in delight, but we too small, too sleazy..."), and sanctification, and ringing the campanula, and candles, looked at dark frames with always new and always one and same picture from that world, which has for ever left in past. But she in öåðêâè too? In wooden back of the pews before him were âðåçàíû copper tablets: his(its) surname united with surname of the uncles, - a family Donders-Vintrop, - but there her, understandable, sit not as one should. He has seen her(it), only when she came out of depth öåðêâè to participle. The Fourth mortal sin, has thought he and has followed her. When she rose with small benches of the participle, he on wink has seen, as beside it on language ìåëüêíóëà capsule. Their glances were met, taunt in her(its) eye as if has delayed some elusive crepe, but that this was, he never will hear. He loved this girl, but she èñïîâåäàåòñÿ in all or does not èñïîâåäàåòñÿ and in week-other will leave for its soldier from Korea. He nevermore her(its) will not see. Now he itself has ed the lap, has seen, what approaches the hand of the priest (the veal), hardly not òÿïíóë her(its) teeth, but has finally put out the language. The Light dry substance a little tickled soft humid flesh of the language, afterwards he ãëîòíóë, and the god began to search for the road in his(its) inside, where indivertible - so he presently seemed - is carried out in seed. And nor in that another. Taads waited near building. He has already lunched and "ordered wraps the pair a sandwich" for Inni - eat;erode in machine. On farewell aunt has said that agreed with Taadsom cue about than, in due course he all will hear. She was pleasantly see that he has taken the participle, has added the aunt and has conducted the eye. Finally he has once again seen Petru, øàãíóë was to her, but she has jumped back and hardly has noticeably swung the head. - While! - A Girl was turned and has left on kitchen. He has saved in memories her(its) green eye. 16 On his(its) name aunt has placed in bank certain amount, with which him will be paid percent. According to Taadsa, the money were small, but their will wholly be enough that person of his(its) age could reduce the end with the end. Later beside it too cares not will, but presently such details nor to that. At the following years he was regularly seen with Arnoldom Taadsom, and ritual always was an îäèíàêîâ: walk, hour of the reading, goulash, all in same bitter atmosphere of own accord elected, mortal solitude, which was else aggravated progressing maniacal insomnia. The Contempt to people ïåðåðîñëî beside Taadsa in unrestrained hate, winters, which he conducted in its "secluded valley" (he persistently did not speak, where she is located), became all longer. In 1960 Inni in the first and has last got the letter from it. "Expensive Inni, my dog, Atos, has died. From tumor in brain. I itself his(its) has shot. And know that he nothing have not understood. The Shot thundered unbearably long, after all here in mountain deserted. I çàðûë him(it) in snow. Good luck you, regard Ill, your Arnold Taads". Approximately in month aunt has reported that Arnolda Taadsa no above-ground. Once upon a time he did not come to village for food, and lifeguards left on quest. He to death froze not far away from its shack - with empty rucksack. Inni asked itself, gave he alpine distress call. But this nobody and never will hear. Zamerzshiy dead body gave a bonus, and now Arnolda Taadsa on light did not exist. . PHILIP TAADS 1973 The Philosophy of Tea... is a moral geometry, inasmuch as it defines our sense of proportion to the universe. Okakura Kakuzo, The Book of Tea* Ne pas naitre est sans contredit la meilleure formule qui soit. Elle n'est malheureusement a la portee de personne. EM. Cioran, De I'inconvenient d'etre ne** * Filosofiya Tea... there is moral geometry, to the extent that, in what she defines our sensation to harmonies with Vselennoy. Okakura Kakudzo. The Book of Tea ** Not to be born - certainly best from existing èäåé. Unfortunately, she inapplicable to person. E.M. Sioran. About irrelevance of the birth on light 1 Exactly in that days, thought Inni Vintrop, frequentative repetitions of some meaningless phenomena as if persistently proved;proven that world - a nonsense, which for the best not to take in earnest, èáî otherwise live become absolutely too much. To example, at other days you continually faced with invalid, rather then that with ensemble blind or thrice per diem noticed wallowed on road left shoe. Such a belongings as it were strove;strived something mean, but were on this not capable. Only left the dim onerous sensation, is woke;waked regarding world all existed the certain dark intent, which could intimate such here is absurd way about itself only. The Day, when him fated was meet Philip Taadsa, about existence which he before that times not even suspected, passed under sign three blue. The Dead, alive and deafened dove - moreover at all not same since the first he has seen dead, - but all three, thought he later, tried to become ïðåäçíàìåíîâàíèåì, and enough successfully since meeting with young Taadsom has hereunder gained the halo çàãàäî÷íîñòè. Went 1973, and in this decennial event, which was Inni not on shower, he was performed fourty. He considered that to live in the second half of the age in general did not cost, but uzh in present century and even more. Something wistful and together laughable âèòàëî on these weather-beaten, äóáëåíûìè year that nestled to one another, ñîñòàâëÿÿñü at a millennium, in addition here was present certain ïðîòèâîðå÷èâîñòü: to completely carry through hundred, but in this instance else thousand, it is necessary was concern with adding, however appeared at feeling brushed off on subtraction sooner, as if nobody, and in the first place time itself, äîæäàòüñÿ could not, when revolution,- made several brightly sparkling, wholly formed zero, will abolish the âåòøàþùèå greater numbers and will send them on scramble of the histories. Single, who in these days superstitious waiting, seemed although something firmly knew, were a Roman Pope(pa), sixth its name, italian in white cloth, with martyr's mine on person, than-that reminded Eyhmana, yes small circle terrorist different colors, which vain tried onward all âçîéòè on great âåäüìàöêèé campfire. That before Inni, that forty anniversary no person change in he has not produced. - Fourty, - spoke he, - an age, when it is necessary or begin all on the third reek, or learn on maleficent starika. - He has chosen last. After Zity he had a long novel with actress, who finally from feeling of the self-preservation has exposed him(it) for door, as old chair. - Most of all I come short her(its) absences, - spoke Inni its drugu-pisatelyu. - Such people always no building, in total this falls into habit. Now he veins one and life its change did not be going to. Went the years, but even and this was noticeably only on photography. He something bought and sold, to drug did not addict, smoked the egyptian cigarettes, packs less at day, but saws not more and not their own buddies less. Such a was a position of the things in that radiant june morning, when on bridge between Heerenstraat and Prinsenstraat straight on he dashed the dove, as if wanting overpunch him heart. Instead of this bird slammed into in car, you taxied with Prinsengraht. The Car has ïðîåõàë further, but dove remained on bridge, gray, dusty, unexpectedly strange subject. The Light-haired girl climbed down with bicycle and simultaneously with Inni ïîäîøëà to dove. - Think, he moderate;temper? - has asked she. Inni stooped and overwinded the bird on back, but head her(its) did not budge, so and lay, still ãëÿäÿ on stone. - Finito (the End (it.)), - has said Inni. The Girl has moved aside the bicycle. - I am afraid his(its) touch, - has said ona. - Can, raise, but? While they address to me on "you", I not yet oldster, has thought Inni and has raised the dove. He did not love these birds. In them was not nor the most slightest resemblance with that image, what earlier appeared in his(its) imagination at thoughts about HOLY GHOSTS, and that no "áëàãîâîëåíèÿ in ÷åëîâåöåõ" was not and no, probably, again-òàêè possible to refer to their account. The Pair white, quietly âîðêóþùèõ blue in garden some òîñêàíñêîé villas - else where nor went, but sulfuric horde with spur up and about, which (absurdly and mechanically twitching head) loitered on area Dam, had nothing in common with Spirit, as for spite accepted look this essence to íèçîéòè on Marie. - That you will be with him to do? - has again asked the girl. Inni was looked over on sides and has noticed on bridge wooden box, stated public service. Podoshel. Sand was In box. He quietly has lowered there dove. The Girl ïîäîøëà too. The Erotic minute. The Man with dead by dove, ãîëóáîãëàçàÿ girl with bicycle. Beautiful. - So it is impossible, - has said ona. - a Worker will throw him(it) in channel. Not all is, where him to rot - in song or in water, has thought Inni, which always proclaimed that after death wants ðàñïóõíóòü, but presently was not time to reason about áðåííîñòè. - You hurry? - has asked he. - No. - Then let's paket. - Beside it on meat loaf hunged the plastic package of the bookstore "Ateneum - That beside you there? - A Book YAna Volkersa (25). - Excellent sosedstvo. - Inni threw the bird in package and has again hung him(it) on ruli. - a Run sledom. - He âñêî÷èë on äåâóøêèí bicycle and, not looking over, has rolled away. - Hey! - has yelled she. He heard for back nimble steps and felt, as she runs. The Shop windows âçáëåñêèâàëè than-that look like happiness. The Solid mister on lady bicycle, but right behind girl in jeans and white êðîññîâêàõ. Inni has rolled up with Prinsengraht on Haarlemmerdeyk and else has afar seen, as barriers on bridge will go downwards. And he, and girl stopped and, when bridge slowly rose, saw the second dove. The Bird absolutely peacefully, as if so and it is necessary, sat in one of the flap of the metallic beems under bridge and rose with him together, as child on gigantic step. On wink beside Inni appeared the desire to get the dove from plastic package on meat loaf and bring the expiatory victim - chuck him(it) upwards, to slowly rising, else alive congener, but he has solved that girl hardly this will approve. Yes and that meant such gesture? He ïîåæèëñÿ, as always not knowing why. The Dove has again ed downwards and unmoved to disappeared under asphalt. They have went further, in Vesterpark. In secluded corner girl tanned hand has dug the dimple in humid black ground. - Will Be enough? - For dove wholly. He has placed in dimple bird, head which hood îòêèíóëàñü back. And the grave fell asleep together with girl. - Can, bittern on jigger? - Let's. Something in this teeny death has united their - that death itself, that her(its) short ritual. Now something will certainly happen, and if it refers to deaths, that will be invisible. Inni has gone on Nassaukade. The Girl was ëåãîíüêàÿ. Here is that most of all liked him in own life - having awaken in the morning, he did not know that will go on bicycle with girl on luggage rack, but knew that such possibility always there is. And as he thought, this added him invincibilities. He looked at person of the mans in counter car and knew that his(its) life, under the whole her(its) senselessness, just that it is necessary. The Stag life, solitude, awe - in them were their own ìèíóñû, but were and pluses, for instance, present minute. The Girl quietly hummed, afterwards fell silent and with seemed, is woke;waked has came to a conclusion: - Here is here I live. Sooner order, than simply remark. He complied with the pick device her(its) finger and has rolled up on Hyugo de Grootstraat. Near building she heavy iron chain has fastened the bicycle to counter àâòîñòîÿíêè and has unbolted the door. Not dialect nor word, passed onward and became to rise on endless stairway. The Sexual èíòðèæêè in Amsterdam if you remained in circle youth, çà÷àñòóþ were connected with stairway. Inni peacefully strode for being springy êðîññîâêàìè and tried to justify the breathing to upstairs was not a shortnesses of breath. She is a vein on most âåðõîòóðå, in êîìíàòåíêå with window in cocked ceiling. The Flowerses in pot, books in box from beneath orange, Elvis Presli on poster, "Fray Nederland", exciting white and blue panties on rope beside open window. Predoschuschenie happiness mixed with melancholic person, thought he, - a cliche, either as itself êîìíàòóøêà, and his(its) presence in her. All this already was. You do not ìîæåøü not to thirst this once again and once again, but all already were. She has put(deliver)ed the plate, which he has vaguely heard, and was turned to him. The Present generation, has thought he, time in vain does not spend. You for them as glove: wanted - a parcels of land, wanted - removed; the quick decisions and faultless action. Occasionly most of all brushes off on work. The Girl stood straight against it. They were nearly one growing, and he watched straight in her(its) blue eye. Both kept gravity, but beside this gravity x-rayed the bottom, was not a structures. She did not yet suffer, and this too not accidentally. The Suffering, as he has realized, possible deny, and now so entered nigh only total all. She is a section him(it), he - her(it), and they ëåãëè beside. From she plowed the äåâî÷êîé. Inni fondled her(it), once-other she trace shifted his(its) hand, spoke "no, not here, but here is here", but after as if has forgotten about him. The Body as gadget (the Technical adjustment (the angel.)). She has finished without malfunctions in motor. There is in this some sweetness, has solved he. Itself he has reminded itself huge limousine on narrow byroad in England. Through several years like anachronism ruin;destroy;kill half to american car industry. In bed else many possible learn. He lay and felt, as small (the tennis? the basketball?) the chilly hands iron him(it) on back. - Uff, - has said she. But then: - How much you years? He straight âîî÷èþ has seen the handwriting, what she will write this in diary book (no, dolt, now they diary book do not lead), and has said: - Fourty five. Has Simply said, and all. - Never has rescued with such old muzhik. The Records, their they too adore. But hardly cost(stand)s on this take offence. - And not VWVget accustomed. - I liked. Enormous weariness run on tele, but he has got up. She has rolled up the cigarette. - Want? - No, thank you. He washed on sink, knowing that girl looks at it. It Was Dressed. Summer, all quickly. The Life as event. - That you will now do? - Beside me meeting with the other. This was a truth. He agreed on meeting with Bernarom Roozenboomom. Bernaru was already for fifty. But together him both - without small one hundred. Possible in her(its) age to name their friends? He ïîäîøåë to beds, has sat down on êîðòî÷êè, has ironned her(it) on cheek. The Glance she had such, is woke;waked she watched the japanese film. - I shall else see you? - has asked he. - No, I have a friend. - Ponyatno. - He has got up, not too quickly, in view of situation, but also not too slowly to be not shown by oldster. Afterwards on tiptoe came out of room, why - he and itself did not know, but expected the worse. (Dochka spit.) - While. - While. Only through two streets he has thought that they have not asked the friend beside friend of the names. Stopped, ed on shop window with electrical appliance. The Flatirons and squeezers in turn were crowded on it. Inherently, what is a name? That changed in äàâåøíåì event if he knew her(its) name? Nothing. And all he seemed that if people can lie in bed anonimous, signifies, since time something not in order. "But you always so considered", - has aloud said he itself and returned to former thought: "Inherently, what is a name?" The Chains of the ranked letters; pronounced aloud, they form the word, which possible anyone to name or mark. The Most these short or long chains left the root in depths church and biblical history, but consequently, some image, for all already unclear nearly, were connected with human essence, which âïðàâäó at one time veins, but this only intensified çàãàäî÷íîñòü situations. The Arbitrariness here and so was enough, after all you not itself chose itself name, but assume, you, as ïåðåêðåùåíöû (26), having grown up, could itself choose itself name - in what measure you then was this name? En passant Inni read the name on door of the houses. Vernee, surnames that else worse. De Yong, Zorgdrager, Boonakker, Cool,. Became to be, here live the bodies, which are called here is so. And will be called so before most deaths! Afterwards bodies èñòëåþò, but name, him belonged to, else certain time will be boring to flash in roll, cadastre, computer. And all no time in eleven provinces was a field, where grew the bobs, and something from that old field ed in white tilted letter on this door - Boonakker. The Unpleasant thoughts, but unpleasant in present-day plan Inni was is not provided. He èçíà÷àëüíî has solved that all will today form aptly, and nobody his(its) does not ðàçóáåäèò. In addition, this year morning threw him in embraces girl, which has dispelled from his(its) rafts winter chill, and this deserves to thanks. He has solved to name her(its) ãîëóáêîé and çàøåë in telephone box - ring Bernaru and warn that little will be late. 2 When approximately in hour Inni approached on hot and noisy Rokin to antique shop Bernara, his(its) overfilled the pleasing presentiments. Bernar Roozenboom was last in sort venerable merchant by works of art and, on own his(its) expression, dug beside itself in shop as crab. The Shop window, where was usually exposed one-single subject - an italian drawing of the epoch of the Rebirth or small picture of a little-known master of the domestic gilded age, - probably, was intended for îòïóãèâàíèÿ visitors sooner, than for their attraction. - Beside you all look so hostile and is closed that threshold of the awe ïðåâûøåí as minimum on metre, - somehow has once noticed Inni. Bernar has shrugged. - If I ïîíàäîáëþñü, I shall find, - such a was his(its) otvet. - All these upstarts, got rich contractors, cardiologists and äàíòèñòû buy, - in his(its) voice çàçâó÷àëî the sharp repulsion, - a modern art. In gallery. To buy beside me, it is necessary not simply to have a head on shoulder, but else and think. But this today big rarity. In the world much stale money, but stale money nothing do not know. Except foreigner yes one known èñêóññòâîâåäà, Inni else nor reek nobody here not âèäàë, but this little that spoke. In such shop, as beside Bernara, one-single buyer capable to cover the semi-annual losses, additionally Bernar was rich. To get before buddy, it is necessary was get through three doors. On the first, the medicine to be taken externally, gold(en) was âûâåäåíî his(its) names. "English font", - spoke Bernar. Having Dared to fall into this door, you unexpectedly fell into very calm small hall, where was found second door. Rokin seemed already far-far. Hardly having concerned torn off before briliance of the handle second door, you heard the sounds of the short graceful carillon. And fell into the second premises ("beside you, roman catholic, this is identified ëèìá or, can, already purgatory?"), as a rule, there nobody did not appear. The Day light oozed VWXbe drafty âèòðàæ, which served the back wall of the shop window, lighted;lit up the extinguished steps persian rug and two, maximum three, pictures that hunged here and why-that caused sooner thought about money, than about art. ("My velvet mousetrap".) Little waiting for window, which was found at heart and at a rate of your knees sometime, slithered in light of the lamp slow shade. ("I live in underground world, but nobody does not search for" (27).) To get there, it is necessary was come down on small ladder. ("Three stairs, exactly as beside "gold(en) coach" (28), but Oranskie art do not buy".) Itself room was small and darkenning. Stood in her two writing-tables - one for Bernara and one for receptionist if such èìåëàñü. Other ìåáëèðîâêà consisted of heavy soft easy chair, âûòåðòîãî before springs äâóõìåñòíîãî divanchika-"chesterfild" and several bookcases with reference book in êîæàíûõ cover, where Bernaru was peek there is no need, he and so all knew. - Good afternoon, sir, - ed Bernar Roozenboom. - a Hand tax can not since I do the manicure. This mistress Tenissen. With early adolescence she êîìàíäóåò my íîãòÿìè. - How do you do, madam. The Lady has noded. Ruling hand Bernara, as patient under anesthesia, lay beside it on left palm under bright áåñòåíåâîé by light bulb. She not hurry, one for others, sawed;sawn on cup with water his(its) rose íîãòè. While Inni did not see the portrait Lodeveyka âàí Deyssela cysts Keesa Ferveya, he considered that Bernar Roozenboom with type absolutely such, what he visualized the baron SHarlyu (29) though most Bernaru resemblance with "èçðàýëèòîì", as he was expressed, hardly happened to on shower. However, thereafter, as photographies blond israell were published in newspaper ñîëäàòîê, nobody already plainly did not know, as him as one should to look. Ducal the sidebar Bernarova nose family from his(its) own ðåíåññàíñíûõ drawing, ðåäåíüêèå hairs had that ðûæåâàòûé north tone that beautifully matches with tweed, but light-blue eye not in the least did not remind the brilliant dark cherries of the author "A la recherche du temps perdu" ("In quest of lost time" (fr.).), or, what loved to speak Bernar, - "perda". In addition, except Prusta and his(its) readers, baron nobody did not see if at all possible see the verbal image. Shorter if who âïðàâäó and learned;learnt on maleficent ñòàðèêàøêó - but SHarlyu and âàí Deyssel, each on its harmony, were exactly such a, - so this Bernar. The Scepticism, hubris, aloofness - all were connected in his(its) person to do quite uzh killing vitrolic aphorisms, what he regaled and friends, and enemy, but financial independence, sharp, as blade, intellect, enormous íà÷èòàííîñòü and stubborn adherence to stag life only aggravated these his(its) quality. The Cloth, which he awl on order beside london tailor, nearly did not conceal the ãðóçíóþ and on-peasant clumsy figure - from the whole his(its) look âûçûâàþùå reeked (so he spoke) by past epoch. - So, sir my, again some schlock will bring? - For the first time since Inni ñðàâíÿëîñü fourty, Bernar Roozenboom single from all gave a flash denial call him(it) by name. "Inni. Sa me fait rire (Funny (fr.).). This not name, but moniker. But Inigo else ñìåøíåå. Some people think that, giving its äèòÿòè name to celebrities, at the same time provide his(its) corresponding to talent. Inigo Vintrop, famous on the whole world architect. The Revolutionary projects Inigo Vintropa in gallery Teyt". Inni âûëîæèë on empty secretarial table two âåùèöû, which will bring with itself. - give Take a look. - Seychas. - He did not want in whitness of manicurists to expose itself on laughingstock. "Not figure to deny, cue-what scent you has, - has said once upon a time Bernar, - but you at the best dilettante, but more exactly, common junkman". Inni sowed;sown on settee and has turned the pages of "Faynenshl òàéìñ". - "Boeing" fell, "KLM" too, yes and dollar feels itself not God news as, - has said Bernar, which íåìíîæêî knew the financial deals Inni. - has Bought beside me last year drawing Rogmana, did not sit now with sullen type. Anyway, in loss did not remain. - Did Not know that you her(its) read, - has said Inni, postponing turn pink newspaper. - But I and do not read. The Client has forgotten. - Most certainly came to buy Appela (30). - I fruit not tenders (31), - has said Bernar Roozenboom. - show-ka mistress Tenissen their own marigold and gratis get from uncle Bernara round trick for waxing íîãòåé. - No, thank you, I their nibble itself. - Then help oneself port wine. Inni was here well and cosily. He liked the locker of the mahogany, where stood port wine, liked the carafe XVII age, carved crystal which under lamp of the mistress Tenissen sparkled dark-green spark. Now that he became senior, thought about money as such not too his(its) touched. The Money, remaining only money, ñãíèâàëè, lay sometime and were covered âîíþ÷åé by mildew, multiplied and simultaneously became null and void - a processes of the growing and disease, which exasperating image reduced on no each other, cancer, which in greater or smaller degree struck any, who had a deal with them. Here, in possessions Bernara, money mingled with more noble element. This not slippery icy hutch for spendthrifts and cowards, but calm world subject, shaded ãåíèåì and power, the world, where place of the money was behind knowledge, ëþáâè, collecting and in accordance with this victims, and blindnesses, and äóðîñòè. With closed eye he as while awake saw before itself common-room, located on office of the buddy. In high closet there lay the uncountable drawings - a kernel carefully selected collections Bernara. Certainly, these drawings too personified in itself money, but simultaneously and something else that not ïðåéäåò even though money value on some reason is forfeited. But besides, here was a secret room, where Bernar kept its private meeting, which seldom to whom shown, it-that and formed the sense to his(its) lifes, Inni exactly knew though cynic-buddy itself never aloud this has not said. Sitting on sofa, Inni felt silent power all these things around, which mysterious image installed the communication between him and long ago vanished by people and timeses. When manicurist has left, Bernar has taken with table Inninu file. Silently âïèëñÿ the eye in the first sheet. Inni waited. - If b you although a little understood, itself knew that I äåðæó in hand, - has finally said Bernar. - Exactly therefore that I a little understand, you and keep this in hand. - Bravo. And don't care you do not present, what is it. - In any event I knew, than this is not. - How much you has paid? - Probably, too little, as judged by that, as you was brightenned. That this such? - Well, thing not too original, but charming. - Charming? - Sivilly - my weakness - That this Sivilla, I, thank god, has discerned. Read the wit. - A Boy-roman catholic knows latin. - Just so. But who this? - Balidini. - A-a. - Inni ñëûõîì did not hear about Balidini and asked itself, bad this or no. - In general-that about Balidini us little that known, - has said Bernar. Thereby "us" he erected global conglomerate of the cognitions around itself moreover Inni, naturally, remained for his(its) limit. - Us too, - has said Inni and in expectation of again çàìîë÷àë. Will Presently begin åõèäíè÷àòü. Beside friends one value - you their know so him not so easy you îáåñêóðàæèòü. - In general-that engraving heavy, awkward, - continued Bernar. - Helpless. The Old fellow Balidini not from greater master. But from early that faithfully, that faithfully. About he mentions Vazari. Visualize: shade shade Bottichelli. Inni read Vazari - it is necessary to acknowledge, on advice Bernara, - but could not ïðèïîìíèòü nor word about Balidini. - Balidini? - Bachcho Balidini. The Thirteenth age. Why you has bought this engraving? - She was shown me unusual. And "N" so on-baby çà÷åðêíóòî, simply charming. Bernar õìûêíóë. In ãðóáîâàòîì êàðòóøå on the right at the top fitted the text, which the coping-stone was REGINA. But first have there written RENGINA, but afterwards spare "N" ïåðå÷åðêíóëè êðåñòèêîì like that, what sign the people ungrammatical, solidly and resolutely. - I see (Understandable) (the angel.). But that in her unusual? Both have rushed the look at Libyan Sivillu. She sat, surrounded ample, awkwardly embossed by raiment, and as it is woke;waked read. The Coverlet beside it for back bulged from winds, which unexplained image more nothing in scene as if and did not concern. The Higher part Sivillina raincoat was èçóêðàøåíà so richly that person itself seemed white and empty. The Eye watched not that VWXbe drafty ðàñêðûòóþ on knee book not that over her(it), added this person meek, dreamy expression. Otreshennosti, which already without small five ñîòåí years, has thought Inni. He introduced the dead a dove. The Drawing of the dove capable to live in age, but dove itself no. Such thoughts nothing do not signify and even so caused the thrill. The High-flown word. Well, then puzzled. - Gestates sinister ïðîðî÷åñòâî, - has said Bernar. - But VWVtake in beside it êðîëè÷üè though, can, in Libya so as one should. - More looks like engraving on tree, - has said Inni. - Niello, - was called back Bernar, but since Inni kept silent, added: - Niello name the work on black enamel. This technology ottuda. - And has suddenly said: - That nor dialects, âåùèöà pleasing. The Homely head decorated the floral wreath, from beneath which streamed the coverlet, forming for back outlandish loop, inconsistent all law of the nature. À over wreath loomed small, look like ïèðàìèäêó subject with three long fine sheets or feather on side, why Sivilla since her(its) own, certainly small and white, as ivory, ear were hidden under thick, not on-libyan light scythe, really reminded such graceful ÷åëîâåêîêðîëèêà. - That zh, let's-ka remove her(it) on ÷èñòóþ water, - has said Bernar. - will Go upstairs. I - a lamp for íåâåæåñòâóþùåãî, which goes in mirk. The Corridors, trouble with key. Inni why-that was suddenly recalled girl. Bernar has got from closet book, has placed her(it) before Inni. "Early Italian engravings from the National Gallery of Art" ("Early italian engravings from National gallery art" (the angel.)). The Alphabetical index. Inni has turned the pages of and has found its Sivillu. This has filled his(its) pride, exactly engraving only now âïðàâäó beginning to exist. Glyadya on discovery with several big respects, he has said: - Signifies, she hungs in Washington. - Hungs or no, I do not know. Beside them there much what possible âûâåñèòü. But she there there is. read-Ka all that is here written though no, this too much, book very circumstantial. I shall book the photostat, and, when you eat to Sotbi, will enclose her(it) to engraving. - When you eat to Sotbi, - has said Inni. - Too will not disturb. If I poedu. - Bernar will bring else one knigu. - Here is, friend my, call attention, good several kilograms ëþáâè, èáî ñåé masterpiece is formed from rare èíãðåäèåíòîâ: endless patience, enormous knowledges and first of all ëþáâè. The Old fellow Fric Luht was much rich and money their own carried out during, this quintessence to alchemies. Glyadi. Here all signs of the collectors. That again-òàêè simply splendid. After all our small antiquary something missed. - That missed? - That there is sign of the collector on engraving. Or, on-òâîåìó, this not he? - Bernar has pointed to strange, teeny and graceful badge on turn gravyury. - Curiously enough, shall find we him(it) here or no. Inni has read the headline of the book: "Les marques de Collections de dessins et d'estampes" ("Signs of the meetings drawing and ýñòàìïîâ" (fr.)), Fric Luht, Amsterdam, 1921. - Let's giving to drink, - has said Bernar. Inni was supervised to badge. Two whimsical paws some insect without trunk, but between them three vertical lines with ball on the end. - Looks like sexual symbol of some indian tribe. - N-da, - has said Bernar, - the eye of the beholder (the Eye sighted (the angel.)). Indeycy not much-that raged the early Rebirth. If giving to drink studiously, that shall certainly find. - But suddenly his(its) here no. - A Speech of the generation careless. In Luhte there is all. Bernar was a rights. The Paws insect turned out to be two put(deliver)ed mirror to one another, stylized "R", initial of the baron K. Dug dyu Dew (deceased in 1862), prussian general, Dresden. - Estampes et dessins, so and there is, - has said Bernar. - Here is was epoha. - And he has undertone read: -...importante collection d'objets d'art, de curiosites... lui-meme a dresse premier catalogue raisonnee... ox these german junkers... premiere vente 8 Avril 1863 (the Significant collection of the works of art, rarities... they are for the first time formed systematic catalogue... has entered in sale on April 8 1863...)... the engravings much... nothing especial... hi-hi... the meeting is auctioned in Leipzig... the prices not too high... and finally mysterious circuitous fetter has fallen into Rome, cloaca mundi (Worldwide êëîàêà (the armor.)) ... where large connoisseur art Vintrop... will immediately recognize the engraving Balidini... on auction... in small bench?.. - In small bench. -...and for next to nothing buies. congratulate. Something you for it really rescue. SHikovati month, certainly, not to come, but at least once ìîæåøü rightfully to consider that worked. But the other thing that she such? - Japanese ýñòàìï. - About Gentlemen. - Can, will even so watch? - No. The Mortar to Rizenkampu. He is a connoisseur. I in this do not understand. On such ýñòàìïàõ I do not see nothing, they for me don't care that with Mars. The Boilerplate èçîãíóòûå noses, narrow puppet heads, deprived or nearly deprived expressions, rather then that, on the contrary, too expressive. Very much up for you. After all you omnivorous, âñåîáîíÿþùèé, âñåïüþùèé, âñåçðÿùèé. You not capable to do the choice, but this always speaks of lack of the qualifications. That is why you simply amateur. Other word, person, who all seem beautiful. But life too short. La condition humaine (Human existence (fr.)) such does not allow. On essences, beautiful possible to consider only that, about than âïðàâäó something know. Grapping for all without analysis, person sinks in quagmire. Negligence, defect of attention, absence of the systematic knowledges - òîïêàÿ side äèëåòàíòèçìà. The Second half of the twentieth age. More possibilities for each. The Greater number of the people is aware of greater count;calculate;list subject, but knows much little. Spraying the knowledge on greatly big surface. Who wants be rolled on skates, is ruined under ice. So spoke Bernar Roozenboom. They came down downwards. - You know, where search for Rizenkampa? - On Spihelgraht. - Bow him from me. Very worthy person. 3 On street Inni newly îêóíóëñÿ in sunshine. Seemed, all and the whole enveloped film happiness. The City, which at the last years has gained resemblance with destroyed by fortress, as if was made someone look fat by glow. The Light danced in channel Rokin. Inni has rolled up on street Junction, has seen the âäàëè gentile verdure tree near Podvoriya áåãèíîê. And here is there he was met third dove, and did this bird something such, what Inni never in lifes did not see, - she created work of art and, as as one should, was engulfed by ñàìîçàáâåííûì blast since rapidly flew on glass shop window Bendera straight, where have frozen in expectation of ãðÿäóùèõ geniuses to grand pianoes and ÷åìáàëî. The Blow was very strong. For second dove as if firmly to adhered to glass, afterwards desperately çàáèë wing to not to fall, and has flown away, as lost control of plane. À work of art remained on glass, èáî on him, a little above human growing, was printed created from dirt and dust àìñòåðäàìñêîé streets made scene flying dove, small feather to small feather, with broadly ðàñïðîñòåðòûìè wing: blow çàïå÷àòëåë in dust on glass immaterial äâîéíèêà this birds. Even so about than dove wanted him to tell? He did not know, but has solved that last ñèâèëëèíî èçâåñòèå, ïðîðî÷åñòâî, warning could not on-persisting promise the trouble. After all finally this dove, not in example its dead congener, newly although and unsure, âçëåòåë in blue color and has left only its spirit - let and in the manner of dusty scene. Beside Rizenkampa reigned other solidity, than beside Bernara. Dazed bronze Budda, having exposed shift to the right hand before itself as if in protesting gesture, but, as Inni has later heard, just and not protesting, still watched through Spihelgraht in made, âåêîâå÷íîå Nowhere. The Light smile played on his(its) voluptuous lip, however for the rest look breathed sternness. Look like pyramid headdress reminded Inni Libyan Sivillu. The Dove, ïðîðèöàòåëüíèöû, preachers - this day was is obviously performed high importance. He intently looked at exorbitant long, black, delayed VWVtake in concentrated bronze figure. The Persons æèâøèé in VI age before Cristmas Hristova, now at ease sat in shop window among the world, which then and in mention was not. Suddenly Inni has felt that his(its) attention to pull to that-that other, yes with such power, is woke;waked certain law of the nature relentlessly forces his(its) sleazy body be unscrewed from Prosvetlennogo and inadvertently øàãíóòü to nearby shop window, on which aloof ãëÿäåë of the low skinny person, on type èíäîíåçèåö. And this person itself, and subject, to which he watched, play its role in Inninoy lifes, but since henceforward their already it is impossible will think apart friend from friend, Inni came to conclusion that exactly cup - after all on it-that both and ãëÿäåëè in this ñóäüáîíîñíóþ minute - has attracted him(it) to itself through this person. The Cup lonesome stood in shop window, âûñòëàííîé low çåëåíîâàòûì by silk. Small rise under cup too was green, is as çàäíèê and lateral walls. Blackenning cup, but say so - signified not to say nothing. From one things winnows the tranquillity, from other - power. Moreover not always manages faultless to define, where hidden source of this power. Be can, in beauty, but this word causes the belief about ýôèðíîñòè, which with power at all does not âÿæåòñÿ. In perfection - but it though, be can, and undeservedly, directs on thought about symmetries and logic, which here just and were absent. No doubt, this was a cup, and, certainly, round, but nobody did not r to confirm that she absolutely round. Even height her(its) was not everywhere alike, walls - no, so speak it is impossible, - internal and outer face shone and together with that seemed øåðîõîâàòûìè. If she stood elsewhere or amongst the other subject, her(it), be can, exuded work some íåáåñòàëàííîãî danish êåðàìèñòà, however here, in powerful regal solitude, about this was not and speech. The Cup stood on its rise, blackenning, mildly brilliant and øåðîõîâàòàÿ, on drumstick, which seemed too to be fine for such masses, that áèøü for such weight, but say "weight" again-òàêè meant leave from exact sense. She stood and remained, ïðåáûâàëà. The Semantics... but what will say otherwise? That she vein? Again not that. For the best, probably, will say that this container - a cup or as there is identified this solitary a subject - looked so, is woke;waked he appeared spontaneous, itself itself, rather then is created by people. He was in áóêâàëüíîì sense sui generic (the Person of the sort, ñâîåîáû÷íûé (the armor.)), has created themselves and âëàñòâîâàë itself and one, on he watched. This cups verily possible was èñïóãàòüñÿ. Inni was shown that person near by he want something say. That is why, but can be, simply having thought that disturbs this person in his(its) trance, he resolutely passed upwards on stairway, in shop. There his(its) has met Asia, âåðíåå, air, elevated idea to Asia, with which øàãíóâøèé to him high man in striped suit formed the contrast, however not sharp, but only reported small, but very exquisite placed subject light áóäíè÷íîñòü, due to that became clear that them possible else and sell. For the first time Inni realized, what this strange profession - an antiquary. - A Mister Vintrop, - has said this man, - I already heard of you. Bernar Roozenboom right before rang. And gave the best description, has thought Inni. Curiously enough, as possible me to describe? It is Necessary will somehow show an interest. Wholly in spirit Bernara - this bell. He as well as will not hear, rang Bernar to help him or to âûãîâîðèòü itself percent if he âïðÿìü ed on something especial. - Speak, you other once do the authentic openings. - Such good luck has fallen out me only once upon a time, - has said Inni, - but in your area I blind and ãëóõ. Can peacefully raise me on laughter. He has unfolded ýñòàìï and gave the collocutor, which since minute silently his(its) considered, but has afterwards placed on table. - Deride you I certainly not figure. You really found oneself on proximity with great art. Your ýñòàìï - an engraving on tree, which possible refer to epoch óêèå-e (32). Do Not know, speaks this you anything. The Images of the everyday world - a notion in histories japanese art. If you want, I little shall tell. The Author of this engraving, certainly, not from number the most great, such, as, for instance, Utamaro (33). Happen you, so to speak "by chance", for next to nothing buy Utamaro - honestly dialect, this absolutly impossible, but what know? - you could good while luxurious live on Kapri. Ishi you, on Kapri! Rather well. - So this? On wink big white person Rizenkampa hung over engraving, is woke;waked he conceived the idea of ñëèçíóòü expressed on sheet feminine figure. The Glance his(its) slithered that right to left, that from top to bottom. - A Charming âåùèöà, but ãðóáîâàòàÿ. Hope, you have paid for it little? - Little. - Well and well. Presently I shall show you raznicu. - He disappeared and returned with big book. (How much books I today saw?) - Here is very known engraving Utamaro. Even though eye beside you íåòðåíèðîâàííûå, you don't care something will feel. This was a feminine portrait. The Hand Rizenkampa light motion has dribbled his(its) sidebar and ëåãëà on edge of the sheet. - When for the first time îñîçíàííî consider her(it), glance it is difficult on than-that detain. I bear in mind that elements, on what we got accustomed to watch. That faithfully, that faithfully. Big, hardly ïîäöâå÷åííàÿ plane of this person shown the eye full absence shades and tone. It certainly was voluptuous, but removed, unattainable. Very small mouth mildly ajar, eye without lashes, too small, as if deprived expressions, nose - single èçîãíóòàÿ line. Without the most slightest change the coloring plane person moved over to decolletage, where one tight-fisted øòðèõîì was marked îêðóãëîñòü right bosom, on surprise in left part of engraving low. The Green kimono beside left shoulder âûãèáàëîñü onward and upwards some absolutely illogical ìàíåðîì, but after all and in outlandish èçâèâå Sivillina coverlets too was not a logic - only there this looked helpless, but here breathed untexplainable, but dramatic power. - That this for badge on the left at the top? - A Name of the geisha and name of the merry building. Inni has took a look once again. All sensuality of the engraving - in teeny line bosom. The Person remained removed. Did Not give nor the most slightest cause to touch to him. However, this, probably, did not be permitted. Amsterdamskih hookers too does not be permitted to kiss. Though geishas were not a hooker. - But here is here, adown? - A Seal the publisher and name of the artist... If, - pronounce voice, which was found now on him and sounded íåîáû÷àéíî noble netherland solidity, this sound limited the certain space and therefore seemed very distant from the whole east, - if you see on colorful surfaces only as on planes, that notice, how exquisite composition. Vzglyanite, these needled upwards, glossy-black hairs... all seem such simple, but, certainly, only seems. Your engraving... - a voice has lingered, - your engraving - an âåùèöà good. For its epoch she wholly unexceptional and, probably, èçíà÷àëüíî was typed in some book, like guidebook on merry quarter, shall say so, ha-ha... apropos, she ïîìîëîæå this... well but for us her(its) value in exotic thing simply. You Want anything drink? - Willingly. Inni was rectified and unexpectedly, was met by glance with man, who still stood beside shop windows. - Attentive ñîçåðöàòåëü, - has said he. - Wholly equitable remark, - was called back Rizenkamp. - And not only ñîçåðöàòåëü. He knows in this sense. I such client! But beside true fanatic of no money. In my mouth this, probably, sounds strange, however now that art all more change in object for embedding the money, trade àíòèêâàðèàòîì does not deliver the áûëîãî of the pleasure. Good belongings buy not that people. Moreover not themselves. Buying concern with the âûñîêîîáðàçîâàííûå servants, who have previously sold itself. He has waved the hand, and person on street has noded in answer. - Sometimes he calls at. Svoeobraznyy personage if his(its) do not know, but me he nice. And once upon a time he anything will buy, and uzh then anything remarkable. This not that to much it is important... Voice çàìåð since in shop entered group a japanese, but together with them - attentive ñîçåðöàòåëü. Only now Inni has discerned, before what degree east was a look of this person. From japanese with their graceful suit and tie he differed only cloth. The White linen trousers, blanching shirt without collar, simple sandals on áîñó leg. The Japanese, small êëàíÿÿñü, have stood in door whereupon Rizenkamp to disappeared with them in its office. The Persons in white noiseless ïðîøåëñÿ on shop, stopped before screen. Afterwards has suddenly said: - I have noticed that you ed the cup a cancer. Inni turned. - Only âåùèöåé as such. I am a full ignoramus and in lifes did not see nothing like. From it as if winnows the threat. - A Threat? - Well yes. The Nonsence, certainly. Itself has said, but bore in mind another. In general-that I wanted to say - power. - You wanted to say so - and have said. And in view of you, of course, have exactly that have said. The Threat. They together ïîäîøëè to shop window. The Cup stood now quite beside so Inni could in it to peek, and he seemed, is woke;waked he peers into ãëóáü îêà or in infinitely reduced deep black âîäîåì. The Cup too looked at it, empty, black-brilliant, ïîñëàííèöà Vselennoy, where uninitiated to do the íå÷åãî. - Kuroraku, - has said the person beside. Has Sounded this as incantation, as if, ïðîèçíåñÿ him(it), possible was suppress mysterious power of the cup. The Half an hour after Inni was aware of ceramics cancer more, than wanted and could remember, and, listenning calm, a little slow voice, which wound around his(its) names a master and cup, transferred the dynasties an êåðàìèñòîâ, is woke;waked tsars vanished ìèôè÷åñêèõ kindom... The Cancer IX... The Cancer X... Inni beautifully understood that this art - not only cups, but also êàêåìîíî (34), èçâàÿíèÿ Budd, íýöêå - will for ever remain for it deeply alien since it is given birth by culture and tradition, which never was and not will his(its) own. For the first time beside he appeared the sensation that for this he in some way too age; certainly, all this was a part of the world, where veins and he itself, but any one of such subject possessed the sense, leaving long after limits their external beauty. They did not cause the protest while he could simply look at them, considering this ðàññìàòðèâàíèå especially aesthetic experience, but here is thought about that that it is necessary so much be aware of each separate subject, repulsed him(it). Will Here take one more life, new birth, under the first birth time after all and space cut him(it) from this alien world. The Choice was made though and without his(its) consents, and he must him to follow. Bernar rights. There is belongings, on which it is necessary to put the cross even though they possible. Now, at fourty years, him uzh exactly not to be a pianist, not to learn japanese, and from this confidence his(its) covered bitter regret, as it is woke;waked life only presently beginning to expose on display their own limits and that's why death has found the çðèìûå outlines: the untruth that all possible. Probably, all and was possible, earlier, but not now. Each person was that, whom has fixed itself to be, can happen and not making choice on purpose, here is and he, Inni, was such, who will die to read the romance timpani (35) as tale in picture, knows, what symbols correspond to that or other evangelist, capable to see on ðåíåññàíñíîì linen mythological àëëþçèè greek antiquity, but from christian èêîíîãðàôèè remembers, what attribute inherent that or other saint. "Und, - soundless hummed he, between that as edigying voice continued their own discourses, - das ist meine Welt, und sonst nichts" (And here is this - my world, but miscellaneous I do not concern (him.)). Somehow once in òîëåäñêîì cathedral he saw, as on godparent of the way, went the group a japanese with guidebook in hand. On each stop they, exactly small herd, thronged around guide, came short only sheep dogs to bite lagging behind for legs. But they did not lag behind, they attentively listened the serious girl, which on âîðêóþùåì ïòè÷üåì language told about outlandish event, happened to this masochist, son of the angry West God. This has reminded him of own trip in CHiangmay, on north Tailanda, where he here is in the same way helpless, with book in hand, strolled from temple to temple. The Books do not tell lies, and he tried çàïå÷àòëåòü deeply in brain facts, date, architectral styles, but piercing feeling of weekness did not leave since he was not capable to see, why one building much ancient another, did not know how to read these signs, but finally therefore that is given birth not òàéöåì and the most fine nuances, just and adding whole special aroma, will remain from it ñîêðûòû since all this - simply! - not him(it). Even in Lima, in colonial cathedral, him was an óþòíåå, than there, and he has solved to consider all this brilliant äåêîðîì, which cost(stand)s to admire, but also only. Beside person not thousand of lifes, but the whole only one. The Voice beside spoke that Cancer IX was a receiving son Cancer VII and where more great êåðàìèñòîì, than his(its) brother, Cancer VIII, but Inni long ago already did not listen. He watched, as Rizenkamp conducted the japanese and ãëÿäåë to him after VWXbe drafty âèòðàæè locked door. Beside bridge group, æåñòèêóëèðóÿ, stopped on bright sun - exactly dolls of the theatre âàÿíã (36). Afterwards one of the cockle was turned, again became the person and moved to shop. Rizenkamp quickly retired in office and left, when campanula long ago îòçâåíåë. On ñåé once negotiations were short. The Voice near by Inni, just commenced tale about tea ceremony, çàïíóëñÿ since unequal pair - an antiquary and his(its) client, âåëèêàí and dwarves, - äâèíóëàñü to shop window with cup. On their person was well familiar Inni expression, which could mean only one: they reached the consents although and pursued straight to cross purposes. Now each something will get: japanese - a cup, antiquary - a money. Education moderated greed, most certainly eaten both. The most Further procedure most of all resemble(go)ed on ñâÿùåííîäåéñòâèå. The Small key Rizenkamp, exactly äàðîõðàíèòåëüíèöó, îòïåð shop window. Will Presently occur something terrible, has thought Inni. Such cup with impunity to carry away it is impossible. He saw, as dark complexion of the neighbour has turned grey. The Dark eye watched, as greater white hands of the antiquary have embraced the cup and have taken her(it) out of shop window. Inni has thought was that here is presently neighbour anything will say, however turned white ñòèñíóòûå lip were not opened - not person, but japanese mask. But that she expressed? Evident hate and together with that weakness, caused by boundless bitterness. He already not capable to grieve about folk, has thought Inni, the whole his(its) bitterness ñîñðåäîòî÷èëàñü on this black cup. The Japanese has taken her(it) in hands. They where more her under become. Afterwards he carefully has put(deliver)ed her(it), bowed, quickly, with some hissing sound has taken the air and low pronounce something long and on-ïòè÷üè âîðêóþùåå. Only now Inni has seen the cup in the whole beauty. It Is Woke;waked gray Milky Way stretched among deep mirk of the black internal surface strip slightly more light uneven point. Who äåðçíåò to drink from this cups? The Point lamp that hunged straight on them, was reflected in äîíûøêå, but why-that seemed, is woke;waked cup does not want to return this sent by her yellow light, but tenacious keeps him(it) in depth of the black ground, from which her(its) âûëåïèëè. In the second once for present day Inni was recalled ground, where he has buried the dove, and now in this bright day entered the trouble - a trouble, which was than-that is connected with still persons near it, with not more dazed glance japanese-buyer and with all silent, çàìêíóòûìè subject around. - Alas, mister Taads, - has suddenly said the antiquary, - an ñîæàëåþ, but nothing will not do. The rules of the game (the Rules of the play (the angel.)). However, you not worse I know that cup cancer on light mnogo. - a Gesture he has invited the japanese in office. That has taken the cup and slowly, will solemnly go away. - Taads, - has said Inni. - I çíàâàë the person with such surname. Only he... Inni sedge. Will Not say after all: "Only he was white". This Taads looked at it silently, intently. - I have no relative, - has finally ed on. - Other Taadsov I do not know. Single, who I knew, was my father, but his(its) no above-ground. In due course he has written the book about mountain. I, truth, did not read. - Arnold Taads? - Yes, he my father. But for it this little that signified. Leaves, you his(its) knew? - Yes. - He spoke on me? My name - Philip. - No, he nor reek did not mention that he has a son. And that he was be married. - N-da, was. Vognal my mother in casket. Threw her(it), when I was else quite small, and disappeared for ever. Hard, selfish person, as I understand. My mother he bring from Indonesia. About this he most certainly after all did not tell. bring From there my mother and ïàðîíã. With ïàðîíãîì he did not part. Philip Taads was unscrewed, as if showing that personally for it given subject exhausted, and has rushed the look at started place, where earlier stood the cup. - First ðàçáàçàðèëè all, but now vykupayut. - He has said this with such bitterness that on wink voice has forfeited medlitelinosti. - Idemte thence. - You wanted to buy this cup? - Yes. But I have no money. To buy her(it), happened to long years to spare. New Taads, came in his(its) life, moved to door. Inni has followed him. Well here is, has thought he, again I go for Taadsom. Only in a certain time he has recalled that did not bid farewell with antiquary and has forgotten beside it its engraving. The Image to everyday life. - Do Not want to drink? - has asked Inni. - Tolerate can not kafe. - And little waiting: - You even so must tell, what my father was for you. - A long history. - If you not against, possible go to me. I live in Peyp. Here not far. - Agree. They went by State museum, which sparkled under their own high roof, exactly brick small box or case with treasure, and çàøàãàëè on Reysdalkade along çûáêîé sparkling water. The Ducks and sea gulls, quacking and horselaugh. 4 The Universe Philip Taadsa was so ñâîåîáû÷íà, either as the universe his(its) father. On approach to her you even and did not guess, where get, and contrast with desolation Peyp, which already in that years (foreshadowing that later whole city will forfeit its briliance), is woke;waked voracious mildew, corroded the old-time streets, - this contrast literally stunned. Right behind for low persons, who, exactly as his(its) father, did not watch on sides and was not looked over, Inni, ëàâèðóÿ between rusty car frame, spiteful ïîáëåñêèâàþùèìè rubbish bag and parked in two rows cargo van, mellowed before solitary unpainted door. For she was opened stairway, steep and darkenning - an upper ñòóïåíåê from below was not to discern. Inni could not get rid of impressions that he pilgrim, setted foot on way of the confession, which was wholly connected with Arnoldom Taadsom and his(its) own past and had not nor the most slightest relation hereto wiry ìîë÷óíó with person sunk in itself east monk. Indoors, where they found oneself, was very light and at first thought absolutely emptily. The Whiteness around - here, âäàëè from the world, you was as if found amongst áåçëþäíîãî and cool mountain landscape or, better say, back into priory, in mountain high. Anyway, about Netherlands here nothing do not remind. Little-by-little in emptiness have begun to ooze the subjects. Several hanging white screens, for which nothing be not seen, low wooden bed, nigh only plank bed, coverring ïðîñòûíåé and that's why similar sooner on catafalque. And this Taads obviously veins lonesome, beside it was not even dogs, which could disorganize and break the silence. Hardly perceptible plowed the incense. Philip Taads has pointed to pillow in the middle rooms and itself in east pose settled down opposite, on the other pillow. Inni awkwardly ïëþõíóëñÿ on pillow, has tried was take the least bit east pose, but finally took seats ïîëóëåæà, having undersetted head by hand, as if pasha, - later he, to its pleasure, will hear that in such pose ñèæèâàë and Prosvetlennyy. This Taads too ãëÿäåë severely, but Inni has haved time to to, and Taadsy, dead, alive, were him not terrible. The Father and sons. Philip Taads nothing do not speak, only was mildly rocked slightly in rhythm of the silent monotonous prayer, and Inni could give the will its thought. In one this son was, on the whole visibility, does not look like father - a striking of a clock no çðèìûõ change will not bring. Became to be, time here did not matter. Inni has asked itself that he now feels. Something like stodgy repulsion, probably, better will not say. There is belongings, which it is impossible repeat, and this ìåäèòèðóþùèé east person must not çàñëîíÿòü memory about its father. As strange that memory for us single valuable äîñòîÿíèå, thought Inni. One, her(its) âîðîøèò, is considered by invader. Now he have to come down in depths past, but what good, else and revise him(it). The Aunt, Petra, dog - were opened all and every sort and kind of door, which better remain on lock. There all rested upon their own places, and this was wholly it is enough. The Refusal of new recollection - an integral part of the senior age. - A Father despised me, - has said Philip Taads. - He after all most certainly plainly did not know you. - He did not want me to know. Could Not stand that leave the trace on the ground. Presently-that I bad-poorly capable this understand, but in the childhood me was much bitterly. He in general did not want me to see. Rejected my existence. Even so tell, what you his(its) knew. Inni has told. - About you he took care better, than on me. - A Money were not his(its) own. He did not happen to specifically to tighten. - Similars, you loved him(it). - A truth. Really? Earlier he considered that to Arnoldu Taadsu such categories íåïðèëîæèìû, saw in him phenomena of the nature, äàííîñòü, which simply exists. And his(its) irritated that now it is necessary back number to give the estimation. Meaningless meeting - all this he already äîâåëîñü to feel, or no, not he, but another, which he was very long ago, has felt this and announced him. This Taads too ÷îêíóòûé, and his(its) too waits the bad end. - You long veins in Asia? - has asked he. - Forgive? - Here all... reminds Japan. - I in general did not can be in Japan. Present Japan vulgar. It Is Poisoned poison. I only çàãóáèë its daydream. The Daydream. Ishi you. This Taads did not be afraid the loud words. But, possible, this âïðàâäó daydream. The Certificate that whole situation. The Room, which will most certainly disappear as soon as will open the eye; the words, which slowly dropped this monastic type of the person; the dark eye, which íåîòðûâíî looked at it, is woke;waked otherwise he could fall. Why father produce the sons? Beside this no nor short, fragmentary phrases, nor medals, achieved by speed lowering with snow-clad declivity, beside it all this turned the slowness and emptiness, and however here, undoubtedly, ditto solitude, ditto renunciation. - Tea will drink? - With pleasure. When master by noiseless shade to disappeared for screen, Inni îáëåã÷åííî âçäîõíóë, has got up and hardly not on tiptoe ïðîøåëñÿ on room, where as if arose out of nonexistence new and new subjects. But can, books and postcards soundless and nondescript were in room while they talked, and in the same way inaudible and invisible have occupied their own place on sex near plinth? The Riddle, not more strange, than scenes on postcard themselves. The Neat even surface from small gravel, but on her, as it were on ïîðîñøåì the ìõîì an isle - nowhere near not in the middle, - three èññå÷åííûõ by bad weather stone to value miscellaneous. He ïðèïîìíèë that met such photographies in book about Japan - only on-persisting did not consider. Standing up on knee, on sex, he âãëÿäûâàëñÿ in mysterious picture, which inconceivable image was reflected in room, as if and bed here was not furniture for VWVappear in the dreams, but than-that like these stone, capable to express all that çàáëàãîðàññóäèòñÿ. Properly speaking, thought Inni, this room, is either as gravel platform with three stones, completely reveals its person, when in her nobody no, including occupant, and when nobody on she does not watch. This gravel and stone, this garden, or as there his(its) name, could exist in accuracy as the Universe, itself, without æèëüöîâ and spectators. He ïîåæèëñÿ and placed the postcard on place, but room as before did not release him(it). On the other postcard were persisting gardens, with persisting, let ïîäñòðèæåííûìè and carried to impossible geometric forms bush, which perfection inspired the terror, with lawn, is woke;waked by âûëèçàííûìè language, with áàãðÿíûìè, as it were èçâàÿííûìè by sculptor, autumn tree. The Autumn! Uzh this-that word must cause although some presentation about time. But exactly time for photography absolutely was absent. In days transition thence, in the other corner of the room, lay the book with japanese hieroglyphic and portrait of the oldster on cover. When Inni has taken her(it) in hands, entered the master. - Kavabata (37), - has said he, - a japanese writer. - A-a. Inni was supervised to portrait, to scene of the oldster. All are zh òàêè who this - a youthful oldster or old-looking young person? Neobychayno high forehead, ñåðåáðèñòàÿ wave çà÷åñàííûõ back hair. The Frail body is enfolded in dark traditional raiment. The having Turned the pages of book right to left, he has newly seen same person, now in full growing already; see, he delivered the Nobel prize since he stood face to face with old swedish king, which, applauding, stretched their own fine senile hands far onward and upwards - so enlightened ñåâåðÿíå express sincere âîîäóøåâëåíèå. Since writer çàñíÿëè in profile, was particularly is well seen, as infinitely small and graceful his(its) figure. In white carrying and strange sandal he stood, having bent in bow and firmly compressing subject, which he has right before delivered. Over long green cloths on him was blackenning cape before knees. Inni did not know, kimono this or no. He again dashed in eye that line hair is located much on this small high, turned inside itself person. On foregrounds and as it were adown, after all he stood on rise, thronged the princes and princesses, and broad their person expressed that for the best to name the afraid form confusion. Philip Taads once again fitted on sex. Yes-yes, exactly fitted, only so and possible describe the strange way, what his(its) body formed fifty-fifty and calm, vertical motion was lowered downwards, at the same time noiseless having put(deliver)ed on mat ëàêîâûé tray with two cups of green tea. The Master of the saws tea. Inni VWXbe drafty lashes ãëÿäåë on it. This person too was locked, but here blinds have lowered not Orient. He dealt with essence, which lived âñåöåëî inwardly itself. ZHutkovato - such person in this room. In vain he here came. Both silently sipped tea. - Than you concern with? - has finally asked Inni. When people sit on pillow friend against friend, "you" it is necessary to forget. In addition they, probably, persons of the same age. - You bear in mind, than I earn on life? - In voice was drafty the reproach. - Yes. - serve In trade office. The Foreign correspondence, three days at week. The Spanish letter. They think, I ÷îêíóòûé, but across road do not become since work I well. Spanish. Inni ãëÿíóë to him in person, but has not found that that searched for. YAvanskie êðåñòüÿíå have displaced the memory about Arnolde Taadse, additionally Philip shaved the head, as monk so all the least bit raised on his(its) person appeared double brighter. One, raves the head, remove the retouching, reported by head of hair; the noses, ðòû, emotions - all are mercilessly emphasized. But on behalf of this Taadsa all were on lock. - One live? - Yes. - Well and as? - At all. For these several days earn it is enough to live. But live I here. - You always here? - Yes. - Stabilitas loci (the Constancy of the place (the armor.)). - Has Not understood. - Stabilitas loci, one of the main canon contemplative order. The Persons remains in that place, where has entered in the order. - Hm. Not so uzh and foolishly. Why you about this has thought? - Here there is something from priory. - And on-òâîåìó, this funny? - Yes net. - Uncomfortable, has thought Inni, but aloud has not said. - Vovne, - a word was pronounced with contempt, - me to search for the íå÷åãî. - But here? - Itself. Inni inaudible çàñòîíàë. Semidesyatye years. Else and door Cerkvi for itself has not shuttered, but already creep the beggar to barefoot leg any ãóðó and ñâàìè. Finally-that remained one in beautiful empty Vselennoy, which races on its homemade rail as train without machinist, but èçî all windows already desperately call on help. - I ãîòîâëþñü, - has said Philip Taads. - To that? - To izbavleniyu. - Nor seconds of the delay. "Daydream". "Deliverance". For the first time Inni has asked itself: can, this person opposite it simply mad? But that watched so, is woke;waked for people, which and hour not introduce;make familiar with, absolutely naturally speak to each other like belongings, and, probably, he rights. Finally he Taads, but Taadsy - here Inni knew that speaks, - with lightness handled the word, what other people preferred to avoid. They are a veins in metre on the ground, where these word were in its poetries. Can, they and fly knew how. - A Deliverance - a notion catholic, - has said Inni. - I invest other sense in it. Beside roman catholic you save near. Mozheshi to join to deliverance, but me this nothing do not speak. I save;get rid of itself. - Why? - First, from the world. Fortunately, this quite not difficult. But afterwards from itself. - Why? - A Life I disturb. She spare. - Then you it is necessary to make the suicide. A Certain time Taads kept quiet. Afterwards has quietly said: - I want to be through with thing, which there is ya. - A Thing? Inni ãëîòíóë of tea, taste his(its) was an ãëóáîê and hutch. Seemed, silence in room thickens since each minute. - Me loathsome thing, which there is ya. How much escaped time thereafter, as he heard from Arnolda Taadsa: "I to itself loathsome"? Undoubtedly, by means of women(woman) this thought has alterred by sawing from father to son. He became too much to be in this room. - I here nor with whom about this not dialect, - has said Philip Taads. He obviously complained, but comforter was already outside of dosyagaemosti. - an Unpleasant, probably that I shall molest you with their own problem? Arnoldu Taadsu such even in head did not come. Even so difference there is. - No, - mechanical has answered Inni. He for the first time talked with thing and felt itself so, has as if caught íåèñòðåáèìóþ infect. Has Put(deliver)ed chashku. - Me time. Philip Taads nothing have not said, but has got up, again one motion, what the bamboo stalk straighnens up, which have bent to the ground. Anyway, he in perfection âëàäååò that thing, which there is he, not without envy has thought Inni and by a narrow margin rose on legs. - I bore in mind, absolutely unbearably that for existence it is necessary without fall to have a body, - has said Taads. All roman catholic, has thought Inni. Nonnumerical, contagious body as obstacle on way to deliverance, but has not haved time to he open the mouth, as Philip Taads has suddenly asked: - That for person was my father? "Person who had committed suicide", - wanted to say Inni, but truth this? Eventually Arnold Taads has confused the issue and has elected the roundabout way to sought íåñ÷àñòüþ. There is no need else and this loads on. He and so already sufferred greatly from heritage. The Excess and lack father. Fu! The Psychology. - He was a person ñâîåîáû÷íûé, veins by own life. In my opinion, he was much îäèíîê, only itself he no way in this did not confess. He much for I have done, but not from humane impetuses. He did not love the people, so he, at least once, spoke. - In such event us have-òàêè something total, - has said Philip Taads. With satisfaction. They will go to door, but, not getting to it, Philip Taads stopped beside wall, which utter surface seemed before that times, has opened the closet and has got the english a book pocket format. - Kavabata, - has said he, - it is enough to read the second tale, "Thousand of cranes". What will read, îòîøëè to me, but if want, bring;enter itself. On output and on monday and tuesday I always building. The Door for him was noiseless closed. Well, now sooner downwards, one gigantic jump, on wing exactly, - only find oneself on street, get free from óçèëèùà, where person tore apart themselves although and named this deliverance! 5 The Day has meantime haved time to ïîäëàäèòüñÿ to his(its) changed to mood. The Streets have delayed the haze, and city as it were ïðèóíûë. The Passer-by as before were in year charge, but opaque already light shrouded their year figures light melancholic person. As usually in that events, when natural phenomenon, seemed, took the top on workaday contour of things in city, Inni came on wit that this city here in general to be not as one should, after all haze had not nor the most slightest relation to machine and house, present her(its) place - on ample lawn ïîëüäåðîâ. This thoughts always accompanied the awe, èáî so is shaken reality. He did not love to notice, insofar all frail. Philip Taads while that will not release him(it). Twice he has brought the death in this solar day - a word, which pronounce aloud, and that that has caused from formless past memory about its father. "Vintropy flatly refuse to suffer", - has said no time Arnold Taads, but this was not yet all. That Vintrop, what was he itself, refused not only to suffer, but also touch with someone else suffering. He has transformed its áûòèå in unceasing motion, on experience knowing that if required so easier whole slip away from others, but finally and from itself. Inni went aside Veyzelstraat. Because of Monetnoy towers, which as it were was a little rocked slightly amongst ardent heat, thrillinged in ìãëèñòîì air, approached the storm front. Not far away from garden Veteringplantsun before his(its) rumour äîíåññÿ the loud rhythmic rining of bells and çàóíûâíîå, solid chant. The Group áðèòîãîëîâûõ êðèøíàèòîâ in orange cloth, sing and ãðåìÿ êîëîêîëüöàìè, strode on zebra through street. Waving hand and persistently hide from passer-by ãðóáîâàòûå white persons, moved they him toward. As always, he ed. It is impossible so shameless to return itself on arbitrariness of the system. That, about than he thought some half an hour back, now returned, and with multiplied by power: people did not know how to be on light alone. Have Not haved time to to bury the long-suffering God jude and õðèñòèàí and already newly go on street with red flag or in orange õëàìèäàõ. Similars, ñðåäíåâåêîâüþ end not will. He has thought about Taadse: as easy that with his(its) east look was inserted in this company. But this was wrongly, Philip Taads sent its single cult - if possible name his(its) so - in solitude of the homemade priory. The Hermit in deserts Peyp. Inni has recalled, as once upon a time with the other-writer visitted in áåíåäèêòèíñêîì priory in Osterhaute. The Writer, and in general-that not big ãîâîðóí, not one hour was looked over on sides, but has in total asked the old monk: "Really you never wanted óéòè thence?" The Oldster not a bit did not wonder to question and has immediately answered: "Last such desire was beside me at twenty ninth years, when here did not work heating". They from showers laughed a little, but then monk has in turn asked the writer: "But you? Our priory in all probability not first, where you visitted. And you never wanted to come here?" And on ñåé once answer was extraordinary forgive;pardon, Inni has remembered him(it) lifelong. "My priory - whole world", - has said the writer, and now already monk laughed a little and noticed that him this wholly understandable. "My priory - whole world", but Taads has transformed in priory most itself moreover, on his(its) own wordses, with single purpose äîìåäèòèðîâàòü before death, but with east teachings this not too âÿæåòñÿ. As soon as begin æåðòâîïðèíîøåíèÿ, we newly get on Calvary, and this Taads, is seen, too not capable to find the deliverance without murder - at least and myself. - A Nonsence, loud phrases, - has ed Inni, - one, promises to do such, never this does not do... - But presently and this seemed doubtful. It Is Woke;waked obeying invisible leash, he has rolled up with Veteringdvarsstraat on Spihelgraht. And, having found oneself there, has thought, what is wrong: his(its) engraving remained beside Rizenkampa. The Second once per diem he setted foot in holy silence of the antique shop. Buddy sat all in the same pose, nobody and nothing have not alarmed their eternal meditation. - A-a, mister Vintrop, - has said the antiquary, - I just was going to to ring our friend Roozenboomu, but here you came themselves. Did Not know that you introduce;make familiar with with mister Taadsom. - I knew his(its) father. - Here is kak. - Neblagovospitanno having lingered: - He was from Indonesia? - No. From Tvente (38). - Aha, then, signifies, mother. N-da, strange person, very strange. Beside me with him hard cajolery - I without fall warn him(it), when I have solid ÷àâàí. - CHavan! - A Tearoom cup. More exactly, only cancer. Not sienna, not îðèãý though and amongst they meet the best copies. No, only cancer, and nothing other, but for the best work Son'yu, that áèøü the Cancer Sixth. You after all know... the great master, whether potters or actors of the theatre êàáóêè if possible so be expressed, work the dynasty. - Taads I have enlightened. - Yes-yes. The Difficulty in that that best cups authentic master known by name. Here is see, - he has turned the pages of book, which so and rested upon table, - ed several çíàìåíèòûõ cup of the work Son'yu.. The Comets, terrapin, that áèøü the black cancer... then êóðóìà, vehicle... the luxurious copy, red cancer... on my glance, most krasivyy.., Sigure, autumn drizzling rain... too red... and all this âåùèöàì simply price no if their in general will someday expose on sale. That before Taadsa, that me wanted to find for it less çíàìåíèòóþ cup one of these master... though time against it. The Connoisseur and passionate collectors are crowded one, invests the money. I offered the consent since completely him entrust. But he nor in what. "Does Not fall into my plans". Became to be, come to wait. The Incoms beside it, in my opinion, not brilliant. Faithfully? - A Notions have not. As you with he got acquainted? - Are Not dared. Through yoga. The Yoga. Really, it is difficult to visualize this high, well-fed figure in pose of the yoga. - In newspaper have printed the more original announcement, and we both on he îòêëèêíóëèñü. Taads then raged äçýí-buddhism and was aware of such thing much more me. YA-to thought sooner plebeian term - a physical exercises, rest and miscellaneous. Without focus. Anyway, me this has not seized. The Teacher, with my êàëüâèíèñòñêîé standpoint, was a person ñâîåîáðàçíûé, like Taadsa, þæíîàìåðèêàíñêèé jew with small admixture indian shelters. Very powerful. The Antiquary as it is woke;waked has suppressed unwitting tremor. On person slid the shade, which, certainly, has run and on white tele under expensive ïîëîñàòûì by suit. - A Yoga, good yoga, piece costing. This person, thank god, no metaphysical discourses itself did not allow. Simply sat, such saint during Terrible court, and much slowly, commanding talked with us. Velel to tense and weaken the partial miscellaneous of the body, taught, as their forget, more not to feel. They then as if disappeared. At first I was in delight. Felt the enormous pleasure. But here is on Taadsa this acted absolutely on-other. After one of the session with he happened horrible hysterics, he so sobbed, is woke;waked else little - and his(its) âûâåðíåò inside out. Some other time beside he has reduced the crick of the hand moreover for a long time. Be can, I in vain you this dialect, but I came to terror. If on it this acts so, thought I that then will be with me? You Know, in a certain time little-by-little begin to guess that already not in power to think itself the most further life without yoga... but if will continue - a life to come completely to change, other person, on measure of the possibility anyway. I bear in mind to become the adherent of the certain school, not without fall most have an ôèëîñîôèåé, but in the course of occupation your essence is gradually changed, here is such I had an impression... you are changed, otherwise look at the world... here not simply atheletics. N-da, after all your position in the world - and there is you. With me is exactly so... finally as merchant, representative to professions, which so often is undeservedly scolded, I have to work in real world. And I began be assigned by question, will not bring me all this more harm, than profits. I after all long ago to itself ïðèíîðîâèëñÿ. But here, present, drink beside Hoppe ñòàêàí÷èê beer already became to seem me vulgar, and this else the most harmless example. To be short: this deal required more, than I had or got ready return, and in total I his(its) brosil. - Rizenkamp has conducted the hand on eye and continued: - Sit the day-äåíüñêîé in encirclement high art, let and is connected with him somehow èçâðàùåííî. The Word, I did not become to risk. Has Explained the teacher, and he has understood me. Has Told that itself twice threw since was afraid to lose itself. So he was expressed. Probably, he bore in mind something another, after all if concern with professional, this penetrates much deeply, - an antiquary again ïîåæèëñÿ, - but as it were there nor was, he has said that understands. Taads did not throw. Continues he hitherto, I do not know, possible, advanced now in the same way far, as our teacher. I never with him about this not dialect - an overalls that. In my opinion, he from one, calls at much far, and has most certainly subordinated this deal whole its life. He keeps and keeps the tension - here is that me much strange. In cafe his(its) never see, about woman he and did not hear, and single once, when he beside me on eye with someone talked, this today, with you. Well but cups - after all they, certainly, too play here determined role, - a cups are bound again-òàêè with tea ceremony, but signifies, and with äçýí. Our friend lives in its own Japan. As you consider? - Me this little that speaks, - has said Inni. - Elected far eastern wisdoms sell the wretch west burgher. But, probably, better this, than heroin. The Answer not brilliant, has thought he, but ñåé subject his(its) did not interest, âåðíåå, he did not want to have a relations to him. - A Strange deal, - Rizenkamp, see, has considered for the best to continue their own discourses, - much a great deal from that that people ïðîïîâåäóþò and tell (I hitherto try to be in rate), the most net rubbish, this concerns both somes theory on cause of the yoga, and physical aspect to meditations, but results occasionly all be obviously benefical. - Either as results åëåîñâÿùåíèÿ, - with annoyance has said Inni, however, here êàëüâèíèñòû in turn nothing do not understand. Rizenkamp kept quiet. The Tree for window bent under frantic blow øêâàëüíîãî winds. Presently õëûíåò rain, but he without çîíòà. The Day became all òÿæåëåå. The Girl, dead dove, spectre from lower world, east original, homilies, but now here is sudden metamorphosis of the year day, which very unpleasant has reminded of autumn though in general-that sad this time must approach else íåñêîðî. The Antiquary has not noticed his(its) impatiences. - See, Taads gave you its loved book, - has said he, - I her(its) know, is splendid written. The Event and much, and, little, the most fine tone, small shifts with dramatic consequence. If who and was able splendid âïëåñòè in narrative tea ceremony, so this certainly Kavabata. The Big rarity that thing became the main by personage of the literary product. To terror Inni, he has again got from closet book. - I shall only show you one illustration that you knew, what the sienna looks. The Visual image will help you better to understand the book. The White hands turned the pages of the pages. That forms mystery a cup or if it is pleased, cup? The Overwinded skull, which nothing more do not close and îáðàùåíû not to the ground, but to the sky; their possible than-íèáóäü fill, but only than-íèáóäü such that goes overhand, from âûøíåãî of the world sun, moon, god and stars. They can be immediately and empty, and full that itself already mysterious though characteristic and plastic glass. Became to be, here has importance and material. The Gold of the cup gives birth the belief about shelters or blame, but ãëÿäÿ on cups sienna, he even think could not to from these sulphur and whitish container, entered light-purple daub, possible was drink something except exquisite, bitter green drink, what his(its) most recently treated Philip Taads. If b Christ was born in China or in Japan, now on all five continents in blood ïðåñóùåñòâëÿëñÿ tea. However in tea ceremony, as he has understood, important not as much tea as that, as his(its) ïüþò. Eventually form to ceremonies, probably, leads to spiritual cognition, which indicates the way to secret garden mystics. No, mankind all unique race, after all, as it were there nor was, he certainly needs some subjects, ðóêîòâîðíûå belongings, which ostensibly relieve transition in misty âûøíèå of the sphere. On street çàãóäåëè êëàêñîíû cars. Sometime, the cargo van delayed motion, and mankind, most recently graceful jump äîñòèãøåå Moon, expressed its discontent frantic îáåçüÿíüèìè wail - as orangutang, which remained without banana. - Little who knows, - has noticed Rizenkamp, - but in a thousand four hundred eightieth years one witch cursed this place and has said that Amsterdam ñãèíåò in chaos and devilish shume. - He has placed the hand on impervious mask Buddy. - Be can, cheating is rooted in in that that such here is person and all their utterances could appear only in the world without noise. - He was silent, giving Inni possibility properly to listen the growing âîé a group of ten êëàêñîíîâ, and has having continued: - Present, what íåâîîáðàçèìàÿ silence reigned all over, when potentates thereof world, - he vague gesture has dribbled the combat order ìåäèòèðóþùèõ asians around, - gestated and proclaimed their own ideas? Now here is other will arouse through these ideas to return back, to that, about than no time went the speech, and face with ensemble obstacle on its way, which, speak, wound in gap safe crowd east ascetic. The World, whence these ascetics so tried to delete, for us was èäèëëèåé. We-that lives in hell, and after all got accustomed to nemu. - He took a look at their own kartiny. - We become other people. We Look as earlier, but inwardly quite others. Otherwise programmed. Beside who did not disappear else hunt to become such, that must store the solid portion of the madness to although somehow here bear. On us hopes no. Has Finally spouted the rain, the present rainstorm. Dripped the çàøëåïàëè on brilliant roof of the cars, which as well as did not cease to beep. Several lonely bicyclists, having bended down to meat loaf, maneuvered under flow äîæäÿ amongst ðåâóùèõ machines. - Know, - has said Rizenkamp, - sometimes I think, we have deserved the paradise already only that that live in this time. After all around utter discord. The Time to him to throw this piece. You Present, what exciting silence íàñòàíåò afterwards. 6 When this in the night Inni Vintropu for the first time appeared in the dreams second Taads, him second once in lifes appeared in the dreams and the first. The Dream was unpleasant. Taadsy talked between itself, but while awake contents of their talk already did not matter. Unpleasant was their type itself. Hasty hate against hate slow; tractile, but that suddenly hasty dialogue two dead persons. After all both Taadsa, beyond all doubt, were found in some place, where their could not see nobody, except person with closed eye, worrisome ñíîâèäöà, which wipes the perspiration with person, awakes, goes to ðàñïàõíóòîìó window and ãëÿäèò in turn black quiet of the street. Snovidcu terribly. From the other open window äîíåññÿ striking of a clock - four mornings. Blindly he returned to beds, has included the light. On pillow, ïîëóîòêðûòàÿ, lay the book Kavabaty, wreathing from the most fine words, awesome web, in which were caughted people, but commanded them tea cups - a cups that kept the spirit former its owner and deleted or, as in this tales, were deleted. Four mornings. He did not know, cost(stand)s again lie. The Sleeping pill to take ïîçäíîâàòî, but risk that guards kindom dead Arnold and Philip Taadsy second once for night are to him, was too great. Why this dream so his(its) has frightened? Nobody he did not threaten, but in question, he has not understood. However, possible, all this is because he simply did not exist. And only in this wink before he äîøëî that Philip Taads not at all moderate;temper, but reaped. If reaped. Inni has got up, was dressed. Gray ðàññâåòíûé semidarkness quietly âûïîëçàë from sidewalk, sailled along sewer, extended from all-embracing cover of the nights of the outline of the houses and tree. Where? He has solved to repeat the yesterday's walk. Nothing irreparable has not occurred, city ñáåðåã all these place. Where, the first dove slammed into in car, Inni stopped. The Dove did not haemorrhage, no trace is not seen. Further he will go so, as yesterday went on bicycle. The imaginative girl sat On luggage rack of the imaginative bicycle. Probably, here is in the same way will, when on-persisting age, - a city, full imaginative houses and womans, rooms and girl. The Bridge near parka was now simply street, he passed on the second dove, which has most certainly rescued adown, underfoot. The Park was open. The Humid scent of the ground. He has searched for the place, where they çàêîïàëè the dove, but has not found. The Ground else wet from äîæäÿ. Amongst ñîòåí ëóæèö-trace most certainly there is and her(its) traces. And him(it) too. They have as if sunk. And house her(its) he find did not be able. The Darkness opened, but light did not become else day. Seemed, city too sleeps and sees the dream - a nightmareish dream of the past age, dream of the brick houses with blind window for shroud âèòðàæåé. In room with such window of the girl do not live, there he at all could not lie the past on beds in the morning, with wave gold(en) hair in palm. Yes and in general, live here people? On move he âñëóøèâàëñÿ in their own ãóëêèå, solitary steps and that's why instinctively went quicker. The Dusty creation of the third dove as before decorated the shop window Bendera, rain has not washed off him(it). Signifies, all this âïðàâäó happened. The Shop window Bernara locked beige shutter. ZHeltaya íåëåïèöà of the first tram has destroyed the magic charm, but all place were start;put. The Driver sat in booth as mannequin. On place of the cup cancer nothing do not stand, but Inni not even closing eye, don't care saw her(it), turn black, brilliant, awesome, - an âåñòíèöó to deaths. He has rung beside door Philip Taadsa, and he has immediately opened. 7 - I ñïëþ quite little, - has said Philip Taads. He sat on the same place, as yesterday, in smooth turn blue kimono. - a Dream - a nonsense. Strange, nothing not çíà÷àùåå absence. One of the person, who form you, reposes, rest áîäðñòâóþò. Than less in you person, that êðåï÷å you sleep. - Once you do not sleep that then do? - Sit here. Here - he most certainly bears in mind place, where âïðàâäó presently sits. - But do-that? Taads çàñìåÿëñÿ. - A Yoga concern with? - A Yoga, äçýí, give, meditation, êîíîìàìà - so much for only word. - A Meditation? About than? - An Unchancy question. I speculate nor about than. - With the same success could and sleep. - Then I see VWVappear in the dreams. À on them I not powerful. - VWVappear in the dreams Necessary. Taads has shrugged. - To whom? I they disturb. There are a miscellaneous people, which I did not call, and happen the events, which I do not want, And no need to forget, start;put these events and people not at all real... though I again-òàêè do not know that this means... but you their see, in its VWVappear in the dreams and their own eye... The Scientist conducted çàìåðû... òâîè eye move, keep a check on nonexistent people. I this unpleasant. - Today I appeared in the dreams your father, - has said Inni. - And you. - In my opinion, this too unpleasant, - has said Philip Taads. - I was here. Rather then beside you. That you appeared in the dreams? - You were destroy and spoke with each other hostile. I nor word have analysed. Taads was slowly rocked slightly. - If I dialect that speculate nor about than, - has finally ed he, - I do not bear in mind that speculate about Nothing. This nonsense. give Eternal, spontaneous, has a no name, his(its) it is impossible describe, he - begin whole and way, what all occur. He not-that. Inni did not know that to say. For back this ñîçåðöàòåëÿ in white his(its) priory he has suddenly seen old Taadsa, which raced on ski with enough whirlled snow declivity. - A Difficulty in that, - has said Philip Taads, - that thought here not in word. Dzen uses little words and much figurative examples. The Persons outside this seems the nonsense. The Mysticism always meaningless. Including christian, when she rises before heights áóääèéñêîé, as beside Maystera Ekharta (39). On Ekhartu, the God there is and existence, and íåñóùåñòâîâàíèå. What see, nothing always beside. The Buddhists name his(its) øóíüÿòà, pustota. - that expression appeared On person Taadsa, what can be beside people, when they are going to to bring the quoting, and he pronounce: - a Dialect to you that must God to be âñåöåëî "I", but "I" - âñåöåëî the God, and so âñåöåëî must be an unity that He and "I" unite ñóùíîñòíî and in this åäèíîñóùíîñòè âîâåêè by occupied one creation, however while He and "I" that is to say the God and soul, not essence united here and presently, "I" not capable to create with Him and be with Him united. - Edinosuschnosti? - Yes. - A Beautiful word. - Inni has once again tried him(it) on taste: - Edinosuschnosti. Taads as it is woke;waked unexpectedly was going to with spirit: - According to CHzhuan-öçû (40)... - CHzhuan as? - CHzhuan-öçû. So here is, on thoughts this äàîñà, all belongings are found able unceasing ñàìîòðàíñôîðìàöèè, each in one's own way. In eternal change belongings appear and disappear. That we call time, in general dug does not play. All belongings alike. Beside Inni in óøàõ sounded the voice a father: "I - a congener whole putting". These two persons, who never with each other did not talk, occasionly seemed on surprise similar, but idea about that that move of the thoughts can be sent on inheritance, as before caused the protest. What inheritance has left in him own his(its) vanished father? - But under than here God Ekharta? - A God - whole only word. - A-a. - A Reality and íåðåàëüíîñòü, - continued Philip Taads, - good and ill, life and death, love and hate, beauty and ugliness - all opposite there is, on essences, one and ditto. Now he poured Jesus in temple, has thought Inni. All him âåäîìî. If all one and ditto, that and try more there is no need. - But as real to live with this? Taads has not answered. In own âñåëåííîé by area fifty square metres, probably, and answer there is no need. Inni has covered the resistless desire to get up - and he has got up. I have rescued too little, has thought he. Standing up behind Taadsa - now this was not person, but enfolded in blue, ëåãîíüêî rocking slightly doll, which lower part disappeared in sex, - he has said: - I thought, all these teachings, or as their there name, are intended for achievement íåêîåé to harmonies with all put. And on my glance, òâîè yesterday's discourses go with this âðàçðåç. In care from life of no harmonies no. The Blue figure a little became soft. - Well so sense in these meditation? - Inni has noticed that has towered the voice and has spoken the tone of the public prosecutor from american television court: it is said, I got you there (You beside me on hook; ïîïàëñÿ (the angel.)). - Possible I shall try to explain? - Now voice Taadsa sounded submissively, but passed quite a few time, previously than he has having continued: - If you itself never speculated thereby, that my word can not be not shown you nonsense. With position ordinary çàïàäíèêà I sick, faithfully? The Persons, who on the strength of different reasons, origins, circumstance, yes in general whole became too much, and he speaks: I anymore want. So can be, I not single. Beside Orient I ïî÷åðïíóë the thought that my "I" nowhere near not unique. With his(its) disappearance will disappear quite little, but this not it is important. I disturb the world, but the world disturbs me. In that-that and harmony that I at once destroy;kill;èíô)delete their both. Umret clot circumstance, carried my name, and narrow, but in addition constantly changing consciousness concentrated around these circumstance. Quite well, in my opinion. Be afraid I became unaccustomed to. This already something, but on greater I not capable. In äçýí-áóääèéñêîì priory me, probably, have mercilessly beaten the stick for utter discord, but I him complacent. Reached by me negativly, I more do not be afraid, I can peacefully open, what opens in ocean vial poison. The Ocean this will not burden, but poison will throw the enormous burden, will cease to be a poison. - And the other output no? - I lack ëþáâè. He pronounce these word with such despair that on wink Inni wanted to place the hand on his(its) obstinate çàêîñíåëóþ head... It Was Recalled line that spanish, that þæíîàìåðèêàíñêîãî of the poet, which he has sometime read and has remembered for ever: "Person - a sad mammal, ãðåáíåì combing hairs". - Can, will sit? - A Voice sounded else ìåäëèòåëüíåå, than ever, and in he was drafty the rebuff. Inni disturbed the çäåøíåìó an ìèðîïîðÿäêó, çäåøíåìó too. He took a look at watch. - Again for you not in measure much, - has said Taads. - Beside Poppy âàí Sculpting aukcion. - a Laughable pretext. - Else early. You simply want óéòè. - Yes. - Think, I ÷îêíóòûé. - No. But me is choked. - Me too. À from what exactly you is choked? Inni nothing anymore has said, will go to door. On threshold he turned. Taads has closed the eye and sat absolutely still. Be I in cinema, very long ago has left, has thought Inni. He saw themselves beside door, weary, becoming bald, seedy mundane person, who goes on artistic auction and by chance dropped in at house madman. - I could and ïîäëàäèòüñÿ, - has said Taads. - In çäåøíåì world my èíäèâèäóàëüíîñòü so important that her permissible year by means of psychiatrist to sink in itself and in its absurd history to go again with all at the same time. But I do not keep an eye on sufficient importance in her. And afterwards, suicide more not disgrace. Earlier I have made him(it) from hate, but now already no. - From hate? - I hated the world. People, scents, dogs, legs, telephones, newspapers, voice - all caused the most deep repulsion beside me. I am all time was afraid that anyone will kill. The Suicide possible, when with its awe and aggression will avoid whole world and are again returned to itself. - It remains the aggression. - Not without fall. - Then what you wait. - A Fixed hour. Not yet pora. - He has said this friendly, is woke;waked addressed to child. - Again-òàêè whole only word. Taads burst out laughing, rocking slightly from sides aside, blue person-pendulum, which counted out time before that invisible while minute, when his(its) dial will melt and óòå÷åò there, where already no no numerals. He anymore looked at Inni and looked nearly lucky - an actor after show. The Public has slowly opened the door. The Street noise, so unappropriate in this premises, âîðâàëñÿ inside, but Taads and heads has not raised. The Door was closed with ñîñóùèì sound, exactly hardly not whole air rushed for Inni outward right behind, where áóéñòâîâàëà anarchistic liberty àìñòåðäàìñêîãî of the day. Before auction it is necessary to take the shower. To Taadsu he before time before time to go not one hundred no. 8 Inni did not know, was blame that his(its) catholic past, was only got all otherwise. Not too often, but regularly he, on own his(its) expression, made the pilgrimage in mountain priory. This gave him pleasing sensation constancy. Taads always was a building and about suicide anymore çàãîâàðèâàë so Inni began to think that solitary recluse has solved to combine the voluntary death with death natural. Semidesyatye years slowly rolled VWXbe drafty time, the world - is either as he itself, and city, where he veins, - as if slowly disintegrated. The People of the vein lonesome, but on evening desperately crowded in crowded old-time beer. In lady journal he subtracted that entered in male ìåíîïàóçó, and this splendid harmonized with fall of the stock priceses and with striking change on street Amsterdam, which for full happiness was cosily postponed all further in Africa and Asia. Inni too still veins one, much travelled, occasionly fell in love though and itself only with ïðåâåëèêèì labour perceived this in earnest, and continued to concern with the usual deals. The World, insofar he could see, neat êàïèòàëèñòè÷åñêèì ìàíåðîì moved to logical and already nowhere near not temporary end. When carrion dollar, gold rose in the price, when grew the rent, fell the market a vein, but on measure that what increased the number a bankruptcy, rose in the price rare books. In chaos was present the order, and who peered into both, in tree did not slam into, - a truth, in such event to was necessary else have a machine. Subsequent to áðèòîãîëîâûìè with êîëîêîëüöàìè on street now appeared the high white turbans, hairstyles ðàñòàôàðè (41) and Bozhii children (42): the end of the timeses was not for mountain, and he did not consider that this bad. The Flood must be not after you, in him necessary to participate. Renessansnyy drawing, suit from CHerutti, own cares and madrigal Dzhezualido (43) found on this background ðåëüåôíîñòü, what never had not in more calm timeses, - but prospect to see, as politicians, economists and state is disappeared on gigantic scramble, created their own hand, delivered him enormous pleasure. The Friends repeated over and over again that such position lightheaded, íèãèëèñòè÷íà and maleficent. He knew that this untruth, but did not argue. As he seemed, not in example majority others, neither newspapers, nor television, nor brining salvation teachings and ôèëîñîôèè have not forced his(its) come to believe that this world, "íåâçèðàÿ nor on that", wholly acceptance, simply since exists. Such world will not become never. Loved and wanted, can be, but acceptable - never. He has existed whole several thousand years, something irreparable has gone âêðèâü and âêîñü, and now it is necessary to try back. Faithfulness subject, people and itself most, which did not leave him(it) in workaday life, nothing here not moneychanger. A Certain time Universe wholly could dispense with people, things and Inni Vintropa. But, not in example Arnoldu and Philip Taadsam, he got ready peacefully wait. After all finally before that times can pass else thousand of years. He had an excellent place in visual common-room, but in play nightmare alternated with lyrics - a comedy error, touching, cruel and ribald. 9 Somehow once, in five years after the first meeting with Philip Taadsom, he has rung Rizenkamp. For these five years they too were repeatedly seen, and fairly often subject their talk was Taads. - A Mister Vintrop, - has said on telephone Rizenkamp, - think, time came. On auction beside Druo I have inexpensively gained something especial for our friend Taadsa though and distrust, on pocket him this. He will presently come to me to watch, can be, and you want to be present? - CHavan! - has asked Inni. He is its lesson çàòâåðäèë. - A Classical àêàðàêó. The Prodigy. - Go, - has said Inni. The Eternal repetition event. He went from Prinsengraht and with bridge, crossed Spihelgraht, has immediately seen Taadsa - a lonely figure under rain. The Enormous sadness has covered Inni, but he has solved in no event to show the type. As it were there nor was, they all ïîäîøëè to play-off this fool history. The Autumn wind drived on sidewalk tatter redhead and borax sheet, and seemed, is woke;waked Taads, in spite of rain, cost(stand)s in çûáêîì, movable flame. However, rain, flame - his(its) this did not touch. He stood exactly èçâàÿíèå, not reducing eye with cups in shop window. Inni became beside, but has not said nor word. The Cup was a colour ïàëûõ sheet, all ïàëûõ sheet at once, but briliance reminded candied ginger, sweet and bitter, sharp and soft, - a luxurious fire past. Broad, hardly not rough, she seemed not created by human hands, simply appeared in immemorial antiquity. From black cup winnowed the threat, in this nothing like was not and in mention, was not here and thoughts about that that belongings capable to exist, only if their see the people, - if for things possible nirvana, that this cup cancer was sunk in it many zones back. Inni guessed that Taads is timid to enter inside. Iskosa ãëÿíóë to him in person: else more east and closed, than ever, but in eye scaring fire. Conducting glance aside, Inni has seen the antiquary, which of shop looked at Taadsa, as Taads on cup, - exactly as on old-time drawing, explaining principle of the prospect, he could conduct the line from itself to Rizenkampu, from Rizenkampa to Taadsu and from Taadsa to cup. Someone be to destroy these magic charm. Inni ëåãîíüêî has touched Philip Taadsa for shoulder: - Let's call at. Taads has not looked at it, but will submissively go right behind. - Well, mister Taads, - has said Rizenkamp, - I after all not in the least have not exaggerated, faithfully? - Me wanted to take her(it) in hands. The Large figure of the antiquary bent over on shop window and infinitely carefully extracted from there cup. - That-ak, I ïîñòàâëþ her(it) on table, there the most profitable illumination. When cup âîäâîðèëàñü on table, Taads øàãíóë closer. Inni waited that he will take her(it) in hands, but before this was else far. Taads watched, something mumbled, îáîøåë around table so Inni and antiquary happened to to avoid. In him there is something and from huntsman, and from beast, on which goes the hunt, has thought Inni, he immediately and huntsman, and victim. Here is, even so stretches the hand. The Finger ëåãîíüêî concerned the medicine to be taken externally to surfaces and much slowly, is woke;waked to be afraid of to make the sacrilege, disappeared inwardly. Nobody did not utter nor word. Then Philip Taads has unexpectedly grasped the cup both hand and has raised upwards, as for participle. Podnes base to most eye and has opened the mouth, exactly being going to something say, but kept silent. And has carefully put(deliver)ed the cup on table. - Well so? - has asked Rizenkamp. - Think, Cancer Ninth. - Why? - Since cup rather light, - has said Taads. - Though for you this, certainly, not news. She not from number his(its) masterpiece, èáî, as far as i know, they all black. And stamp round, became to be, probably, this one of two hundred ÷àâàíîâ, which he created on mate the deaths first Cancer, CHodziro. He took a look at Rizenkampa - that hardly has noticeably noded. - CHodziro, - continued Taads, now more îáðàùàÿñü to Inni, - has adopted its art beside Rik'yu, the most great tea ãåíèÿ all timeses. See, colour of the cup was to shade the strange verdure of japanese tea... and regarding forms too act the laws, installed Rik'yu, - as cup lies in hand, propotion, sensation on lip, - he ïîäíåñ cup to ðòó with type of the person, trying footwear, - and, of course, the temperature: drink in cup must seem the hand not too hot and not too cool, in accuracy such, what his(its) want to drink... I have born the exam? - has unexpectedly added he. - All that you speak of origin, beside me here is zdesi. - Rizenkamp has waved konvertom. - You to follow to become the antiquary, you are shod a horse much better me. Taads has not answered. Has Embraced the cup narrow palm. - I want to have her(it), - has said he. Inni has understood that presently speech inevitable will go about money, and was unscrewed from these two. Taads with Rizenkampom disappeared in office. Not for long. When they left, person beside Taadsa was started, lost. He has got that wanted, thought Inni, on experience knowing that this not always pleasantly. Taads began to fold the cup in brought from office the most fine paper. And nothing do not speak. - For the sake of such solemn occassion I have placed in ìîðîçèëüíèê áóòûëî÷êó champaign, mister Taads, - has said Rizenkamp. - Much prettily with your sides, mister Rizenkamp, but from me today use little. However zh shall very pleased if you ðàçîïüåòå champaign two together. In a short time I ïðèãëàøó you to itself, drink tea from this cups. Hope, you both pridete. - He ceremonious with light bow has shaken each hand and disappeared. VWXbe drafty Glass of the shop window they saw, as he goes - an èíäîíåçèåö-passer-by with box. - Has Withdrewed its offspring, - has said Rizenkamp. - You know, I why-that quite not pleased. How much years he came here - and here is ñâåðøèëîñü, so quickly, inherently, even óíûëî, no, not on shower me this. Can, education guilty, but I feel itself Jude. - Jude? - Yes well, nonsence. But me will his(its) come short. - So he, probably, else çàãëÿíåò. - Hardly. All these years he wanted only one - and has got. Now him to want the íå÷åãî. At least once from me. - Apropos, about Jude... how much cost this cup? - A Numeral with four zeroes. He, as it is spoken, the whole life accumulated on it. And will bring the money with itself. - An Exact amount? He did not see the cups? Do Not know, was beside it something over this amounts, but îòñ÷èòàë he exactly as much as I have charged. Four zeroes, has thought Inni. From ten thousand before ninety. The Concrete price Rizenkamp does not speak, but question there is no need. Always find anyone, to whom known, for what money cup was sold beside Druo, rest not difficult to compute - and there is Iudina share. - I not to abandon to áîêàëü÷èêà champaign, - has said he. - Curiously enough, when us shall invite on tea ceremony, - has noticed Rizenkamp, having filled first bokal. - You as it is woke;waked already once in she participated? Inni has negativly swung the head. - Not so uzh it and in a complicated way, - has said the antiquary, - if remember that this means for japanese. Of course, all before extremity ðèòóàëèçèðîâàíî. - And very exhasting. Unless mistaken, it is necessary all time to sit on heel? - Finally about this forget. But for çàïàäíèêà pose, certainly, absurd. And hope, ñèÿ chalice, âåðíåå, cup us pass. Considering that he has studied all before nicety, our solitary friend. Inni thought about Taadse, which together with cup óåäèíèëñÿ in its âûñîêîãîðüå, and tried to visualize, about than he speculates, but unsuccessfully. 10 In week-other came the invitation. The Short note stated that Inni and Rizenkamp invited on tea and that if soon with their sides does not watch no notify, he waits them in such-that november saturday, which was given extremely íåíàñòíîé, with storm âåòðîì and hail, but even nature, seemed, was not powerful on possessions Philip Taadsa, èáî silence beside it on âåðõîòóðå more then successfully argued with âåòðîì, which fought in window. Something in room changed. Have Occurred some imperceptible movements, and if stare, premises from this became asymmetric. Kakemono with colour disappeared, but then instead of drawn were now alive flowerses, chrysanthemums, dark-mauve and çîëîòèñòàÿ - a paints autumn and ïðåäðîæäåñòâåíñêîé of the time. The Ceremony ñîñòîèòñÿ not in the middle rooms, but ïðàâåå, in the corner, where on small burner boilled the bronze teapot. On place êàêåìîíî with colour hunged now roll somewhat less, decorated calligraphic hieroglyphic. Glyadya on them, Inni has instinctively thought about nimble skier, çàïå÷àòëåííîì in dizzy lowering on snow declivity. Taads, left door ajar, obviously was sometime for screen. Rizenkamp has attentively looked at calligraphic roll, was afterwards lowered knee on mat before burner - there lay in readiness two small cushions. The Gesture he has offered Inni to follow his(its) example. - A Deal takes not to be taken lightly/turn, - has said Inni. - And long us so to sit? The Antiquary has not answered and has closed the eye. About if b presently anyone their has seen! Rizenkamp was on ñåé once in suit from èñ÷åðíà-sulphur to flannels. The Greater hands are peacefully extended on knee so from sleeve a little shown the cuffs, fastened rather large gold(en) cuff link in stiletto modernist style, with navy blue insertion polished ëàçóðèòà. The Same colour was repeated on silk tie, forming sharp contrast with áëåêëî-rose chemise. Dzhermin-ñòðèò, on eye has pretended Inni. But loafers from Eydzhi. In London much auction companies. Itself he on any event was vested in ample corduroy trousers and beige cashmere âîäîëàçêó, bathed in Berlinggonskom passage. Two àíãëè÷àí in Japan, expecting that will. Kolenopreklonennye! As was often brought him in lifes ïðåêëîíÿòü lap! On hard bench, on stone plate, on cool àëòàðíûõ step, on marble, on sewn gold(en) pillow, near beds in èíòåðíàòñêîì äîðòóàðå, in dark hutch èñïîâåäàëüíè, in the corner meal, when all sat at the table, but he was penalized. Before Immaculate Virgo, before Heart Hristovym, before Saint participle, before baptismal baptismal font and casket - always this broken pose, unnatural dog-leg of the body, sign óíèæåííîñòè and veneration. He was looked over. Where else see such - a men of the average years in êîëåíîïðåêëîíåííîé pose before burning burner in precipitated winter winds to mansard, in àìñòåðäàìñêîì quarter Peyp? Entered Taads, more exactly, appeared because of some ghostly screen. Today he was dress;clad like nobel laureate in vanished book - a short kimono over long raiment of the colour of the rust, chasuble over àëüáû. He will bring the teapot, where, as it was realized later, was water. Short bowed - they in answer too bowed, - disappeared and appeared newly, with high cylindrical small box of the black varnish now. VWXbe drafty Brilliant blackness x-rayed the fine gold(en) threads. Then alternately tray were brought with small patty, autumn fire of the cup cancer, some long narrow wooden âåùèöà, without any çàòåé sliced from bamboo, with a little bent by tip, is woke;waked beside very long finger is drived away only upper phalanx. Afterwards something like shaving shaving brush, made from very fine bamboo escape and decorated by open-work thread, but under the end broad, several rustic types cup and small wooden cup on high drumstick. All this Taads has placed near itself, no doubt on wholly determined places. Motion his(its) reminded the slow dance, but were at most exact. As before reigned the bottomless silence. The Rustle fabrics, noise of boiling water, âîé winds, and all power of the silence was so great that seemed, is woke;waked and subjects, purposes which Inni not âåäàë, assisted to silence, themselves kept quiet, however perfection of its form witnessed that this silence has a purpose. He has looked at Rizenkampa, but that and brow not tale. Sat absolutely still, not tearing away eye from lean, unhurried moving figures Taadsa, which sat opposite. The Silk napkin Philip Taads ïðîòåð bamboo stick, beside which on bend was âûåìêà, and spoon from cup. Has Removed the lid with heavy bronze teapot, çà÷åðïíóë little water, has splashed in cup cancer, has washed there bamboo tassel, or âåíè÷åê, or as he there is identified. Afterwards has slowly transfused water in more broad and roughen cup and simple calico shred dry âûòåð cup cancer. Inni has noticed that he somehow on-especial took the âåùèöû in hands, conducted from itself, put, but as exactly and why, understand could not since under the whole íåòîðîïëèâîñòè all were made quickly and seemed one fluent motion on long, whimsical route ritual obstacle moreover hands timeses did the gestures an áàëèéñêèõ dancers, anyway, looked alien, íååâðîïåéñêèìè. Twice, the long fine stick has doved in ëàêîâóþ small box. Inni has seen, as green tea powder by shade äîæäÿ stack in ginger fire of the cup cancer. Then Taads deep wooden spoon çà÷åðïíóë boiling water, âûëèë in cup and quick, the tassel ïåðåìåøàë mixture ïîðûâèñòûìè by moving - no, "ïåðåìåøàë", probably, not that word, sooner softly and quickly âçáèë. On day of the cup, which has gained now more red tone, appeared foamy pale-green îçåðöî. And immediately any motion çàìåðëî. The Silence could not become deeper, than already was, and even so she is woke;waked else thickened, but can be, this their have sunk in poetry more dangerous, more thick consistency. Then strange gesture of the right-hand man Taads has a little turned the cup, which rested in his(its) left palm, has ïîäâèíóë her(its) Rizenkampu and bowed. Rizenkamp too bowed. Inni çàòàèë breathing. The Antiquary twice (twice? or more? Subsequently he will not be able to recall, either as in general will not be able to ðàñïóòàòü this ball an action) has turned the cup, ïîäíåñ to ðòó, has done one gulp, another, the third moreover with light noise, afterwards, ïðèïîäíÿâ cup, has attentively examined her(it) with all sides, such strange gesture, peacefully äåðæà her(it) in left palm, has brought back into determined or imaginative position and has ïîäâèíóë on mat to master. As often, thought Inni, itself he âûëèâàë water from church container in gold(en) cup whereupon hand of the priest made several light circular motions, and diluted water blood in gold(en) glow danced on circle, but then ïàòåð one powerful gulp soaked up her(it) in itself, dranning cup. On this secret evening was exactly in the same way. Fresh water from teapot, defogging of the cup, same manipulates, same bow, and here is already Inni keeps in hand frail fiery form and ïüåò with closed eye, one gulp, another and here is already on the one third opens the eye and âûñàñûâàåò last green dripped from ghostly, red, closed abysses. The Sheatfish create in My recollection. As Rizenkamp, he has examined the cup with all sides, exactly wanting íàâåêè çàïå÷àòëåòü her(its) form in its shower, has afterwards turned her(its) so, as he was shown correct, and has ïîäâèíóë Taadsu, hardly not hastily, is woke;waked èçáàâëÿÿñü from certain danger. Performing all this, he has noticed that Taads does not reduce with it eye, but did not know, sees that him(it). The Person Taadsa glowed the inconceivable delight, as if he ïðåáûâàë in else more distant and strange place, than that, where admired the lap his(its) guests. They bowed. Taads has got up, as always, one fluid motion, and has taken the spoon, lid from teapot and cup for dirty water. Afterwards returned for ëàêîâîé by small box and cup cancer, but under the end for water. Rizenkamp has too got up, Inni has followed his(its) example, by a narrow margin since çàòåêëè of the leg. Beside he suddenly çàêðóæèëàñü the head. Taads ïîäîøåë to him and hardly has not forced back to door. - Thank you, mister Taads, this was something especial, - has said Rizenkamp. Taads bowed, but has not answered. On his(its) person appeared the smile, strange and distant, as if underlined all east in this person. He anymore will die to speak on-netherland, has thought Inni. Or does not want. None of they did not utter more nor word. Taads once again bowed, on farewell. They too bowed. The Door for they were closed, softly and resolutely. 11 Silently, as two thiefs after large robbery, they came down on long stairway. Outside, the wind has met their squall of the hail. Stisnuv lips, they have hurried VWXbe drafty boer to shop Rizenkampa. The Antiquary âûâåñèë tablet "LOCKED", has lowered the jalousie on frontdoor and has filled two greater glasses barley whisky - a smoke and timber nut. - Find somehow time, - has said he, and in voice his(its) sounded same weariness, what felt Inni, - and I shall in detail tell you about tea ceremony. All are these belongings has its history and importance, their possible study long gody. - He vague gesture has shown on closet beside itself for back, where rows of the books loomed for glass, Inni has swung the head: - Until cost(stand)s. The Good ïîíåìíîæêó. They have drunk. On street wind plaintive moaned in nacked branch, hail dislodged the dimples in grave-black water of the channel. - Was a funeral mass with three participants, - has said Inni. Rizenkamp has looked at it: - Can be, in vain I have sold him this cup. - CHepuha. - Inni has shrugged. His(its) has covered the hopeless sadness. About Taadsah, about fate that goes its way, about lost year and íåâûíîñèìîñòè present world. He took a look at watch. The Half vtorogo. - shall Go see, as there today on exchange. Rizenkamp çàñìåÿëñÿ. - I can say you with closed glazami. - He slowly tale by hand vniz. - Sauve qui peut (Take refuge, who can (fr.)). VWVcarry away Legs, has thought Inni and bade;bid farewell. 12 At the following days Inni timeses overcame the hunt to call at to Taadsu, but for this former farewell was too irrevocable. After three weeks he has rung, and he has in turn rung Rizenkampu. - I rang the housing landlady Taadsa. Has Said that already several days did not see him(it), but person of importance this did not add, he always stealthily øàñòàë here and there, so she was expressed. - And that? - Today from he came the letter, and was there written that she must ring me. - Why? - Is There said only: must ring. And more nor word. She has asked, shall not call at ya. - Why? Guess not difficult, thought Inni, but aloud has not said. The heavy breath ed In tube. - You will go there? - has asked Rizenkamp. - Yes, straight away. But you? - Ladno. - Strangely, as other people capable two slabs to express self-confidence an integer public class.. They were met beside door Taadsa and have rung to landlady. That gave Rizenkampu key. - I with you will not go, - has said she, - afraid somehow. If beside Rizenkampa and was a presentiment, type he did not give. Has Resolutely turned the key in lock and has opened the door. Emptily, hanging screens are lifted, nobody is not seen. Only in the middle rooms, disintegrated on ensemble piece, lay smithereens splitting cup cancer. The clot seemed On golden mat fragment of pottery convolved, dry shelters. - Here us more íå÷åãî to do, - has said the antiquary and has carefully closed the door. 13 Through several days following that, as they have declared about disappearance Philip Taadsa, their have caused in police station Aymaudena to identify the dead body similar to given by description. The Second-other both silently âñìàòðèâàëèñü in blue monster on white sheet, have afterwards confirmed: yes, this Philip Taads. On ñåé once cremated not çàìåðçøåãî, but drowned man. Together with Inni and Rizenkampom has arrived and Bernar Roozenboom though plainly nobody did not know why. - Shall Say so: somewhat I for this in answer since have sent you to Rizenkampu. If I it is correct understand, this ÷àåâíèê don't care committed suicide, but at least once you had not hereto relation. The Cremation occurred in before terror unattractive place on fringe Amsterdam, where none of three never could be. Bernarov "ëåíäðîâåð" long went on áåçëþäíûì gray suburb amongst hospitals and factories. - Not painfully-that looks like road in paradise, - has noticed Bernar. Except them, accompanying was not. The Casket stood on rise, under gray cover, with four bouquets colour - one, asters, from office Taadsa. - And services no, - has mumbled Bernar, but Inni was suddenly recalled single once, when he saw Bernara Roozenbooma aggrieved. There was this in Florencii, much years back. They have tightly lunched beside Douni and without âñÿêîé of the purposes strolled on city. And absolutely unexpectedly found oneself near commanding, not too big building. "See, synagogue", - has said Bernar, and they entered inside. The eye pleased After unrestrained luxury ôëîðåíòèéñêèõ öåðêâåé strictness çäåøíåãî furnishings. Emptily, the whole one person sat at a distance, silently ãëÿäÿ in space before itself. Exactly in five, when have overpunched the watch near öåðêâè, entered one more, in full vestment, sowed;sown. He too peered into space before itself. "Gentlemen, - has mumbled Bernar. - Today øàááàò, but services no". Inni interrogative has looked at it, and he has explained: "Unless will add ten adult mans, õàççàí can not begin". Hung destroying silence. "And long they so will sit?" - has asked Inni and has heard in answer: "Hour". During this hour his(its) did not leave the impression, is woke;waked Bernar Roozenboom straight on eye becomes growing less. In synagogue have mended was two tourists, but, having become shy, immediately deleted. In hour õàççàí has got up and has left, they too left on street. Bernar later never spoke of this, Inni too, but he simply did not know that to say. To Rizenkampu ïîäîøåë of the person in black suit, about than-that has asked. That has swung the head: no, speak nobody not will. The Snub - a tape-recorder çàèãðàë aria from the Third ñþèòû Baja. The Casket has left downwards else previously, than she ended. The Whole ceremony if she deserves such names, lasted five minutes. The World paid with Philip Taadsom. In that wink, when they left on street, calm gray, wet snow was lowered on shoulder their coat. Single, what lacked, was a dove. Both Taadsa appeared in the dreams In this night Inni. Zamerzshiy and drowned man - so they were beside window of his(its) bedrooms, in fit meaningless, barbarous revelry, embraced, soundless êðè÷à in all throat. Inni has got up, ïîäîøåë to window, for which thrashed about on winds scrawny, ice-covered branches. Became to be, beyond all doubt, there is two worlds - in one Taadsy exist, but in the other no, and, fortunately, itself he is else found in the last. On the day destined for his self-immolation, Rikyu invited his chief disciples to a last teaceremony. One by one they advance and take their places. In the tokonoma hangs a kakemono, - a wonderful writing by an ancient monk dealing with the evanescence of all earthly things. The singing kettle, as it boils over the brazier, sounds like some cicada pouring forth his woes to departing summer. Soon the host enters the room. Each in turn is served with tea, and each in turn silently drains his cup. According to established etiquette, the chief guest now asks permission to examine the tea-equipage. Rikyu places the various articles before them with the kakemono. After all have expressed admiration of their beauty, Rikyu presents one of them to the assembled company as a souvenir. The bowl alone he keeps. "Never again shall this cup, polluted by the lips of misfortune, be used by man". He speaks, and breaks the vessel into fragments. Okakura Kakuzo, The Book of Tea* * At day, intended for self-sacrifice, Rik'yu has invited senior their own pupil on the last tea ceremony. One for other enter they and occupy their own place. In tokonoma44 hungs êàêåìîíî - äèâíàÿ functioning(working) the old monk-êàëëèãðàôà, stating about áðåííîñòè whole terrestrial. The Song of the teapot boiling on roasting pan, sounds as complaint of the cicada, which ñêîðáèò on leaving summer. Soon the master enters in room. Each by turns he gives tea, and each by turns silent drans its cup. In consent with installed by etiquette senior from guests asks then permitions to admire the tea attribute. Rik'yu distributes before them varied subjects together with êàêåìîíî. After all have expressed its delight by their beauty, Rik'yu presents each of collected in gift one of these subject. Itself he leaves only cup. "Never more person will use this cup, profaned lip çëîñ÷àñòüÿ", - speaks he and splits her(it) smithereens. Okakura Kakudzo. Book of Tea NOTES 1 Blum ZHak (1887-1966) - a netherland poet. 2 There is in view of Inigo Dzhons (1572-1651) - a famous english architect, creator Uaytholla. 3 Zita Burbon-Parmskaya (1892-1989) - an empress to Austria and queen to Hungaries (1916-1918 gg.), spouse of the austrian emperor Chastised I; after 1919 vein in exile. 4 Fountains Lyuchio (1899-1968) - an italian artist, sculptor and êåðàìèñò. 5 Thirteen, Tereza, not lose never (fr.) - probably, nursery ñ÷èòàëêà. 6 Kuperyus Lui (1863-1923), Daum Sex Adrian (1849-1898), Dermut Marie (1888-1962) - a netherland writers, in creative activity which significant place occupies Netherland India. 7 Viligelim II, prince Oranskiy (1626-1650) - øòàòãàëüòåð Holland, participated in Thirty-year war. 8 Heroes adventure novel german writer Chastised May, white huntsman, friend èíäåéöåâ. 9 Tridentskiy cathedral - a catholic church convened his(its) thrice (1545-1547, 1551-1552, 1562-1563 gg.) against Reformation; the decisions are bolted in "Tridentskom èñïîâåäàíèè" (1564). 10 One of the mains theological compositions Fomy Akvinskogo (1225-1274). 11 see, Tipoff on 95 thesises Lyutera, exposed October 31 1517 in Vyttenberge. 12 Fish (èõòèñ) - an ancient monogram of the name of the Jesus Hrista, was often expressed allegorical in the manner of fish. 13 There is in view of papal throne, after all pope(pa) - a deputy sv. Petra, which was a fisherman. 14 Greeks ZHyuliet (the sort. 1927) - a french vaudeville singer and movie actress. 15 Seas, sea (dr.-grech.) - on certificate of the greek historian Ksenofonta (430-354 before n.e.), such cheer warriors persian reigning Kira have met the sea after long military transition. 16 Shiphol - àìñòåðäàìñêèé aeroport. 17 Fatima - a portuguese village, where several äåòÿì were shown Virgin mary. Lurd - a city in France, where was born sv. Bernadetta, which was too shown Virgin mary. 18 In netherland Brabante, either as in german Bavarii, dominates the catholicism. 19 Great yards - Rhine, Vaal and Ayssel, crossing Netherlands with orient on west. 20 Probably, there is in view of Fasciy Ceciliy Kiprian, bishop Karfagenskiy, saint father and teacher öåðêâè, the known literary figure and theologian (though more often his(its) refer to III v.); strove;strived with schism, espousing united êàôîëè÷åñêóþ church. 21 Mf. 18:17. 22 L k. 1:35. 23 Pictures Rembrandta (1632), is found in Amsterdam, in State ìóçåå. 24 I äðóæèë with your poet SHlauerhofom (him.). - Slauerhoff YAn YAkob (1898-1936) - a netherland poet and ïðîçàèê. 25 Volkers YAn (r. 1925) - a known netherland writer and sculptor. 26 Perekreschency (the anabaptists) - an adherent of the motion, appeared in XVI v. in Switzerlands and Germany in the course of Reformations. Required the secondary christening at conscious age for making free öåðêâè. 27 Tipoffs on myth about Orfee, which searched for its wife Evridiku in underground kindom dead. 28 Royal crews. 29 Personages of the multivolume novel of the Topsail Prusta "In quest of lost time", aesthete, representative of the old-time french sort, set much origin and public status. 30 Appel Karel (r. 1921) - a netherland artist, one of the founder of the national association COBRA, in 1954 íàãðàæäåí big bonuses YUNESKO. 31 Surnames of the artist means "apple". 32 Ukie-e (yaponsk.) images everyday world) - a school japanese painting and wood engravings XVII- XIX vv.; differs the äåìîêðàòèçìîì a plot, assonant town literature of the period Edo (1603- 1867). 33 Utamaro Kitagava (1753 or 1754-1806) - a japanese master to colour wood engraving and painter; the representative of the school óêèå-e. 34 Kakemono (yaponsk.) - a hanging lengthened picture on silk or paper roll. 35 Timpanis - a surface wall between arch and her(its) jumper. 36 Vayang - ÿâàíñêèé theatre cockle. 37 Kavabata YAsunari (1899-1972) - a japanese writer, laureate Nobel prize 1968 38 Tvente - an area on northeast Netherlands. 39 Mayster Ekhart (ok. 1260-1327/1328) - a german mystic, monk-äîìèíèêàíåö. 40 CHzhuan-öçû (ok. 369-286 before n.e.) - äðåâíåêèòàéñêèé philosopher, one of the founders äàîñèçìà. 41 Rastafari - west-èíäñêîå religious-nationalistic motion with admixture ïàíàôðèêàíèçìà, socialism and âåòõîçàâåòíûõ devil; èíñïèðèðîâàëî the generation a stiletto ðýããè. 42 Bozhii children - religious-îáíîâèòåëüíîå motion, founded in 1969 american Devidom Berg, which has declared that traditional öåðêâè do not follow the Jesus, and has proclaimed itself shepherd èçãîåâ - a hippie, drug addict and other. 43 Dzhezualido di Venoza Chastised, prince Venozy (ok. 1560-1613/1614) - an italian composer, master of the madrigal, used bold for its time of the harmonies and melodics. 44 Special niches, where expose the works of art, in main premises of the japanese building. . But for it this little that signified. Leaves, you his(its) knew? - Yes. - He spoke on me? My name - Philip. - No, he nor reek did not mention that he has a soat scent you has, - has said once upon a time Bernar, - but you at the best dilettante, but more exactly, common junkman". Inni sowed;sown on settee and has turned the pages of "Faynenshlier, racing down declivity, in valley. You ìîæåøü âîîáðàçèòü such picture? From afar human figured seems black, to itself êàëëèãðàô, she draws the certain sign on white sheet of the snow. Long, gracefu.).). This not name, but moniker. But Inigo else ñìåøíåå. Some people think that, giving its äèòÿòè name to celebrities, at the same time provide his(its) corresponding to talent. Inigo Vintrop, famous on the nion of Inni, nothing other impossible was explain that nobody, well absolutely nobody could not later tell him, what was summer sixty third years. When speech called at about summer, about any summer, itself he invariàêó. The Prodigy. - Go, - has said Inni. The Eternal repetition event. He went from Prinsengraht and with bridge, crossed Spihelgraht, has immediately seen Taadhen Zita from bank on Veyzelstraat moves in "Dutch coffee North-South" that near Central station, Inni, unmeasured slowly, goes in opposite side, home. On road peeks in "Sheltema", "Koningshut", "Hoppe", "Piper", "Hans and Gritie", in cafe "Sentrum". Never else he soà, which nobody did not toil to close the eye, âîçëåæàëà aunt. - A Tablets, - has quietly said Petra. They are a sections uncle and have lowered in rose sarcophagus near by ïîêîéíèöåé. - Me bad, - has said Inni. nd victim. Here is, even so stretches the hand. The Finger ëåãîíüêî concerned the medicine to be taken externally to surfaces and much slowly, is woke;waked to be afraid of to make the sacrilege, disappeared inwardly. Nobody did not utter nortoo asked outward and convulsive, obsessed crept upwards and pulled at for throat. From eye ðó÷üåì poured the tears. Adown he saw the dark collapse of the garden and though êðóæåíüå ïîóòèõëî, desperately clung for wims, but than-that like these stone, capable to express all that çàáëàãîðàññóäèòñÿ. Properly speaking, thought Inni, this room, is either as gravel platform with three stones, completely reveals its person, when in her nobody no, includin. Otherwise programmed. Beside who did not disappear else hunt to become such, that must store the solid portion of the madness to although somehow here bear. On us hopes no. Has Finally spouted theather. On approach to her you even and did not guess, where get, and contrast with desolation Peyp, which already in that years (foreshadowing that later whole city will forfeit its briliance), is woke;waked voracious mildew, cordly quite others. Otherwise programmed. Beside who did not disappear else hunt to become such, that must store the solid portion of the madness to although somehow here bear. On us hopes no. er àëüáû. He will bring the teapot, where, as it was realized later, was water. Short bowed - they in answer too bowed, - disappeared and appeared newly, with high cylindrical small box of the black varnish now. VWXbe drafty Brilliant blackness e first time Inni heard that someone in all detail told about own death though approaches she only after years. 10 The Luxury, rather then wealth - here islks with the other watcher. I afforded to gulp down the whisky,: twice at day, on two fingers, - he has shown Inni two horizontally built together finger, - in no event more. Has Once ïðåâûñèë the rate and quite îäóðåë. What good, happened to de itself person. On foregrounds and as it were adown, after all he stood on rise, thronged the princes and princesses, and broad their person expressed that for the best to name the afraid form confusion. Philip Taed subject light áóäíè÷íîñòü, due to that became clear that them possible else and sell. For the first time Inni realized, what this strange profession - an antiquary. - A Mister Vintrop, - has said this man, - I already heard of you. Berads. - A Mister Vintrop, - has said on telephone Rizenkamp, - think, time came. On auction beside Druo I have inexpensively gained something especial for our friend Taadsa though and distrust, on pocket.spank my wives bottom, farmers wife, home made movie wife, asian wives, video of wife being spanked, ex wife revenge photos, neighbor wife, wife hand job, free naked wife photos, my teacher's wife.